No comment...lol  This is an old card I bought years ago. Not sure who if anyone I ever intended to send it to. Its grim and very funny in an over the top way. Ive never seen one anywhere like it since, not even as a meme online.

 

I have have been cleaning out a spare room this week and have found some amusing things. I shall post them over the weekend. Strangely there is an " early retirement " scheme for farmers at the moment although this is dated 2007.

 

Unfortunate name...lol

 

At last a war we havent an appetite for ?

 It was just a week or two ago that I finished reading 1984. One key observation about this dystopian age was that the world was divide into 3 continents, and each power was unconquerable as they were all evenly matched and geographically impossible to invade and even if an attempt was made to do so then the cost of human loss of life, and financial losses would be to high. So did they bother compete militarily ? Well, yes, but the outcome was never important !

War was fought between the three powers constantly, but only over specific areas in small countries with resources that were not essential. It mattered not who conquered these lands as they constantly changed hands, a bit like in a trophy in a sporting event, and like sport the whole affair was just a contrived as a distraction for their populations. This reminds me of Eastern Europe really. Its just a playground that sees a pendulum  affect that is no more than a ruse to fire people up.

Its quite frightening to hear people on a phone in show this morning talking about " Russians riding around London in their Bentleys " They were triggered, and took this as though it was a personal insult to them. We shall soon be having " hate weeks " like in the novel where people publicly shout at tv screens depicting the current " enemy ". As people have being programmed to side to a ridiculous degree with any moral idea such as isolation from family due to government regulations, then its safe to say they are unbalanced mentally and will forget all common sense when they are told a situation is a " problem ". For 2 years people generally acted as a whole.

 

Mistaken Identities in American Psycho

Mistaken identities are a big thing it seems in the movie, just as in real life. Mistakes and assumptions are constant as we often are at odds with each others perceptions. I remember reading something that Crowley wrote that it was rare for two people conversing to be totally and both 100% clear about the others intentions or view points. Usually one is at some form of a misunderstanding.

Its a kind of add comedy this film. No, I would go so far as using the word comedy. Its a quirky oddity and its growing on me.

Morning Routine - American Psycho (1/12) Movie CLIP (2000) HD

The ultimate narcissist ?  This is a very strange film. In fact by the end you are not sure whether all the murder and mayhem is just a figment of his imagination. There is a lot of dark humour and quirky scenes, that are both observations and odd humour with a twist of surreal uneasiness. The film sqirms around not liking to be type cast as anything particular. Humiliation of others is a theme that excites the monster played by Christian Bale, but is he actually a monster or just an extremely annoying, insecure sociopath ? Having read another bloggers observations on these narcissistic  types, I see so many of the traits she writes about here in this film. Interesting.

A grand ride out...lol

The sun came out last evening and I headed east to some decent roads for a drive through the Yorkshire dales. There was a real sense of spring in the air. It was stunningly beautiful. As it was a week day and around dusk there were no police speed traps. This is a well know area for bikers to ride fast and race. Thats the Ribblehead viaduct built by navvies in the 1800's. Fast drives in my older car mentally refresh me and I return home much happier. I even went in lockdown. I find it hard now to stop in at night which I guess is a side effect of being told I must in the past.

 

Actually quite alarming.

" He's just like a dog or a cart horse Ellen, is he not ? He eats, works and sleeps eternally. What a blank dreary mind he must have. Tell me Hareton , do you ever dream, and if you do, what do you dream of ?

Its true that in this valley people seem to exist this way. Maybe people everywhere live this way ? I feel in a rut at the moment and Im not sure if I want to get out of it. Its funny as we get older how the very idea of change eludes us because we have gone so far on the old road weve traveled. The irony here is that we do get out of ruts but we cant choose when. Its something that has to occur naturally and I think is quite impossible to manufacture yourself, especially if you dont know what you want !

  

Today at dinner time I was alone in the kitchen when a sudden noise made me jump. I sounded like a loud sharp flap as though something had dropped from the table. At first I thought it was a handbag. I caught some movement from the corner of my eye, but nothing was on the floor. My coat was hung on the back of a chair and maybe that had be shaken to produce the flap. Either way it rattled me as it happened in the corner of the kitchen where I often get a cold back, even on a hot summers day. Why would something so random and meaningless happen like that ? Im use to things moving on there own here, but something about this got to me today.

 So how was today ? No doubt a re-run. Is everything OK, but waiting for the inevitable waves of pain that everyone goes through like a bitter rights of passage ? Today, today, today...what is today that yesterday wasnt ? Here lies the problem as another storm rages outside. 

True

Sometimes I wonder which they they find most important. Whats so attractive about a huge looking butt ? They turn sideways to distort their body image to  ridiculous degree. They quite literally look like cows at a livestock market and maybe thats what they are, or have become ?

