I Really Could Cry

Im sick of technology, and I think technology is sick of me. I have a history of trouble getting online, but this last month almost has me thinking that something is actively trying to stop me logging on...
  For the past month ive been limited to 10 minutes of Internet before im cut off. I rang BT and they promptly sent out an engineer who diagnosed a faulty phone wall socket. Try getting someone from a " budget " provider out to visit your house ! ( funny how they call it a discounted provider when you could only be saving 5 pounds a month ) All was well for a few days at least, then back to the same old story...
  Next I was sent a new router, a BT 4 " now even more reliable " Was there a history of the previous model being unreliable ? Dont care now as the problem has been fixed. Fantastic ? Er, no. Immediately a pop up virus exploded , just as I thought I was safe. Whats the point of a virus that only allows you to go to a " money making " website ? ! WTF . Laptop goes off the be fixed once again.
  When I collected it, I was asked if I used fb much, or looked at films people had shared ? Why of course. It was suggested that this was / is suddenly a problem. Is it ? I thought Norton Anti Virus errrrr, stopped viruses ? ! Silly me ! Where I go from here I dont know. Im getting the feeling that what once worked with no problems is no longer fit for purpose ? Im no expert, but things are getting worse. Its 50 pounds a time to clear viruses. It soon adds up unfortunately.
   Next by pure coincidence a family member caught a virus that mailed its self to all her facebook friends as a message. Luckily I havent received that f*****r today.  IS THIS THE FUTURE  WE HAVE IN STORE FROM FACEBOOK ? Its strange how nowadays everything has become a problem. I use facebook, Im not logging into some dodgy foreign porn site ! But from the tone of voice they used at the repair shop you would have thought I'd been doing something well risky ! Something just isnt right here.
   Anyway todays saga saw my Dads laptop expire. Ive been using it while mines been away. Its gone from slow to not even switching off, and its red hot ! I think the hard drive is going. See ? It NEVER ENDS !!

Its a very strange Summer. The land is about 3 weeks behind its normal condition for the 10th of June. Leaves are not all out yet, its still cold, there are no bees or moths, and few swallows. The hills are a pale green, dirty colour such as they are in March. This is all made worse by the sunny long light evenings. The length of daylight does not match how the land looks. In fact the high up ground even appears to be going backwards in its barrenness to a look of early Spring. This Summer will be over before its begun yet.

Why I like Christians ( but they probably dont like me )

I recently left a facebook group that was devoted to the discussion of Religion and Atheism. At first it seemed quite fun. The banter was fun.I wound up Christians about how they could prove nothing. They got irate as usual and hated my mystical views.
   Suddenly something odd happened, I started arguing against Atheism ! I realised that Christians had faith, just as I had faith that there was more to the everyday world than what first appears. Such things are my blogs bread and butter. Most Atheists dont believe in magick or occult things. They are empty blind people. They believe in NOTHING. Thats not big or clever. I feel I have more in common with Christians, but sadly they would probably not agree. Truth be told they are closer to my view points then they will admit. The concept of God is a very loose one.
   The Atheists on this page were infantile, had no decent arguments, and replaced every thing with a sexual innuendo. They were obsessed with exalting there sexual views. It almost seemed like at replacement religion that they felt was " grown up and worldly ". This was a running theme. When people started posting pornographic pictures of Jesus then that was my cue to leave. What a group...

A New Water Manifestation

The last few months have seen a new water based phenomenon. A short burst of water will pour from a tap that is firmly turned off. This originally started about a year ago and was quite amusing as I blamed our farms old water supply. When on holiday the other week near Glastonbury the water in our caravan did the same thing, and it was on mains. Again the tap was turned fully off. Starting to get a bit worried now. Finally on returning to my house in the village, the tap there is now doing the same thing, and it has just had a new washer fitted. This is not coincidence...

Glastonbury Abbey Ruins

A fuller picture of the scale of this building tells us that Glastonbury was high up the spiritual ladder


 

You can still sense the magic and awe that this place once inspired

 



The fish ponds are fed from what I presume are the same springs that emerge from under The Tor

 

 

Glastonbury Abbey was destroyed by Henry 8th's Reformation in the 1500's. The unfortunate Bishop was hung from The Tor tower that overlooks the surrounding area. A very macabre end !

 

The Carp above were in the abbey ponds, and were more than happy to be fed bread ect..

 

( cant get these photo's to line up. Grrrrrr  ! )

YOU LEAVE THE M5 FOR GLASTONBURY AT JUNCTION, YES..... 23 !  

Winged Messengers ?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Im not sure quite just how seriously Im taking this post, but it seems that this morning two nesting Jackdaws were not just using twigs. Oh, no their material was from a far higher and spiritual source; the Bible no less. They had dropped scraps of the below pages in a cow shed, one of which deals with the plague's of Egypt. The reverse side is a rather nice Easter / Spring poem. Is this to be taken as a sign ? I just dont know. I do know however it is NOT normal.
     The second page seems very much to the point  " Help me to refuse the low and vulgar things; help me to abhor all crooked deals of every kind... "  Yes, Glastonbury is near again... A very random topographical map ( is that the right phrase ? )  of Glastonbury Tor including Chalise Wells Garden turned up on a box at the farm recently, photo tomorrow hopefully. I have a new easy to use camera.

Paranioa

Tonight Im deeply uneasy and a little paranoid. A friend said something to me and his slip of the tongue painted a scenario that I think maybe prophetic. That kind of uneasiness seeps into soul and the possible permutations are legion.
   Paranoia fascinates me. I respect its  ability to take a varying number of inputs and paint them into a master piece of menace. It can build a viable multilayer philosophy of horror that when broken down piece by piece over days, actually adds up and makes sense. Paranoia always produces a nicely thought out thesis about why you need to worry. That's why its so hard to fight, because more than one building block WILL be true. Just how do you tare down a nicely built and thought out argument it has produced ? Only a long drawn out erosion wears down these thoughts to the worthless dust they are. That does not detract however from there genius build and master piece construction. Maybe somewhere they are actually true or happening, and we just become aware of this through a thin veil ?

The game is given away by the fact paranoia often comes after an unexpected success... yeah, its part of a polar opposite that the brain just has to hit us with to stop any euphoria from lasting too long...