Hollow moon illuminates

There is nothing that makes me feel sadder than a moon hung over the town of Kendal on a pleasant still Autumn night . It sounds idyllic but to me its  somehow soul destroying . The effect in the countryside is charged , in a town it amplifies the empty , soul less , still atmosphere . Its hell . I have always loathed a moon over that town . I think there is maybe a subconscious reason or maybe something from a past life ( do they exist ? ) to explain this . Its not natural at all for such a lunar person as me .