Last night was horrible. I went to bed with a headache and had very strange dreams all night. Whenever I woke up I was afraid, of what I dont know, but there was an overwhelming fear that something was wrong. It wasnt anxiety about any one particular thing on my mind, just constant fear in general. I didnt feel myself at all at anytime in the night, except for a few minutes when I sensed a lightening in my mood, and then I felt as though something was watching me from the cover of a tree line or range of bushes...in my mind that is. Something had made a retreat. This was only temporary though. I felt adrift and alone and scared until I woke about 4.30 am, and things seemed to be back to normal. I dont want another night like that. I felt like I was about to go insane. Ive never had a night like it.
Odd. I had a similar broken sleep situation, except that it was punctuated with realising the heater was not on so I was very cold and couldn't sleep well, and I had horrible dreams about the abuser I was with. I was also remembering last night how when I lived in an apartment in Canada, I saw (with my "third eye" as they say) a sweeping figure go right through the walls outside, into my bedroom, and then out again, like it just sped by. Strange things happening lately.
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