From down here it looks like a steep incline , from up here another down hill slope of mine

January . I'm re-gaining some enthusiasm for work and starting to think quite forwardly now . When I awake in the morning I find myself looking out of the bedroom window not feeling negative or as tired as I was . My judgement is improving and I have removed several things I put on fb in a daft mood . My mind is sharper than it was but looking back to my posts before Christmas I see Ive lost a certain edge and darkness in the way I write . This alarms me as I can clearly see I was in touch with something then that I am not now . Something dark brings out another side of me at that time of year . A more colourful or charismatic me ? Maybe I'm just mellowing after all is now finished in a past chapter Ive lived . Maybe its the changing light . As Ive said before I know their are two sides to me , but don't worry though , If I didn't realise this then It would be altogether more worrying !