The new decade is about to turn. The last time this happened i was totally torn apart and what emerged was this blog and its world. Tonight i feel just as i did ten years ago... the sky is grey and a wind of energy is blowing in the tree tops.  I feel empty of all my past experiences and feel i am back at the start again, annihilated. Whats coming ?

BBC North West's news reader Annabel Tiffin ?

An uncanny resemblance ?   A more obscure item for sale on Face Book Market place...lol

A sad post unfortunately

Anyone who has followed this blog will know that this tree used to be outside my old house in the village. Well this week i learned it had been felled !  As you can see at a certain point in Spring the sun would  set in the V of the trunk ...and that always aligned with my narrow band of time available for a holiday. All that remains now is a bleak stump.

 I heard today that legal proceedings have ensued here, and someone is going to pay, despite sycamore trees being officially classed as a " weed " and therefore deemed as disposable. Nothing lasts forever. As i get older more and more things i thought were future proof and a certainty have vanished.

Actually many things from that period of my life have changed hands. Houses have been vacated by family, business's i visited over that time have closed for example. Many of the places i associate with those 5 years are no more. An erasing action seems to be wiping out all sorts of places i used to visit back then. Im finding this quite strange. A sort of tying up of loose ends ?

December

My shadow has recently changed. It was quite alarming at first to see this " apparition " of myself following me so doggedly around this house. My shoulders have rounded, my posture has leaned forward, and my hands hang more ape like. Yep, im really selling myself here... The above photo was taken of me last Bonfire Night a year ago, and it shows this new silhouette even here. My own Father even commented the other day that he cannot recognise me at a distance anymore, such is the degree of the change in my outline. Maybe losing a stone and a half has played a part, in little anyway i presume, but the change is far bigger than just that. I would like to take a photo of my shadow to illustrate the point further, but how could i do that ???

It disturbs me more than it should...

Ive found the idea of a fine woman corrupted by love turns my stomach and disturbs me profoundly to the core. why is this so ? The big question im asking myself tonight ! It has been this way in the background of my mind for some time. the shortening days have magnified this outlook. Capitol letters missing here. I remember when the passion for what i posted made correct punctuation seem pointless. Welcome home again...

Todays observation !!!

I feel we are living in an new age. The light has changed. Something odd is happening to me also, nights of strange dreams that feel like building blocks. Maybe this is the final stretch of life or the second half ? Second half, yes, thats a better sounding explanation ! Final...hell thats a thought .Good night.

One for the animal obsessed / dog obsessed society weve become...oh, and the vegans ect !   lol  Its true that the arrogance of modern society deems all nature to be cuddly and in need of help. In reality you are at its cold mercy.

The Fun House

My daughter now sleeps in the same bedroom as i used to. At her age i was being lied to by my parents about the place i live in. Weird thing was that this place is a smorgasbord of " haunting happening " and is locally well known for being so...lol. Of course as children we over heard the rumours... 

When September comes...

Its a strangely wind mild September night. The type which in itself is a touchstone to Autumn, dissolving Summer slowly away to crisp cold clear nights.

  

The flood gates of Winter thinking and mindset are opening, again...

Drip, drip, drip...

 

Most people are slowly drowning financially over the years... very slowly. So slowly in fact they see, or may hope to see retirement rescue them before the evil day. Over a life time you can observe the rising water, but at such a rate that it can be ignored for the present. This is the modern way everything runs and is quite the norm shockingly. It has to be...

YELLOW 2016 JEEP RENEGADE FOR SALE

Im not a 4 x 4 person at all really, despite living on a farm. I guess i just see a work type vehicle normally and i love my current fast car. But despite all those down sides i find myself feeling very excited that a model like the one above ( and yes that colour too ) is for sale locally at the moment. Ive stopped to wonder why im finding this so attractive, and then BOOM it hit me.

  The character Frank Black drives a Jeep in the supernatural series Millennium, though it is red and an older model, but his house in the series however is yellow. He has a young daughter about the same age a mine, and he is coming to terms in the episodes that he may not be able to protect her from every evil out there. 

