Bo Burnham - Bezos I (Lyrics) "Zuckerberg and gates and buffett amateurs...

Just somehow cool...

Endless sexual bombardment ?

 Wow. What a title ! Seriously though, ive just realized this week how bombarded we men are with sexual images, and women in real life who are showing, literally showing off their reproductive tackle on the street. In broad daylight, and some are not yet even women which is even more shocking.

Of course the prime example of this is online, especially YouTube shorts , and if you have it Tick Tock, oh and YouTube videos, all have a " thumb nail " of a frozen picture of a fit woman, if possible giving a provocative image to the photo that is not always honest about whats to come. Sometimes it is though. Its impossible to go online without seeing these images they use to grab mens attention. There is no shame in it. People will do anything to get you clicking - click bait. Its just the way of the world now, but I do feel played sometimes. It gets wearing overtime, this marketing to the sex instinct.

The second " problem " is womens street ware. Leggings worn so tight you can see that which should not be seen. Who goes out knowing everyone can see their vagina ? Most common though are women who show off their  backsides. Its become the norm. Bums wiggling every where you look. Hips, thighs and bums  " exposed ". They might as well not be wearing anything. Again its the norm everyday.

Ive heard the excuse that leggings are " comfortable ". Only a woman could believe that, or fool herself thats the whole story. I would love to ask someone who wears such things, why ? Even the few people I know in real life who have dressed like this I find too embarrassing to ask.

It used to be plain legs and cleavage that women displayed, but now its gone so much further. So where do we go from here ? Whats the next stage ? Can a woman expose herself anymore than what she already is doing today ? I doubt it.

I think this whole lyrca businesses started in sports wear though, and has infiltrated womens egos. What a strange species they are. They talk equality, but then do everything in their power to get mens attention in the most base way. They dont want to be " sexualised " but look at the image they give out ? I think they think its clever to give out the image that they say they dont approve of to put men on uneasy ground. They love it, and claim to be unaware, they must be unaware though surely though ? Im not betting on it.

Hawkwind - Shot down In the Night

One of my favorites. A wall of sound. Reminds me of lockdowns and Whernside fell with all its cameras and watchers of various sorts...lol

So what of the mind in dis-ease ?

 Sometimes the body breaks

 Sometimes the mind breaks

 Sometimes the mind breaks the body...

I have recently suddenly realized how much the mind rules out lives, and perceptions of EVERYTHING !

Colours, atmospheres, judging people...the list is endless. 

Can any of our perceptions be trusted as  " true " ? 

Home sweet home

 I found a chipping on my bed today, and I'm sure Ive just heard one now fall inside a wardrobe. It takes things from home about 4 -5 days to find you when you move away. Ive seen it before. The shower has started leaking and dripping. That happens after a few days too. 

Too close to the bone ?  That saying must have a story behind it...

Taking the...

Yes, I know I live in the sticks, but coming across this set up when stopping at some toilets in the lake district had me bemused. The fact cash was not accepted, even a simple 50p needed to come from a contactless cash card. I remember on a trip to London years ago needing to put 20p into a turn style to access a toilet, and that shocked me then. Such a hi-tech set up seems over kill, and what about if someone scams your card details from it as they can do with bank cash machines ? Its ridiculous.

Raising awareness...

If you can zoom in on this its just readable. Something I saw in a Scottish cafe a few years ago. I was angry at the use of the Loch Ness monster to attract people ( probably children ) to the promotion of a subject not really appropriate for a cafe setting. 

Why are these people obsessed with shoving their sex lives in our faces, when most people dont care and are to busy to care what they get up to ? I expect they bring most trouble upon themselves riling people up who would never have taken the time to examine them normally.

Being a minority was an act or rebellion in my youth so why do they nowadays push to be mainstream ? Insecurity I guess ? 

