There is something about this song that captures the relief I felt after recovering from covid last Christmas. I find myself listening tonight as my spirit seems to be returning, and I feel some sort of normality mentally again. Physically Im improving but you know its a long haul with these things.
I suddenly realized that Im very reliant on medication, both physically and mentally. I guess with age that comes around, but its a sobering thought. The very functioning of my physical body and my mind are now propped up by induced chemicals, man made. Am I a dead man walking ?
Its great how stress medication can help us cope, but at night the dreams come. They are not as before. They are tainted, but tainted with an uneasy pleasantness, even the weird ones. Just like in my life the edge is taken of situations so is the edge taken off my dreams.
That's so ironic re: this post because I was reading today about what rock stars claim to be born again Christians, etc. and Bono is one of them. Then I posted a video by Danzig that had religious imagery, and you posted "Miracle Man." We must be thinking about the same things.
ReplyDeleteI've noticed that the more I think about these things, the more symptoms get worse, almost like a great evil is behind it. When I was going through the worst of it, I told a friend that I felt an evil presence in the room with me.
ReplyDeleteI would say half of it is my imagination. For example, when I sometimes type intensely I hold my breath and then think that something is happening. Then I realise that I need to breathe.
But not everything is imagination.
The important thing is not to let it overtake the rational mind too much. It doesn't help when I visit websites and forums where people take things a little to far and start discussing things like reptilians, etc. I'm trying very hard to not get too paranoid, and also challenging these people to provide their proof for such ideas, like reptilians, or other beliefs like claiming every single celebrity is a transgender.
I hate the internet. If I could, I'd be off of here and doing "real life" things but now I can't because of all the mandates and vaxxed. I'm stuck living this stupid life on a computer and it sucks.
I understand as I have been avoiding going anywhere socially due to my sound problem, but there come a time as things improve when I need to " test the water " again and take a chance just to see if there has been an improvement. Over the months this is wearing, but things will are improving In both our situations I expect over time. Its just logging those improvements among the continuing symptoms. I sound like a councilor.
DeleteFun fact - My dad was once convinced Obama's wife was a man after looking at stuff on the internet. The more you look online any fact can be built upon as right, however way out.
We must rely on our personal experiences and over time a picture will reveal itself if the vaxx is causing strange illness. I see strange illness in my family so....