  And there you have it. Thats why this car moves me so much. Its the triggers that are hidden beneath. Interesting, eh ?

Nobody is reading this stuff, but....

I must note this observation, not as a matter of entertainment, but to be looked back on as a pivotal moment which seemed to denote madness. Yes, im sounding very Lovecraft like, but today a second incident involving water occurred, and again it was kind of backed up by another person who was with me, even though they knew nothing of my perceptions.
  Last Spring as i ran an outside tap, i swore the water whispered my name quite clearly. Even i was shocked and doubted my mental health, but when my daughter said " It sounds like there are people in our house " i suddenly got the feeling that events were a little to real .
  A similar thing happened today when i checked a neighbours property as she was on holiday. While looking at a dripping tap my wife said she though she heard the echos of a voice in the pipes from the sink. Very weird, and immediately my mind cast back to that strange afternoon in spring.
   I have a long history of trouble with water. A very long and troubled one. In fact i could easily write a book of spooky water stories. Some you would not believe...

Sinister physical manipulations in this house ?

I wrote on my other blog a post about people who make involuntary noises, especially from the throat. Now the odd thing is that as i lay in bed this morning, deep in thought, i started to make a clicking noise in my throat. It was very un nerving and  it seemed to be occurring when i wasn't fully aware. In fact once aware and thinking about stopping it, i could, but it took a great effort and concentration.
   Ive also noticed visitors to this house are also grunting from their throats between sentences. I believe they are not aware of what they are doing. Several family members have all shown these symptoms here. I think something is manipulating people in this house when they are not paying full attention,  or are distracted or immersed in thought or preoccupied. This is all quite disturbing. I believe living here takes a physical toll.
   Last Christmas i suffered from twitching fingers. A finger would jump on its own when i relaxed and could be stopped with a direct effort. I was a bit worried i maybe starting a degenerative disease of the nervous system, but when a visiting relation was alarmed to see the same symptoms in her hand i felt more than a little relieved. I also have had my legs or feet moved and pulled in a manner which felt as though my muscles were being manipulated and it took real effort to prevent this. In fact it did scare me as it did not feel like an outside pull, more from with inside me. 
  Having moved back into this house after i feel i am learning new things about it and what dwells around it. Are sound waves frequency to blame for these things ? Or is there or more sinister explanation?

GARY NUMAN - cars HYBRID

Carried away by a moon like shadow ? Well, not exactly, more like the by the M6 motorway system...It all started out well enough. A blast out in my car after a hard strange day seemed a good idea, even though i was utterly exhausted. A quiet A road with some great bends and little traffic was great fun to drive on. Only on my return journey did i misjudge which lane i should be in at a new junction and end up being forced on to the M6  motorway South bound carriage. Whoops...

   I wasn't to bothered at first as i planned to turn off at the next junction and head North again. Whether it was tiredness or not i dont know, but i completely missed my turn off to North side. By now i was getting frustrated with myself as this was turning into a farce. Even though i was alone in my car i felt a sense of acute embarrassment which was growing by the minute.

  On my next exit to a roundabout i found the North slip road blocked by cones ffs. Back South bound again then. At this point i was beginning to panic in the way you do when you are too tired to think of an alternative route home ,and that " bad dream " type feeling began to descend. Its a strange feeling travelling further and further away from where you want to go on a road you never intended to go on. ? Especially on a road you know so well. It wasnt as though i was on holiday and lost.

 After 50 miles i turned off at an unfamiliar junction and found the North side of the motorway again, at last. What happened that night felt strange. The feeling of being carried along against your will. Next day i discovered a driver had travelled the wrong way down the North side while evading the Police. Apparently he was carrying a large amount of drugs ( probably on route to the Old Grey Town...lol

There are often bizarre incidents, and accidents locally on this stretch of motorway. Car fires are common, even a body was found burning at a local service station a few years ago. The most recent strange one was a person being thrown from a moving mini bus... The motorways surrounding have also being the site of some horrific accidents too. You notice these things as you get older. Some areas attract disaster.

Im shattered...

Moon eclipse mayhem ?