 

Protesters face off with police trying to clear trucker demo in Ottawa |...

Its started. Next week Boris ceases all restrictions here... ?!

This video is not blocked though it says it is, yet.

Water through a sieve, again.

 Im finding it increasingly hard to sum up how I feel about anything because everything fluctuates slightly during experiencing it. Now I know nothing absolutely. I lack the overwhelming joy of a certainty of feeling about anything, even possessions I own. I like absolutes. As for a crisis, thats easy ! You do what you have too in the moment. At last a moment of clarity as we loose ourselves. I think loosing our selves in the moment is the only absolute we will ever feel again. Everything we think we think is misleading ?

I felt like this about 10 years ago and its back again. I mistake it for boredom ?

How a Japanese Man 'Lived' For 550 Years

And now for something completely different...lol  Im really enjoying this channel. 

I watched this story with utter disbelief. Its a mad world.

No, Im not planning on getting that enlightened. 

Butter fingers

 A trivial but annoying problem. When I pick up a tv remote I accidentally press a button and change the channel or the tv on or off depending on what I dont want to do. Its getting worse and worse and the more Im aware of it, the more Im doing it. Ive noticed a static type click coming from the remote randomly. Thats strange. Mind you there isnt much that doesnt emit cracks and taps in this house...lol

A disturbing night

 Last night was horrible. I went to bed with a headache and had very strange dreams all night. Whenever I woke up I was afraid, of what I dont know, but there was an overwhelming fear that something was wrong. It wasnt anxiety about any one particular thing on my mind, just constant fear in general. I didnt feel myself at all at anytime in the night, except for  a few minutes when I sensed a lightening in my mood, and then I felt as though something was watching me from the cover of a tree line or range of bushes...in my mind that is. Something had  made a retreat. This was only temporary though. I felt adrift and alone and scared until I woke about 4.30 am, and things seemed to be back to normal. I dont want another night like that. I felt like I was about to go insane. Ive never had a night like it.

If it works its banned !

 Ive just heard some news that made me ripping mad and sad. An antibiotic we administer to lambs when they have stomach upsets is set to be rationed this spring, and then next year phased out. This is due to antibiotic resistance worries. Without this product some lambs will needlesly die and will have to be destroyed unless a new product comes out. Why do the powers that be make things harder and harder ? Its a welfare issue. It wont be them dealing with sick animals and getting stressed will it ? One day like everyone eventually I will wake up and think " fuck this shit ". They drive all industries to this point making things harder and harder. This is why people retire, move to a house in the country side and just walk a dog all day for a life.

As the woman who works at the Vets said " If a product works they stop making it "

Fade To Black

I once found this song very hard to listen to. Today I just dont care. Things are just the way they are and as for friends outside of family, they were once a luxury when I was younger. What you start out with  you eventually loose ,and what you dont start out with you gain anyway, eventually. Thats the way it seems to work by the time you reach the halfway point of life. That will be past the half way point actually. What a depressing thought. 

Commercial BMW by Coldplay

And wow ! We are now in the modern world. Today most BMW adverts must contain at least one person of colour. Gone is the thrusting male, and in is the outdoorsy ethnic type who is in touch with their their self. Running up and down hills, often including a dog somewhere in the mix is also deemed essential to connect with their new marketing targets. Of course sporty half cast woman is a given. The old outlook of aspiration is dead. I guess the brand is still inspirational to a new breed of owner though, but that owner does not see BMW as a measurement  of their economic success ?  Change is constantly happening, but when we compare the old with the new it just becomes hilarious.

  

BMW M3 E92 Ads Commercial "Full of Soul" | 4K AI Upscale

So I spent yesterday at a BMW dealership having a job done on my car. I got thinking about how the image of BMW has changed. Back in the 90's it was a premium brand, and in a way it still is, but nowadays everyone drives one, and quality is not aspired to, its excepted by default. There was a time as this advert above shows when the BMW brand was aimed at the alpha male, even if this was mainly made up of successful double glazing salesmen and the like. BMW was for the thrusting young male who was going places. If you owned a BMW then you were someone, or seen to be. Can you imagine this advert on tv today ! Not a chance.  " Sexually aggressive " was how a relation described BMW drivers once. How times change as my next post shows...lol

Canada capital Ottawa declares state of emergency over trucker protester...

Bless You Tube. After watching live streaming of the protests featuring rambling You Tubers simply chatting to protesters, I am now swamped with BBC news reports focusing on how people are upset with them. Its a balance I admit, but its interesting considering what ive previously been watching.

On another note my daughter said without even looking up from her laptop " We would never have the confidence to do that here. " Wise words. Sometimes her observations make me so proud, and her ability to sum up a situation super quick is impressive.. She doesnt echo my views either, and is quick to point out the flaws in my observations and outlooks.

