I hate this mug. I dont think the designer ever tested it out. When you drink from it right handed the bee brushes on your lip. Its so irritating, and I dont know about you but I dont want a bee anywhere near my mouth. 

It alarmed me how primitive the triggers were that used to cause me anxiety. The hiss of a bottle opening was like a snake. A shadow falling over me was like being over shadowed by a predator. Dogs barking triggered fight or flight in me. It was so unavoidable and programmed deep in my nature, probably thousands of years ago.  This is why the brain is such a tough cookie to master.

Hmmmm.....?

 Write the word DENT in capitols. Hold the piece of paper in front of a mirror. Next turn it upside down.

 What does it spell ?

 There has been a tragedy just down the road. A builder / farmer has run over his 3 year old grandson with a tractor. Over ten emergency vehicles raced the scene, and a helicopter, but he died sadly. It doesnt seem real this morning. The birds are still singing their dawn chorus and people continue their daily work. What else can they do ? This is awful, but also so resilient. Nature is resilient. 

Each time I think about what has happened I feel a bit worse than before. Anyone who works with machinery knows this is their worst fear. The guilt, that awful guilt. How can anyone ever recover ?

Worst of all the childs parents were on holiday abroad when it happened...

Quite enjoying this new channel ive found. Im sure there is a film about this starring  a young Hugh Grant. I like the idea of this legend. It strikes a chord with me.

 

Organ transplant (I cannot tell you how much this title has amused me )

I dont know why, but I got the urge to visit a church in the neighboring valley of Garsdale at dusk last night. I want to photograph this organ which has a bit a history to it. Originally this organ was in the chapel that is just down the road from my house in Dent valley. When this building was no longer used for worship it was made into a house. The organ was sold and went somewhere down South from here. I thought that would be the end of it, but no. The chapel in Garsdale suddenly needed a new organ after theirs broke. They ended up buying this one from said southern church, and the organ came back north into Garsdale, just over the hill where it had lived for decades. I find that weird.

When I first visited the chapel I thought the organ looked familiar, but would never have though it was the same one that I grew up with. I remember attending Sunday School anniversaries where we recited poems that we had learnt by heart to the congregation. Up in the pulpit we could see the mysterious workings at the back of the organ, the dusty pipes ect. We might even spot a mouse trap or two round the back. It seemed a forbidden view behind the grand facade of the key board and fancy pipes.

When I turned on the light switch this flood light flickered constantly giving a strobe effect. That was strange alright.

This photo turned out nice considering it was nearly dark.

                                                   

Suddenly. Starkly

 90% of BBC news readers and reporters are non white females.

 The BBC news has become obsessed with foreign news, and it seems it is nothing more than a service to keep those in touch with whats going on in their own country back home.

 Women TV presenters chatter among themselves about news stories in a magazine type format.

There seems a definite disconnect with native British men. 

Now who would have thought it ?

It is, as it is I guess

 Adverts have taken a dark turn. What do I see advertised on my TV now everyday ?  Funeral plans on a monthly payment, charity based lotteries, disturbing animal cruelty charity adverts, government Social Security adverts telling people to update their claims if their circumstances have changed and even today an advert telling how much easier my life will be with a digital ID. Its depressing.

Meanwhile the roads here are crumbling. They are only just fit for a car and if serious work is not done soon they will be impassible unless you have an SUV or pickup. Not even this weekends Dent Run has prompted any repairs. Im sure there will be trip ups and falls. Maybe then something will get done ? 

The two village pubs are grinding to a halt and houses are still not selling. A pub window is even boarded up as it appears to have blown out in last nights wild weather. We just need some graffiti to finish the job.

On a positive note a road east out of the valley has been repaired after a land slip. Its been well over a year in the doing. As with anything council related it is so slow. All Britain works this way. Protocols and schedules which take no urgency, or local needs into account are the problem. 

I am now going to fix my wife's car that has broken a suspension spring. Wish me luck.

I found this photo that I took last summer. Today I feel looking back that this is the definitive proof for me that systematic and orchestrated messing with the weather has occurred in the UK. Some days the trails were manic and undeniable. What the hell are we messing with here ? Remember, its all for the good of the planet.

 The way the Spring light illuminates all the wear and deterioration on your surroundings, and your  possessions.

 And last but not least, you !

Greetings ?

 These last few years ive noticed a little gust of playful wind greeting me as I walk up to our house door. It rustles through a beech hedge for a second or so and no more. It stops once Im passed.

This also happens when I return home from a journey. 

 Bad noises this morning -   Some ******** with a chainsaw

                                             Hoover

                                             Hiss of an aerosol can

                                             Crack of a slamming door

                                             The clunk of a solid wooden draw closing 

 Ive gone through a transformation. I cant bare to watch  the news for more than 2 minutes without just despairing and changing channels. Sometimes I only make it seconds in. Its all passed a point where I can relate to it anymore. Everything is so see through.

On a brighter note what sounds do I now hear on awakening ?  