Im finding it hard to find the correct words to tell you what happened to me the night before the moon eclipse. I had once again a very strange happening involving a young woman, which i only equated to the moon by reasons of another timely freak accident today. Its quite simple really.
  It began on a beautiful balmy summers night as i returned from fixing our water supply that is up a remote fell track. As i drove our quad back down i came a cross a girl walking up the track on her own. A bit odd i thought, her being totally alone.  No family or friends being anywhere. But this was just a passing thought, and i acknowledged her as i drove past. 
  After 50 meters i stopped to open a gate ,and looked back up the track. At that moment she had started to trot at a pace, then suddenly stop inexplicably. Next she paused, put her arms up and jiggled a bit and shook her hair. Weird, but when she looked over her shoulder to see if i was watching i realised the "dance " was aimed at me as the area was deserted. This was a very strange thing for a girl of her age to do when a stranger was near or had just passed. There was no one else present. That feeling arose in me that you get when something profound and other worldly happens in a split second. Ive felt it before...
  Ive seen a similar display before ,but much more extreme and erotic and in a more public place by the sea on a green peninsular at high tide, and she smiled at me as she eventually walked past me. It was as though a message was being given. Anyway i equated the other nights event to the moon and the eclipse imminent. I have a feeling this is some kind of feminine entity manifesting, hence the moon being involved. Only next morning did a  wonder whether anything negative would happen after the eclipse... I also knew i was planning to go to a sale of dairy cows the next day. I wondered if this maybe affected in a bad way, the moon being interrupted and all ( I'm sounding American now lol )
  Unfortunately i was right as on arriving as  i  came across a group of people stood around a cow found a cow at the auction mart had  being choked by its chain halter in a freak accident . It was lying down half unconscious with blood running from a cut in it had sustained in the struggle. Quite a gruesome sad sight. There was a troubled atmosphere there, but eventually the cow recover , but i was still quite alarmed to see my prediction had come true.



   

Can supernatural beings manipulate us this way ?

I recognize many of these symptoms and have experience involuntary twitching of my fingers as did a visiting relative a while ago...

The Neon Demon Official Trailer #1 (2016) - Elle Fanning, Keanu Reeves H...

This horror film set in the world of fashion models totally has my attention at the moment. I wasnt aware films of such intensity and steady slow burning pace were still being made. There is definitely echoes of David Lynch here and the new Twin Peaks series, and if youve seen that then you'll know the quality im talking of. I also see echoes of the film Suspiria here as well. In fact it could be seen as the modern equivalent.

The sum of all my fears

There are some great fb memes about at the moment. I think as its Summer, people are to busy to write as many posts. I also feel that expressing views is becoming a bit old now, until the days shorten anyway...

A stab in the dark ?

Did you know DEAD DAD adds up to 23 in Hebrew ? No, really ? lol  Well it does grab your attention around Fathers Day ! In fact it brought back to some rather disturbing things people have said randomly to me regarding death, both in jest and unintentionally. 
  The first ive mentioned before, was a trip to see a man called DAVID GRAVESTON. And it got worse when he advised me to visit DOUG GRAVES. For a moment i thought he was joking. The second one was just down right disturbing. My daughter a few months ago jokingly told me my name was DEATH SURELY ! Where she got that from ive no idea. It certainly stung a little though and i try not to dwell upon it too much.
  A friend this week told me his ex was being plagued by the number 42. In fact so extreme is it that she is having a tattoo of 42 ?! Not sure how this is going to work out for her. I googled her number in Hebrew word and the words DEAD DEAD DEAD jumped out at me. Im no expert about this Hebrew malarky but there seems to be some alignment, or so it appears to be. 
  Am i not long for this world then ? I think the concept of death here is representing change ( i hope ) If not then maybe i am being taunted ? So we have a positive and a negative view point. Of course it all may lead to nothing. This reeminds me of a scene from a film i once watched where a man with Hebrew letters on his teeth spends a life time sacrificing everything he has to try and work out why he was born with these teeth. A  Rabbi eventuality tells me after a ruined life time of tail chasing that " somethings just are ". 
  Ive included a take on 23 from Aliester Crowley. I hold much faith that this is what its all about. Again change, and a death of sorts. Have people turned up mention in this transformation sequence ? Well pick a number and stand in line...lol