The king of beggars

Today we walked passed a beggar on our way into a town. Immediately when I saw him sat by the path at the base of some steps I knew he was going to play mind games. I turned to my daughter and said " Watch what happens now " Straight away he made direct eye contact from about 25 meters away as we walked along the narrow pathway towards him. I felt uneasy already. As we got closer he began tapping on his cardboard box rhythmically. It was now impossible to turn back or pretend we had not seen him, as he sat by the steps that we had to climb to reach the shops in the town center. Ratta - tat- tat...ratta- tat- tat he continued. As we finally reached him he said " Hello " as if he expected a donation as he had prepared the ground so well I guess ?

The trap had been set. The long walk towards him. The tapping upping the tension as we got closer, and his position at the base of stairs were all well thought out. No, I didnt give him anything. I was out of breath after climbing the steps afterwards. I felt a mixture of admiration of his cunning, and annoyance of having been the intended victim of his mind game.

Entitled Faith or Fate by the artist

Life is now nothing more...

Annoying

 Erm, had a strange first day on holiday. While in the bathroom all went darker for a second as if someone or something has passed the door way. I looked round but everyone was upstairs.

Tonight a wine glass shattered with a bang and scared the wits out of me as loud noises still make me jump.

I also managed to loose my only coat and a jumper and hat. Im not sure where. Lets see if they magically turn up again in this house.

Reaping where I have not sowed

The result of an hours foraging. Blackberries from the road side, mint from the garden and some pureed apples that were snagged on a wagon of straw that was delivered to the farm ! 

Time to take a break

 My challenge now is NOT to work for a week !  Im having a weeks holiday, but only about 30 miles away near the town of Penrith. Its on the edge of the Lake District, and very centrally placed to reach some interesting and nice areas that would be a trek from home. 

Ive spent several months keeping busy just to keep my mind. I at last feel like travelling outside my area now. Im hoping I can settle in a fresh house though. My mind nor body has not liked at any time being idle for 2 seasons now. I crave routine work. Usually after a winter of such work Im in the complete opposite frame of mind, and cant wait to get away and rest.

I honestly can say that a weeks ago I would not have wanted to go away, so thats another improvement. I have no desire to travel the usual 330 miles north this year though. What will be unusual is being still quite " local " or travelling to things which are in my sphere of what I class as "home ". Stopping literally at home in the spring when I always go away was an experience too that ive never had. It showed me a side to this area I had not seen, a missing jigsaw piece ,and maybe a new situation I needed to face - how to cope when feeling mentally unwell, and so uneasy like a wandering ghost.

I would like to thank another blogger for being with me in those scary times. They had an understanding of the symptoms I was suffering. It really helped when everyone around me seemed to not surprisingly struggle to always " get " what was wrong with me over the months. Ive felt a " tribulation " and " collapse " of something coming for years as you do.

There is an internet connection where Im going and shall post IF it works.  Why do holiday places have unusable televisions and unreliable complicated internet ? Can you master the tv remotes ? Unlikely...lol Hell hath no fury like a daughter with no wi-fi either.

Second by second

"  Dont panic...watch out ! "

This line was spoken by someone yesterday. A situation with animals turned in a second. This is so profound and can be applied to life in general. At what moment do we listen to others ? And are they only right for a second ? And at what second can that change ? Can YOU see it coming. You need to.

I Hear You're A Racist Now, Father! - Father Ted

This scene came to mind a few days ago from one of the greatest British comedy series ever created. I was sitting in my favorite cafe one night recently, as it is very quiet in an evening... when a large Chinese family came in. Why do foreign people speak so loud ?  The noise grew and grew and the children rose their voices to. As my hearing is still a little sensitive I moved a table away from them, and immediately realized that might I look a little bit discriminatory. I had nothing to fear though as another woman soon got up from her table and told them to keep the noise down. Problem solved.

The sit com Father Ted was at first seen as very controversial, as it had Catholic priests as the main characters, and they were not exactly what you would call dedicated. In fact they had been dumped on Craggy Island by the church as a punishment. Today no one cares, but at the time it caused a media up roar, and it was aired on a newly created channel that showed more " edgy " programs - Channel 4.  In fact unbelievably there only was 4 channels back then or at least that was all we had in our house at the time. A quick look on YouTube will turn up some great comedy moments from the show. It really was brilliant !

