Ive been doing a lot of soul searching today as an empty feeling is creeping back again. This cant continue. I cant spend the rest of part of my life in a void. I then realised Ive been very lucky to have met some amazing people who have moved me both on and off line. Ive seen unseen things, sometimes accidentally. Ive experienced Boscastle and its mystery's , Ive followed the Moon cycles with great results, but none of these things give me lasting satisfaction in an everyday sense. Thats because they are not everyday things. I need to view life in two separate slices and find satisfaction in the everyday by its mundane responsibilities.
I feel like the character Tallow in The Golden Barge by Micheal Moorcock. Tallow finds many interesting things in the world and charismatic people on his journey, but none fill his soul for long and on he moves. No one supplys enough reason to live his life their way for long, this ends up seeing him following his hearts desires through many years and various lands, and his final thought is that any happiness must come from the everyday mundane side of life, or was that the end of Brave New World as well ? Anyway I feel as though ive reached the sea as Tallow did. The sea of course was the end of the river that Tallow travelled . I wonder what happens now ?
And before anyone pipes up about God, I view this subject as yet another distraction from the everyday. I have had enough distractions thank-you .
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