New Years Day Remix Instrumental

I feel like im going to explode. I feel like something has pushed a 10 year re-set button in my head. I feel like i did before i started blogging, and thats not a good thing. I feel im waiting for a trigger and there maybe another tribulation ahead. Ten years ago i felt as though a new age was upon me, and it was. Tonight i feel nervous, open and bare, on edge, moody, vicious and free.Maybe my holiday has me jumping the rails ? It all originally started with a holiday you 
know...


Theres a very neat  23 Skiddoo synchronicity as a womans skirt blows up at 0.22 - 0.23 . A connection to a New York street. Unlikely to be accidental. Ive always suspected this DJ to have mystical connection as his music has magical power.

23 and me ( and a slow moving collision with a HGV )

Im all at 6's and 7's tonight as i have just returned from a weeks holiday in Wales. I found a very strange place literally a minutes walk from our holiday cottage, but i shall post about that later as yesterday something rather disturbing happened on a day out to the Welsh Island of Anglesy.
  All was going well until we came across a traffic jam of slow moving traffic. A few seconds after changing lane, and while driving at walking pace a big wagon bumped into the rear of our car bouncing it about a meter forward. Things got very weird  however when we pulled over to exchanged details. 
   The first thing i noticed on the drivers documents was that the truck had been registered as new and on the road on the 23rd of the month of May. The next thing that really rattled me was a car drove past us in the jam  as we exchanged details, and its registration number was a personnel plate and read 23 RE ! And later when i added up the numbers on the trucks reg, they amounted to a total of 23 !!! 
   This is all going to far and has me gittery tonight. I mean can a force manipulate a scenario as complex as the one above just to prove a point ? People have suggested to me that there must be some significant meaning of 23 to me personally in the past. My daughter was born on the 23rd for example...The meaning however seems to grow ever more important as the examples grow ever more extreme. Ive included photographs here to prove im not going mad.

The lorry was registered on the 23rd

The wagons reg plate adds up to 23

And finally the car that drove past us as we exchanged details !

Time to Get Out ?

  

This bank balance was from the day i set off on holiday about 3 years ago. I had £23 available in my account that day.

Setting off on holiday again this morning... and this time my account is £23 over drawn ! lol

Synchronicity Alert !!!

What are the odds of the railings of number 10 casting a show that looks like a robot on the Prime Ministers  front door on the morning of her resignation ?!

23 The Break

Billy Monger, teen racing driver who lost both his legs in a horrific crash a few years ago, has won his first race since. His return to success was driving what numbered car do you think ? 23 of course...lol 



Meanwhile the Environment Agency has revoked  23 water abstraction rights in Norfolk.

Yes, i do need a holiday, but...

The sun is a month out of alignment. It usually shines in the full length of a building on our farm on about the 20th of June. I know this because we are filling the building with grass then, and every year i wait for the night when the setting sun shines up the valley and into the building where im working a tractor.  Well this evening the sun is doing the same, which means it is considerably higher before it sets than it should be in May.
   The photo ive posted is a view from my old house. and the sun used to set in the Y of the trunk on a certain date ,and that was once a week out. There maybe astronomic reasons for this ? I dont know, but tonights example is a bit more dramatic.

Time to Get Out ?

Tesco is selling its mortgage banking service

It has 23,000 customers on its books

 

This stone is set into a boundary wall of a large manor house that is next door to where i live. As a child i was told it was to ward off evil spirits, and that these stones were quite common once. This one faces North. There should be others in another facing in another 3 directions, but ive never seen them, yet.
 The inscription is faded but i think it reads - Amio Dom...or Dam ? I presume its latin ? Its hard to know if this is in its entirety or not. What does this mean ?
  This area is a hotbed of supernatural activity and always has been for a few hundred years. I shall post a piece of research that examines the link between events here and the plot of the novel Wuthering Heights thats leaves little doubt that happenings next door were the inspiration for the great novel. 