Jackdaws cackling

Blackbirds gabbling

Wood Pigeons cooing

Woodpeckers pecking

Chaffinches tweeting

Its a wet grey morning...

No one is above the law. That's the mantra here in the UK at the moment. Its supposed to reassure us but many have been above the law for decades, and only now are being thrown to the wolves and public opinion.

Thats a bit worrying. Of course the media cannot say or grasp this. Each institution takes its turn to have our faith in it destroyed, or weakened. Celebrity, politics, church leaders, schools, pop stars ect even Royality all have been exposed as being corrupted. There arent many groups left. Can you think of any ? You better not mention who or you will be in deep trouble.

Apparently we are all equal now ?!

The seasonal energy is rising in my core.

This makes me angry. Note the seal hits the man but not the woman ? He is black however but he is obviously not being given preferential treatment. Is this good ? Should the woman be hit ? Should no one be hit ? Have I to much time on my hands having woken up early ? lol

 

*****

 Monday morning at 8am...BBC breakfast morning show. The first words I hear " A bereaved mothers long running battle... "  I immediately switch channels without even waiting for the sentence to finish. Why does the BBC think I want to start my day by listening to this misery ? They love it, especially the long nosed Sally Nugent. 

Out of the frying pan and into the fire though as an extremely annoying advert is on the next channel involving a man sat at a restaurant table and a dog is along side him eating a plate of food as if human. It quickly gets worse as the camera pans behind to show they  both have wagging tails. Are they humanizing the dog or de-humanizing the man ?

This may sound silly but the equalizing  of dogs and humans is going on in society. I see it in people walking dogs and their attitudes already. How long before the human devalues themselves to an animal status ? They already resort to an animal  status howling and shrieking if they perceive their dog is under threat.

There was a third annoyance but ive forgotten what it was. However I remember turning  over to YouTube. The ultimate apparent cure ?

What do people want to spend their money on nowadays ? 

In the UK its Only Fans and internet gambling via mobile phones

 

Ive only recently seen the lyrics for this song after all these years. They are rather cutting and predictive about how society has gone. Is this an accurate description of a Californian mindset ? 

Favourite line  - " Getting high on information " lol

 

I feel funny...lol

 I lost my train of thought whilst writing that last post. The reason ? Halda Yakim came on the TV. Her bone structure is just so handsome, and the curved symmetry of her arched smile and eyes look like half moons. So I decided to find a photo of her, but I couldnt find any recent ones. As she has aged the lines of her face have just got better. Handsome is not a word usually associated by me with a female, but it just sums up how I see her.

I must have it bad because when I took a picture of her from the TV she did not look at all like how I see her, or how she appears to me. Weird. My mind is seeing her differently. Is that what love is ? This photo is the most accurate though.

Get out !

 After a bad week I was feeling drained, and extremely angry so I decided to cycle along my favorite canal path. For about 10 minutes the sun came out and I stood closing my eyes and feeling the growing warmth on my face. It reminded  me of when I was not well, and would sit in the garden just feeling the growing warmth of the sun getting stronger each day. Life was returning to nature, and everything was thriving, except me. I shall never forget the intensity of that suffering and the ecstasy of feeling that spring energy. Ive sat many times in that garden since, but have never managed to regain that intense feeling. My only concern was me and getting better. It was such a pure state. I didnt care about anything else.

 

 Why cant I share videos on here straight from YouTube anymore ?

The Blogger share tab has gone ?

Monty Python - Climbing the North Face of the Uxbridge Road

Classic Monty Python humor. I love it.

I wonder...

 You never know whats coming. Yesterday a helium filled birthday balloon blew into a building of cows which spooked them causing a stampede, and one to even jump out over the gate in fright. Its a good job I was not in the building. The plot thickens when I picked up the balloon as it was dark blue and it looked like an older persons color in my opinion. I know of a man who has just had his 85th birthday family  gathering and his daughter married that person who is the nut case further up the valley who caused me to have to chain the field gates. It would be about right if this balloon was linked to him and his family...lol

Imagine dying because of a dis-guarded balloon. 

Life is a joke.

My Uncle is right - Everything is dangerous

A week ago I woke up to this. My metal fish ornament had fallen off the wall above the stove and landed some distance away the right side up, and in a suspiciously straight  line as though it was pointing at where it had fallen from. Last time this happened was at our old house in the village. Welding was required that time, which amused a mechanic carrying out the repair.

This wall hanging means so much to me as I bought it at Boscastle in Cornwall at a very special time of my life, a magical and mysterious time i will never experience again. The fish are very cleverly arrange to mimic a shoal superbly. 

Three Dancing Pony - Advert

Ive always had a sentimental spot for this old advert. But on watching again today one thing hits me right between the eyes. At 1:42 as the tractor drives past the pony ceases dancing briefly to preserve its mundane appearance. Thats how I feel living in this valley, if i'm mowing the lawn or washing my car or when doing anything none  farm work related. These acts trigger curiosity in people, and I hate to admit it but in me as well, but I try to fight such a silly outlook. It doesnt help when people drive past our farm and automatically glance into the yard to see " whats up "

I think its a kind of sensory deprivation that causes this. Its cabin fever, but created by an enclosed valley. This all sounds ridiculous when put in print.

