I guess meeting your Archetype is suppose to be a happy event ? Well it was at first , religiously so . I had never experienced such a rapture of pure joy . I knew after a few days this was not a normal social interaction . All I knew was that I had found a key to a path my life had not yet found . I couldn't settle for months after that . I spent three months just looking out of my window at night unable to shake the feeling an almighty chain of events was starting . Anyway things went well , so well in fact life's flow changed direction for me .Sometimes a thing can come too close and the stress of this sent me on holiday to Boscastle , hence my mysterious female experiences there . The woman who hid her face as she walked down the cliffside path ect . On returning home a friend suggested I read some Dion Fortune , and then my interest in the moon developed, this helped me get by and maybe favour my future a little more . Without this I dont know what would have become of me ....
So how does it feel to live by the moon ? Well the first thing I noticed was my instincts were heightened . I aligned my plans with the growing moon . I remember actively putting off opportunities to do things and doing them at the most advantageous time of the lunar cycle . Sound insane ? Well just imagine the discipline involved in doing that ! Sometimes I ached to do a thing but said no to myself as the time wasn't right . Actually over time this method started bearing fruit . The more I bought into it the more I gained . It was very much like faith really and I felt rewarded . I became very good at getting what I wanted . I could feel the contradictions of my desire to do things . I was a lower and higher self . When I went with my higher self I rebelled against my gut instincts and stuck through faith to another agenda . It worked . I cheated the system that confiscates lifes pleasure for most and usually reduces the everyday to the mundane . I spent many nights watching the moon in winter months from my bedroom window as our house faces East . Positive visualising really . A thing many people do .
Were there any down sides ? Well yes.... Emotionally it was a case of a constant high . I remember one particularly bitter hard winter being aware of every single individual snow flake in my view as they blew around in the eddies of wind . I was listening to some pretty emotional music as well which when combined with watching the moon seemed to mentally boost me . Even now several years later I was caught unawares by the full moon . It was unpleasant . There was an energy I had failed to use that weekend and I felt swamped . Until then I had wondered if looking back i'd over rated my experiences , but no . The hairs on my arms tingled with static . Ive never felt that before , even back in the day .
So I was living in another world really for about three years , getting what I desired . This was soul destroying because also in tandem my other everyday life was changing fast but I didn't care really as I was living the dream as they say....
Maybe I was just having a good run of it , but events were way beyond that . Looking back to the begining I remember a change in atomoshere when 2010 came in . I could feel old restrictions fall away and a new dawn come . The old patterns of denial of life was gone . It was my time , and time and space were gonna bend for me , and they did . Of course you must ask how long one could keep this up ( and there were lulls ) . Also how long
before the tide turns back as all life balances its self out eventually . Well that's a question im coming to this winter . Im 80% sure old ways have gone but that 20% is burning strong somewhere as I can feel it . Of course there is always the new ! Maybe this is progression . Maybe its a change over ? Maybe another tandem reality even ? Who knows....