Update : On posting this online a tap has just sounded from my bedside draws. Now this has not happened since last summer, and eventually stopped after a full summer of weekly taps, only when i read the research on a website regarding the Wuthering Hieghts situation. I had a printout of the article in those draws, and i felt the taps were drawing my attention to this story back then. I feel something is doing this right now again.

The above are cycles of power. It was the result of the Superior cycle that saw my awakening, being born on a Winter Solistice, meeting a person who born on the Spring Exqinox, and this persons Father being born on the Summer Solstice. It seems the power has not yet completed the loop as the Autumn Equinox is yet a mystery. There again this idea here is pointing at an annual cycle, but it does speak to me in the way i have pointed out above.

On another note i once read that the Grand cycle refered to a womans mindset, and the Major a mans.

You can call me Al - Paul Simon - Lyrics

You know a song can be listened to for decades, and still the true lyrics in full will evade you. That is only until one day you listen to it in a different environment, maybe captively, maybe sat with the car stationary so there is no road or engine noise to blot out the harder to catch lyrics. Then suddenly something will bounce inside of you with joy at hearing the complete true lyrics, and not what you previously " speed listened " to.

 Some verses and lines here sum up my mood perfectly at the moment ,and im sure that goes for anyone. Ironically the well known catchy chorus overrides the meaningful verses. How many songs fall foul also in this way ? What was once considered a cheap Pop song often has deeper "hidden " lyrics, but it might take you many years to glean them ! You cant dis-miss the cheesey until you have listened truly.

Slippage ?

I have just lost 6 minutes...it didnt take that long to post a quote. Its been a while since time slipped.

Just a fun theory for now...

Lets ramble and play fast and loose, as you do when progressing ? I met a man online who told me about the power of 3 or more precisely taking 3 steps to complete a task. 1, 2, 3...completion through momentum.
  So i arrive late to a vehicle specialist needing a steering rod assembly  because mine has seized up. On trying to open the shop door i was not surprised to find it locked as it was nearly dinner time on a Saturday. I was with my daughter, and had been previously joking around  in the car calling out a cartoon like warp, warp, waaaarp ( the type of noise made to symbolise something had gone wrong ) sound. Suddenly without warning i shout this out at one of the workers preparing to pack up for the day...WARP<WARP< WARRRRRP ! LOL  
   He only goes around the side of the shop to the work bay and hands me over to another mechanic who drops what he is doing and proceeds to wrestle and sweat with my seized up car part ! He was about to go home and had shut down the computer too. After a tussle he just made me up a complete  new replacement. 
   So next time you think you have an obstacle i will very interested to know if saying this warp, warp, warp sound dropping a tone with each word changes your luck ? I dare you to try. This is just a theory for now....

Breaks 1, 2, 3

1 ) A person is exhausted and at a breaking point

2 ) Inattention leads to a broken ankle / break

3 ) Said person is forced to rest and take a break

A Worrying Synchronicty

Two weeks ago i found myself chasing our Quad bike out of the farm on a sunny afternoon. Someone has hot wired it in broad daylight. Eventually after chase of 20 miles i lost the bike on some back lanes that led to a high moor. From here on the Police took over and caught the man using Police dogs. As he was already out on bail for theft i was told he would not be given bail a second time, and would stay locked up until charged. Well this morning i have received a letter saying he has jumped bail again and is on the run...sigh.
  Now as if this isnt enough i see the thief's middle name is DAVID. OK, not that amazing, but the next part of this story is. You see there was a husband and wife scam team who tried to con a neighbour out of their house last summer, and the middle names of this obnoxious couple were BRIAN and MARJORIE which are my parents first names !!! 


Strange also that a fellow blogger has decided to start on the path to aquire a job  in Policing...
  

Water vapour gives off a frequency of 23.8 GHz

I have at weaker moments questioned where i was on the above scale...

Destruction, again.