A not so straight forward horseman ? A very modern on to...

The good The bad and The Bobby

No sooner had I told my daughter she could keep a lamb she had named Bobby, then this popped up on my YouTube. They are listening, but only for trivial stuff, maybe ?

The lamb should be sold really as it is a castrated male and has no use on the farm, but she has grown close to it, and took it for walks ect. It was the first " pet " ( oh, the irony ) lamb of the season and had a large bulge under its stomach. I didnt think it would live and was surprised when the swelling was not a rupture and gradually disappeared. She is also keeping another pet lamb to put to the tup and have its own lambs next year...

 

Its along story, but...

The dove from above ?

 Tonight my mother relayed a strange story told to her by a woman attending a funeral at the village church. She said throughout the service a white dove was perched looking through the church window as though watching what was going on inside. When the funeral goers gathered around the open grave outside, the bird flew round and round in circles over head, only to then land on a gravestone and watch the burial and the coffin being lowered. She commented that no one else seemed bothered, or took any notice of the bird. Sounds about right. Some people couldnt see a mystical event even in front of their own face.

What else did I expect ?

 Yesterday our water supply pipe silted up and needed cleaning out with draining rods. Having solved the problem water flowed freely, but not for long. Mid afternoon all water ceased. I thought maybe the pipe had blocked again, and it took me some time to find the source of the problem. Something had turned the stop tap off under the kitchen sink, and only in the last hour or so after I fixed the previous problem.

Ive seen stop taps  " turn them selves off " before. The last time it happened three times in one morning in the  farm yard. I was sure someone was messing with me, but the most bizarre instance was at our water supply storage tank. A big old stop tap that was in an underground cavity that had grassed over for years ago turned itself off. No one had touched that as it had grassed over and I would have seen any disturbance. Its bad enough the things water can do here without some unseen force turning off main stop taps.

Dinner in the garden saw my cutlery jingle twice by itself as the plate lay on the floor. The heat which is nearly 30c and a full moon is no doubt to blame . I think poltergeists or whatever need heat as energy to manifest easier... More things move in the day than at night, and more things move on their own in summer than winter

This appeared on my bed as I typed the above post  !  

Water is doing strange things in our pipes too. Rushing noises sound like water moving rapidly in short bursts, but nothing in the house is using any at the time. The last time this happened was just before my daughter was born and it followed me everywhere...

Sunrise

Yesterday saw  an early start to beat the heat. Every year the sight of a rising August sun fills me with a sense of the suns raw power. The colour  is so vibrant. So powerful and primeval.

Where are they coming from ?

 Ive mentioned before on here about the falling chipping incidents in this house. You often here a tap and find a single chipping has dropped out of this air and onto the floor. This happened at 4.30am this morning as I sat alone on the sofa. No one else was in the room, and my feet were bare so there was no footwear that could have had, say a chipping stuck in the sole.

These individual chippings are always the same size and triangular. They are the same size as used on a road surface, but are a different colour. All are a dark brown and have a sand stone texture. After finding said chipping I picked it up and dropped it on purpose myself to compare the sound. On doing this  it bounced several times making several taps. When it originally dropped it made it only one very solid tap, so it must have not fallen from a great height, or landed in a controlled manner. If it dropped from a very low height as the lack of bounce suggests then how did it make such a sharp sound ?

These stones seem to be coming from another dimension or time. They have become quite common and no one really is amazed in this house when it happens. Its the same with moving objects. Its just a given. How ive come to see these things as routine I dont know. I was going to post a photo of the chipping but its gone from where I left it. There will be more though. You can count on that.

 Surge protected ?

Ive been on holiday by mistake ! ( sort of )

 After watching Withnail and I I have been dying to use that line...lol Well it is true to some extent because my daughter was away for the weekend, but she drank something from McDonalds that contained caffeine. She was up all night, shaking and crying, and this continues all the next morning. I was on my way to a car show at home when I got a phone call saying she wanted to come home. So I drove about 80 miles North which is just over the Scottish border to collect her. Which technically I might count as a " holiday " lol Of course as soon as I got out of the car I fired the line at her...

