A brave new world for me....

Im tired and in one of those moods when I swear there is something always just out of site in the air around me. I catch suggestions of movement. Maybe Im just tired. Today has felt like no other equivalent day of past years. Spring has always had a certain feeling, this has changed somehow today. Everything familiar feels different . I am now even more aware that Im lacking something than I was, something even those similar to me in real life can even manage ? I am so deeply different Its irreconcilable . Yes that's old ground ive been over, but tonight I feel it all too much. Something will give soon. I know how this goes....