  

Well things have gone to shit here this holiday weekend. When isn't there a crisis on a holiday in Spring ? Last one saw our Quad bike stolen. and i shall post about that soon. Today has seen yet again one of my dogs kill a neighbours hen for the third time and i fear this time the dog will have to be destroyed. I have watched a destructive force move along that bloodline of dog both at home and in those offspring we sold or gave away. the events have been utter carnage, both deliberate and accidental. I don't think i can fight this anymore, so here i sit waiting for phone call from next door...i feel sick.

Why am i being taunted by dreams of my past days hanging around Christian youth groups and Chapels ? The dreams all start off normal, but then i sense the crowd of people attending these meetings suddenly turn nasty on me, and i get a feeling that i am different to them or rather was different to them back in the day and " now " they hold me in contempt. I feel today their grace would not hold up towards me...
   You know what ? That world all decayed to shit. The Chapels are abandoned or as just down the road to me, being converted to another use. But still i dream i am angry and my anger is returned back to me. Its not nice. Its not true. It NEVER happened.

I also dream of taking sacriment and the glass shatters bloodying my mouth. No wonder im so bitter in these dreams....

The Rules of The Illuminati - David Wilcock

So the rules of our down fall must be the same as our salvation ? By free will ? This reminds me of a Crowley quote that " No man shall be at the mercy of anything in this world or heaven unless he wills it to be ! "

23 Skidoo

 

I recently met a man online who posted about the power of three. The first  strike or action taken shows intention, then the second strike opens a way ahead ,and the third manifested the completion. He posted a short beat of just a rapid 1,2, 3 sequence to demonstrate this. I then told him that i had a great respect for the number 23 ,and later on  that night i stumbled upon a band named 23 Skidoo. This song uses an odd rapid triple beat exactly the same as the one used in magick. I find this fascinating...

23 Skidoo - The Gospel Comes To New Guinea (1981)

There is something about this music. Something is trying to form....

Toxic thoughts ?

 

Ive recently unfriended someone on Facebook after their posts just became too much to cope with. There was nothing offencive about them, but the undertones suddenly began to undermine my confidence. Some peoples views become over powering...Have you ever felt ill and only after several months make the sudden leap of realisation that a certain food has been making you feel that way ? Its an instinct. And i had the same feeling when i felt a depression start to return, and i couldnt work out why. Reading some peoples thoughts compounded over a long time can cause us damage. I'd say the word is accumulation. Suddenly i feel a lot better now, and not so much under this persons shadow.

5 Mysterious Cases Of Spontaneous Human Combustion

You know i meant to write about about this years ago, but never got around to it. I think the story even seems to unbelievable to me, even though it happened locally, and was witnessed by someone i know who lives in this valley.
  OK, straight to the point...a man i knew about 5 years ago was found dead and half burned away sat in his chair. The local paper report was only a few small paragraphs, and it was not mentioned that the area surrounding the body showed no signs of fire damage. How do i know this was so ? As i said i know the man who found the body, the man who had his suspicions aroused when he smelt the foul burning smell. I heard the smell lingered for a long while.
  So who was this mans ? He lived alone. He dressed, and had the general appearance of a navy or someone who had lived making their living down a coal mine in the 1930's. That was what was so odd about him, the general layer of grime he always carried on him and his old fashioned clothing he wore. He looked like someone from another age, straight out of a history book.
  I only started to link the " coal miner " appearance to the human combustion this weekend, and that only came about when i saw the new occupant of his house was having a field dug up to install a geo heating system ( she is an eco artist type lol ) So my mind was on energy... Talking of energy, is human combustion a sign of untapped energy geographically ?
  I live in a small valley, but what goes on here is unbelievable...


It seems that all these cases have occurred alongside an appropriate situation that could explain the event at first...I have often found the same when something supernatural happens, it will manifest alongside an example that is explainable. There seems to be a mimicking or twinning of both an unexplainable and an explainable happening.

Click on the title to watch film...

???

23 Universities are to change their acceptance policy from Unconditional ( grades dont matter ) to a Conditional Unconditional policy ( Not a fucking clue what this means ) lol .  23 probably signifies the game is up here for educating people for commercial gain...

