Bad noises this morning -   Some ******** with a chainsaw

                                             Hoover

                                             Hiss of an aerosol can

                                             Crack of a slamming door

                                             The clunk of a solid wooden draw closing 

 Ive gone through a transformation. I cant bare to watch  the news for more than 2 minutes without just despairing and changing channels. Sometimes I only make it seconds in. Its all passed a point where I can relate to it anymore. Everything is so see through.

On a brighter note what sounds do I now hear on awakening ?  

Jackdaws cackling

Blackbirds gabbling

Wood Pigeons cooing

Woodpeckers pecking

Chaffinches tweeting

Its a wet grey morning...

No one is above the law. That's the mantra here in the UK at the moment. Its supposed to reassure us but many have been above the law for decades, and only now are being thrown to the wolves and public opinion.

Thats a bit worrying. Of course the media cannot say or grasp this. Each institution takes its turn to have our faith in it destroyed, or weakened. Celebrity, politics, church leaders, schools, pop stars ect even Royality all have been exposed as being corrupted. There arent many groups left. Can you think of any ? You better not mention who or you will be in deep trouble.

Apparently we are all equal now ?!

The seasonal energy is rising in my core.

This makes me angry. Note the seal hits the man but not the woman ? He is black however but he is obviously not being given preferential treatment. Is this good ? Should the woman be hit ? Should no one be hit ? Have I to much time on my hands having woken up early ? lol

 

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 Monday morning at 8am...BBC breakfast morning show. The first words I hear " A bereaved mothers long running battle... "  I immediately switch channels without even waiting for the sentence to finish. Why does the BBC think I want to start my day by listening to this misery ? They love it, especially the long nosed Sally Nugent. 

Out of the frying pan and into the fire though as an extremely annoying advert is on the next channel involving a man sat at a restaurant table and a dog is along side him eating a plate of food as if human. It quickly gets worse as the camera pans behind to show they  both have wagging tails. Are they humanizing the dog or de-humanizing the man ?

This may sound silly but the equalizing  of dogs and humans is going on in society. I see it in people walking dogs and their attitudes already. How long before the human devalues themselves to an animal status ? They already resort to an animal  status howling and shrieking if they perceive their dog is under threat.

There was a third annoyance but ive forgotten what it was. However I remember turning  over to YouTube. The ultimate apparent cure ?

What do people want to spend their money on nowadays ? 

In the UK its Only Fans and internet gambling via mobile phones

 

Ive only recently seen the lyrics for this song after all these years. They are rather cutting and predictive about how society has gone. Is this an accurate description of a Californian mindset ? 

Favourite line  - " Getting high on information " lol

 

I feel funny...lol

 I lost my train of thought whilst writing that last post. The reason ? Halda Yakim came on the TV. Her bone structure is just so handsome, and the curved symmetry of her arched smile and eyes look like half moons. So I decided to find a photo of her, but I couldnt find any recent ones. As she has aged the lines of her face have just got better. Handsome is not a word usually associated by me with a female, but it just sums up how I see her.

I must have it bad because when I took a picture of her from the TV she did not look at all like how I see her, or how she appears to me. Weird. My mind is seeing her differently. Is that what love is ? This photo is the most accurate though.

Get out !

 After a bad week I was feeling drained, and extremely angry so I decided to cycle along my favorite canal path. For about 10 minutes the sun came out and I stood closing my eyes and feeling the growing warmth on my face. It reminded  me of when I was not well, and would sit in the garden just feeling the growing warmth of the sun getting stronger each day. Life was returning to nature, and everything was thriving, except me. I shall never forget the intensity of that suffering and the ecstasy of feeling that spring energy. Ive sat many times in that garden since, but have never managed to regain that intense feeling. My only concern was me and getting better. It was such a pure state. I didnt care about anything else.