Driving back south again did feel like we were coming home from our traditional Scottish holiday which felt surreal. What is amusing though is that we have booked a week near Penrith which is the town Withnail and I is based around. Its only about 30 miles away, but I just dont want to travel far this year. A month ago I wouldnt have been upto going
at all.

Power walk

 Today I saw a colored woman walking down the street. Immediately I noticed her posture and walk. Shoulders back, arm swinging and a perfectly upright back. I thought to myself at first that she must have practiced that walk, but then a few minutes later it suddenly dawned to me - she had been taught that walk. She must have worked in the modelling industry at some point for a long while, or maybe still did. It was a catwalk walk for sure. It was funny how she still carried it onto the street though. It must have taken a great deal of work to walk that way and be so upright and rigid. It was no accident or a vanity exercise.

Home sweet home...

I took this photo of our house from the other side of the valley last night while on a bike ride.

To some extent maybe ?

Daria Stretch Pants

Its also funny how Ugg boots used to be worn by pensioners to keep their feet warm before they became fashionable that is.

How very modern !

 It seems we have a transgender lamb on the farm. How modern. While sorting out this years lambs into male and female groups I got hold of what I though was a male lamb with a broader head and horns only when I checked it had female genitalia complete with male contained within. I suppose I should ask it what its identifies as ? But ive made an executive decision and called it male as I dont think anyone will be very pleased if they buy it as a female. Could it breed ? Possible, but unlikely as it looks very male.

This is exert from the novel The English Assassin  by Micheal Moorcock. I find this extremely profound. Is this really why the world never changes ? Or is this concept out of date now that we have the internet ? After all views can be shared world wide, and minority groups can spread their views and corrupt the young with views far from their parents traditional ones... There again there is that saying about the first 7 years of a childs life being imprinted on their outlook for ever. Maybe this theory can just be swallowed whole and accepted, and then we can relax, give up and just live ?

Newspapers - Yes Prime Minister 😂

Im not how many people are still buying newspapers anymore, but im certain that the groups described here are still buying the same ones !

Tipping point ?

Its been a strange unsettling day with a gusty warm wind blowing from somewhere that is experiencing hot weather. Somewhere south no doubt. There is an air of urgency and action today punctuated with heavy rain showers, which if it wasnt for the warm wind I would say were autumnal in nature. All day the mist has hung halfway down the hill sides adding to the forlorn atmosphere. 

 I see on fb memories that this day has been unsettling for years to me. I think its the tipping point of summer. Tonight the strangest wind flung the tree branches about in different directions all at once as though it were trying to rip them apart. It looked as though everything was under water and floating in a current. The tree above my shed was caught by such a gust and it was disturbingly un-natural. The shadows seemed to darken in the branches while this happened. It gave me an anxious feeling. I did not like it.

An inconvenient truth ?

 I sometimes wonder if part of my condition is allergy based. I often have sore eyes or a scratchy throat and all spring and summer ive blamed pollen, but while on a bike ride last night I remembered an interesting event. This event seems to suggest this strongly.

When I recovered from Covid I lost my taste for Ribena and didnt drink any for over two months even though ive drunk it every day since I was around seven years old. When I finally recovered my taste for it my head aches started and soon came the hearing problems. I wonder if Covid has left me intolerant to Ribena ? It maybe just coincidence, but its strange timing.

A visiting friend said who has diabetes told me that Ribena contains a lot of sugar. I eat a lot of bread, about a loaf every two days believe it or not. This he tells me also breaks down fast to release energy and maybe this is the cause of my hyper mind set that is causing the anxiety based hypercusis. This is another possibility.

So ive started mixing my drink at half strength and cutting back drastically on the amount I drink. I am also buying home baked bread from the local store. Its just an experiment, but whats the harm ? It makes a lot of sense.