House suspended due to WATER LEAK in Parliament

Am i drifting towards....

While washing my boots at an outside tap i swear i heard the water whisper my name. It was in the spluttering of air trapped in the pipes. The call was seductive. As i turned off the tap once the noise stopped, my daughter turned to me and said " Sounds as though there are people upstairs " I didnt make anything of this ,but the timing was worrying alright. After what happened to the water supply stop tap mentioned in my previous post ,i think something  maybe  building  to a climax here.

The forces are growing stronger here !

Today i found a  large victorian stop tap had been turned off a full 6 turns under a grassed over man hole cover resulting in the shutting off our water supply. Something turned off that valve. There is no way a man could have removed that cover without digging up the grass growing over it.  It had not been disturbed in any way.

In order to find God, must you first be disorientated ?

Everything could be...

You keeps your dreams

I'll take chance...

The sum of my fears !

  

Some arent sure what it is they fear, but i know full well...You see the Zombie's work all around you. He's getting nearer now. The sound will soon be deafening. He is the essence of life , and as time flies he gets bolder... The long slow swell of destruction. Didnt bother me much when i was younger, but now...

Laughing Clown Blackpool Pleasure Beach

 

1 + 1 always = 2   but this is nothing more than an arbitrary convention, and who gives a shit when the game of life honestly revolves on CHANCE !!!

Nothing more boring than other peoples dreams...?

My dreams have been so intense since Christmas. They are unhurried and pass by in real time, complete with every minute emotion and reaction to every second, just like in real life.
  Last night i suddenly found myself standing on a road in the valley i live in. Looking around i could see houses and farms in the same locations that are occupied by them in real life, but these dream buildings were slightly different, but totally in character with whats there now. It felt so real, so real i picked up a stone from a wall and closely examined it and could see every detail. I then shouted three times and listened to the echo bounce off the hill sides. At that moment i told myself this was real. An over whelming sense of melancholy filled me. Then came a shower of the softest rain.

A thousand, thousand times...

https://www.facebook.com/1852177261746451/videos/298577974156249/ 



This is a classic example of the state of 32 . The act is no longer requiring any effort, in fact it has become effortless. Dont we all strive for this ?

Its happened. It was always going to. Just a matter of time. My 7 year old has beaten me at draughts tonight. It may sound a trivial matter, but at that second when my last draught was surrounded a little something died inside me with a pang. This moment is the tipping point for me when my offspring begins to rise and i fall.

After all has passed...

I dont care how educated you are
I dont care how deep your mystical knowledge goes
I dont care how wealthy you are 
I dont care about your faith. 

I SHALL KNOW YOU BY YOUR FRUITS !

Farm Yard Philosophy ?

Why do most people start giggly an uneasy laugh when they see a farm animal appear on TV ? What are they scared of ? Ive noticed this so many times, and adverts also seem to perpetuate this comedy image. Do people subconsciously feel as though they are maybe no more than such animals underneath all their outwardly sophistication ? There is definitely something going on here as an image of a cow or sheep is not naturally comical. 

The environmental footprint of a woman dwarfs that of any farm animal !

This is getting serious !

At first it had me worried for my health, i mean a twitching finger that seems to have a life of its own had me thinking i was maybe starting a nasty disease. I tried to ignore it and thought about mentioning it to my doctor. I could feel my tendons in my hand twitching quite strongly as though a message was being sent through the ( a sharp crack has just occurred next me as i type ) nerves of my hand.
   Anyway today something extra-ordinary has happened yet again when my visiting cousin and her husband called in. Towards the end of the afternoon her thumb started to twitch quite intensely in an identical manner to mine a few days ago. This disturbed her, and it didn't help when i explained i had experienced the same phenomena. This is an environmental and not a medical manifestation. This i cannot ignore. Something is manipulating movement in this house. Even my legs have been moved this way when in bed. Is this a product of sound waves or spirit activity ?

tyy ?

Its not normal to be chatting to a relation on line and upon returning to doing so after a cup of tea find the letters " tyy " in your comment box having somehow been typed, but not yet posted. I did not type these letters...but imagine my sinking horror when the same relative visited  me today and someone had randomly written "ty " in the dirt on his van. I cannot explain this at all.

