Nailed it at last

 This valley has just as much death and misery as anywhere else. The scenery here is just easier on the eye. Thats what what this valley has become. - a beautiful killing floor.

All in the mind ?

 If a person is experiencing " fight or flight " may there really be a physical danger approaching in the near future ?

When an obsession ends, or a wild path peeters out then its back to the cold world, and the chances are you will have a lot of catching up to do. Things will have moved on without you. Ouch !

 

Climbing out of a rut ?

 For any given band or musical artist there is usually 2 or 3 songs that most people associate with them. This is their image as shaped by the media and music industry. Of course when you look deeper there is a vast array of material, some of which is of much higher quality that never saw the light of day in the mainstream. This is often a bands true identity. You may spend years thinking you know an artist, but you've only seen one small angle.That fact has often baffled me.

Its the same with towns and cities. In the UK I often only associate them with news stories that were memorable, negatively of course. This is an instant knee jerk reaction for example Lockerbie - plane crash, Dunblaine -  primary school massacre, Hungerford - shootings. Of course there is more to these places than a bad day news story, but image and memory come to quickly to the fore of our brains.

Ive also visited the same places for years and discovered new things there that if I had just looked a little further  around the next corner I would have seen. How easy it is to under estimate a place that we are so familiar with. Again our short sighted judgement has clouded so much. In that respect I doubt anything is quite as we have judged it. Ive no idea why ive written this, but I felt it needed saying.

Well it was nice while it lasted...

 Tonight I enjoyed a ride out to a very good Chinese takeaway. I ate it in on a bench in a very peaceful church yard. Well it was peaceful until some bell ringers started practicing. Ive never heard such a din. It sounded like someone hammering on a bell. As the tower was only small the noise wasnt that far above me. Yes. I made a sharp exit. The last time I sat there someone was angle grinding in the church. Its just annoying when a stupid thing like this happens.

Hilarious !

Flash of the Blade (2015 Remaster)

Live by the sword, die by the sword ?

U2 - New Year's Day (Official Music Video)

There is something about this song that captures the relief I felt after recovering from covid last Christmas. I find myself listening tonight as my spirit seems to be returning, and I feel some sort of normality mentally again. Physically Im improving but you know its a long haul with these things.

    I suddenly realized that Im very reliant on medication, both physically and mentally. I guess with age that comes around, but its a sobering thought. The very functioning of my physical body and my mind are now propped up by induced chemicals, man made. Am I a dead man walking ?

    Its great how stress medication can help us cope, but at night the dreams come. They are not as before. They are tainted, but tainted with an uneasy pleasantness, even the weird ones. Just like in my life the edge is taken of situations so is the edge taken off my dreams.

OZZY OSBOURNE - "Miracle Man" (Official Video)

The second verse of this song just popped into my head as I walked out of my shed today. I have no idea why. Its an obscure Ozzy song to.