Why ?????

Damn it ! I cant sleep tonight . This week the name of the friend in the offline world  I cant get to see has appeared at a Buddhist temple complex and near the St Columba church ruins . Both events manifested incredibly crassly  . One was spoken to me making my stomach turn when the context was revealed , the other was written but in a way that mocked the synchronicity of several instances that have occurred miraculously over the summer . Meanwhile this person is well out of my sphere but in everyone elses ! Why am I being taunted this way with false hope ?  Why , why , why ???    This is the first dark sign ive seen since my journey began . Of course it probably isn't a dark sign and has another meaning that im not educated enough to fathom.....