Im finding it increasingly hard to sum up how I feel about anything because everything fluctuates slightly during experiencing it. Now I know nothing absolutely. I lack the overwhelming joy of a certainty of feeling about anything, even possessions I own. I like absolutes. As for a crisis, thats easy ! You do what you have too in the moment. At last a moment of clarity as we loose ourselves. I think loosing our selves in the moment is the only absolute we will ever feel again. Everything we think we think is misleading ?
I felt like this about 10 years ago and its back again. I mistake it for boredom ?
I like absolutes as well. What you are explaining about losing one's self in the moment sounds very Colin Wilson. I find that that is the only way I can cope as well, and music often helps.
ReplyDeleteI spent 4 years there... then whoops " real " life came crashing in.
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