Phil Collins - Two Hearts (Official Music Video)

 





Im tired. Its been a day of sanity testing weirdness. Part of me says there is a logical explanation, the other peers into madness...

Absolution (Gray Mix)

   


A man only has so much love, compassion and time. The sudden edition of  offspring upsets the balance as another " mouth at the table " might. Somebody is going to loose out, maybe significantly ?

No replacement for displacement ?

Sitting in a cafe waiting for my food i noticed that female waitresses displaced TWICE as much air as they walked past me as the male ones. The draft was much more noticeable from the females passing by... What does this mean ?

This sums up everything !

  

This isnt my photo. I took it from a fb page. The 2 photographs were taken years apart, but at the same identicle place. My point isnt the cars, but how the land around them has deteriorated. Grass is now uncut, layby has washed away and the road is no longer looking new. This is profound to me and what ive been seeing around me having reached a certain age - decay !

Something is pissed off here...

There is something in the farm yard tonight. I have just closed a large metal door only to hear it flung open with a bang as i walked away. There is no wind tonight either as its a frosty night. The dogs went nuts and a tense atomosphere filled the air. Now im rattled.

One extremity to another 22 / 23

Its been a while, years in fact, but advertisers are finally and actively embracing the number 23. The Radio time announcement in the news bulletins can not get enough of 23 either. Previously there was nothing but 22. That was frustratingly as near as they would get. Of course i noticed this aversion and avoidance as a sign that something was amiss, equally as much as when they now have swung the other way. I have been watching and listening for years !

Society has found so many NEW thing worry about, most pointless...but people are so feeble minded they relish any guidance and lap it up as they have no soul anymore.

In about 10% of cases does the camera actually capture the truth.

  

Here tonight is an odd  rambling muse of a post based on dubious ideas.... Several Eastern temples have been discovered to resonate at 110hz . This effect can be felt by the human body  and has been proved to cause the brain to feel as though its consciousness is ascending the body.

In the immediate area of the hamlet i live in i have experienced the possible symptoms of what is traditionally classed as a " haunting ". Objects can move themselves and often resonate. My thinking tonight is that these movements and unexplained noises from the past could be being caused the manipulations of sound waves. I have also read that different sound waves can even manipulate hallucinations and involuntary bodily movements, and  possibly even thought processes. If sound wave manipulation is happening here ,where are these sound waves originating ? 

When my parents lived in this house my Dad commented how often when objects were placed down in the kitchen they exhibited a strange tendency to wobble. This is still going on today, sometimes even when no one has touched them. I would definitely say that these objects could be being moved by sound waves, it makes sense to me. There again can spirits manipulate sound waves ? Some say they travel by light...

Finally how is this idea linked to space ? Well ive heard that planets resonate to different frequencies, a loose link to my above experiences, but just recently ive found myself noticing how several star constellations sit neatly on two horizons here. I seem to have a " ring side " seat view of them. A strong feeling im getting suggests this view of the sky has something to do with the well known mysterious events here. I can feel it. I feel this is an ancient phenomena local to this place.

A few years ago there appeared a constellation type pattern on the inside of my car window. It was a series of criss crossed lines. I did manage to link it to a constellation mildy. However i can not remember if it related to the Great Bear or The Dipper that i have such a good view of from here. I am reminded looking at these straight lines and angles that they very rarely occur naturally in nature. These lines remained for months on my car rear window and until i sold it in fact.

 

Ive managed to find this drawing of the symbol from my window. I think it lined up with the tail of The Dipper at some point...

I feel the sap rising in my boughs...

The Panics - 'Don't Fight It'

   

Beautiful profound lyrics.....there comes a point when a thing is over that requires a retrospection, not renewal or an attempt to reverse events. Its a bitter sweet moment i dont want to repeat. I find it much easier to listen to this song nowadays. Thank-goodness...

New Years Day Remix Instrumental

 

Enjoy this treat....Feeling strange today. Its a bright sunny day.