Why am i being taunted by dreams of my past days hanging around Christian youth groups and Chapels ? The dreams all start off normal, but then i sense the crowd of people attending these meetings suddenly turn nasty on me, and i get a feeling that i am different to them or rather was different to them back in the day and " now " they hold me in contempt. I feel today their grace would not hold up towards me...
   You know what ? That world all decayed to shit. The Chapels are abandoned or as just down the road to me, being converted to another use. But still i dream i am angry and my anger is returned back to me. Its not nice. Its not true. It NEVER happened.

I also dream of taking sacriment and the glass shatters bloodying my mouth. No wonder im so bitter in these dreams....