Will the truckers succeed ? The tide seems to be turning here and in Europe. But how stubborn are the Canadian government ? I dont know. In the end its all political.

A test bed ?

Is the UK the petri dish of the west ? Are we an experiment just to see what happens when all Covid restrictions are removed amidst ridiculous levels of Covid ? Being an island this may make more sense.

Today I heard self isolating will not be necessary if you test positive by the end of this month. Even I think this is crazy, and a purposeful attempt to cause disruption even worse than weve had, and this is what will happen when ill people cannot work.

An un-earthly beauty

 It recently struck me how odd it was during the story of Wuthering Heights that Catherine during her downward spiral due to TB should be described as having possessing an " un-earthly beauty. " How could anyone who was dying be described this way ? And what further fascinates me is that to die due to " consumption " as they called it, was looked on as a romantic death or something to be held as... I cant find the words to express this until I came across a documentary about the Bronte sisters and the brutal age they lived in.

Anyway on watching this documentary I learned this odd admiration  was the victorian equivalent of " heroin chic " Of course a death from TB ( I just typed TV ) was not glamorous, just as a death from drugs is not, but the same silly attitudes reigned back then admiring the image of decay in what I expect was mainly women. Having said that I have witnessed this " chic " in someone once or rather the mild beginnings of it, and yes there was a certain heady dangerous beauty there. I think when the body weakens that vulnerability triggers the reproductive instincts of urgency and survival in the onlooker. A sharpening of perception that cuts through the mundane bullshit of everyday life. Something is happening, its ACTUALLY happening.

I shall post more about this soon on the other blog...

#FreedomConvoy2022 Catching Up With Trucks And Updates

Ive enjoyed watching these live feeds tonight. Its so easy to forget whats going on, and whats at stake once you get outside of the UK, for now anyway. Someone has to give these people a voice.

 

A man has been kept as a slave for 40 years in a caravan park shed

How are things like this still going on ? This happened about 50 miles from where I live. 

You have no idea what is happening on your doorstep, or behind closed doors.

🎶 Fight For Your Right (To Party) 🎵 - Boris Johnson x Beastie Boys

Brilliant !

Are you expendable ?

 Its been a sobering week. After a visit from a consultant who was offering several hours of free advice we were basically told that within 5 years our farm income would be basically zero or less due to the phasing out of subsidies. To put that in perspective this current year which has seen the best profit for at least 15 years is all due to subsidy. Our profit is the subsidy we receive basically, and thats on a good year. There is no shame in saying this, and any other small farmer though they will never tell you are in the same boat.

Food has been produced for years for " not for profit " prices. This has enable the sellers such as supermarkets to obtain the food at the lowest possible price. I wont go into the politics of this but rather want to say that there is a tribulation ahead in food production in which many like myself are going to be in the situation of only doing what pays and pride is going to go out of the window. Its going to be a culture shock for this area that is very traditional. The figures say it cannot be avoided.

People often say farmers are " feather bedded " but farm profits are not even at 80's levels today. How is that possible ? With the recent inflation figures at 7% any food price increase or supply problem is going to cause people even more hardship. It may not come to this though as apparently 10% of farms are not viable after the phase out of support and are expected to be bought up by bigger farms. Everything gets bigger and bigger. Its not nice being told you are expendable.

The only hope this area has is that we are in a National Park and the landscape needs farming to keep it from becoming scrub and of the appearance that tourists expect.There maybe new help ahead though, but no one knows. No one can plan ahead because of this. Its a volatile time. All I can say is that whatever is offered to us it will not equal what we have received in the past and that figure was essential. Everyone including the public are going to pay, big time.

Now here is a fact that makes my blood boil. The figure the finacial support for UK farmers is nearly £4 billion, but we have just wasted £38 billion on " track and trace " covid contacting. Nothing like getting our priorities right, eh ?

NIMBY's

 Yesterday was amusing. A man from the National Park called in to say he was taking some photos of the manor next door. Apparently a mystery person had reported the new owners, suspecting they had started work on the roof without the correct planning permission. This he stated was not the case, but he was taking some pictures as a formality. I wonder if anything odd comes out in them ? 

Yes, the new owners will quickly find out what the " locals " are like. There is ALWAYS someone watching you here and plotting. This is especially true of those who have moved here. They are called NIMBY's  - Not In My Back Yard ! Its a truly miserable night here with wind, rain and sleet. Its grim and Im bored.

The new couple have been around this weekend. I guess they are checking on the work undertaken this week fixing the broken water pipe containing a stop tap. They will need a fully functioning stop tap in the future. And you can take that to the bank...lol

I found this funny...not that Im mocking any theories about 5G.

 

The Big Question

 If there had not been a lockdown, and my rights taken away, would I have just accepted the vaccine ?