Over heard Americans

 Last night in the chip shop cafe  " Didnt Jesus once enter a church with a whip when he was really pissed off or something " ?

I know its a stereo type but many Americans ive heard just dont stop talking in a whinny droning voice. On and on they go. Im not sure how that line cropped up...lol

Didnt some one once call it the " eternal sea " ?

 Right now the media are bringing up the fact that Starmer may not last politically this year out. If that is so then we shall soon have a leadership  challenge election in the Labour party. Once again a leader will emerge who has not been elected by the general public.This happens with increasing frequency both here, and if you notice around the world. 

In the 80's government leaders seemed  more stable and lasted their full term. The last Conservative government had 5 leaders during its reign. What a joke. Its like musical chairs. Every move a leader makes is scrutinized and analysed with equal intensity by 24 hour news. The smallest development is spread out into days of news coverage. It seems everyone has a short boredom threshold including politicians who constantly want to tinker to gain popularity as soon as a little trouble arrives. on the other hand...

Labour won a historical landslide but today the party is turning on its leader ( and no surprise there ) How quickly a huge win crumbles. I guess thats how democracy works, and its a good thing as long as the new person actually delivers true change. The problem is they never do so it all seems like a farce. Whoever comes next must deliver change. The problem is that to elect that savior will require us to vote in faith again in a system that has let us down so often. If people are tired enough they will give the wheel one last spin, and I think it will be the last one.

Just like Billy ?

 Yesterday I was given quite a start. My daughter sat with one hand holding the neck of her jumper against her face with two fingers. This is exactly how my late granddad used to sit in that same pose. He died long before she was born though. So where on earth did she learn that position from ? 

On another occasion years ago when she was maybe 7 years old I watched her walk across a field with her hands held behind her back, and leaning slightly forward. That was another trait of my granddad. As ive previously said she never met him and I was genuinely shocked, though she found it amusing.

Its not unusual for character traits to get passed down the generations, but physical postures like these ? Saying that I drum my fingers and have been told that my great granddad did the same. Of course genes pass down physical traits and character traits, but do they pass on habits like these and if so why ? as they are surely pretty random, and nature only does what it needs to do and no more with great efficiency.

Maybe the answer is "un-natural " Maybe some parts of the past relative literally enter us at times ? Ive stopped short of using the R word here. At what point might you think it may become appropriate ?

Ghosts. Are Poltergeists Actually Demons?

I decided to watch this after some odd things happened today. Yes, its that " haunted bin " again. Sounds utterly ridiculous but this bin channels some really odd energy that I believe  to poltergeist like. Often the swinging bin lid will rock all on its own as though someone has given the lid a shove or dropped something in it.

Today saw something new. The lid was open  a little and as I reached out to put a tea bag in it shut completely closing the gap completely with a suspicious timing designed to annoy. The first time amused me but I shrugged it off. Later on it happened again and tonight my wife said the same happened to her with split second timing. Three times in a day is not coincidence. The timing is spot on and very cheeky ! 

Also this week an empty can rolled of the kitchen table and landed at my wifes feet. Again quite amusing really. Im feeling tense and on edge at the moment. I feel like my nervous system is in dis -ease. This maybe a contributing factor. These things really are attracted to distress. When I wasnt well things got crazy regarding things moving. 90% of the time the kitchen is where these things occur. 

There are some interesting ideas in this video. The one about NPC people rings true...lol There is a part of me that thinks these movements are coming from energy leaking from our bodies or force field. Thats not as dramatic as the idea of another entity though. Ive had this kind of activity around me for years and really need to document it and write a history of it here. 

Small wins. Well actually quite big.

 We must acknowledge small wins. I pointed this out to a YouTuber who makes lots of content on the dystopian state that the UK is slowly becoming. This awful government has made two huge U - turns on very controversial issues that would impact our future recently.

The first was cancelling the planned inheritence tax increase for farmers wanting to pass on land after their death. I think someone told the government that future food supplies could be in jeopardy.

The second was a U-turn by reversing a compulsory new rule that would require a digital I.D be necessary if you wanted to work.

We have more power than we think.

Other stupid ideas ahead will be quashed as well I hope. If we dont acknowledge small wins we shall go mad.

Ive noticed that many YouTubers have mental health issues meaning that some corruption of viewpoints may be occurring, but doesnt that apply to everyone ?

The BBC Cult: The Symbolism of BBC Television Centre

Interesting to see the whats behind the outer walls of the BBC Television Center. Im shocked to see how many masonic symbols there are in London architecture in general. Its all quite lairy and once your'e shown, and taught, a new world seems to be hidden  right in plain sight. Its not a conspiracy, its literally concrete !