Propaganda - Jewelled (Rare)

 



I have just re-watched this 2 years later and are counting the synchronicitys past, present and no doubt of the future too, if I knew what that held...

Every year when the sun sets in the center of this tree, its time to go on holiday....

 

 

 

 

There is something incredibly powerful in this image, and profound too. Pagan comes to mind. A wake up call for the unseen...

The Golden Blog: The Sea Priestess

The Golden Blog: The Sea Priestess: Looking around and at my TV I see the world is full of beautiful women . Jam packed full , especially as the aesthetic angle is now deemed e...

1% not 23 !

About a year ago I wrote a piece about how my life was quite comfortable, but was never complete because I was always seeking the 1% type of different person to be friends with in my life. Strangely I was thinking back to that 1% thing these last few days briefly when I managed to contact such  person in real life who I classed as a 1% er in the past. Its with this in mind that I was surprised to see a page view today of a post I wrote last year  on this subject. That's quite odd.

The second reason ive been thinking back to my need for 1% people is that I met a remarkable blogger last year who I definitely classed as a 1% type. She seems to be taking a break from her fantastically written blog, or maybe her life has changed now. Anyway I shall remember that Summer of intense blogging and all it taught me. As Summer unveils its on my mind. They were very good days . Of course I wanted such a person to appear as my real world situation was torrid as 1% situations in real life are.

Both these people I class as 1% types. Both have been very much on my mind recently. The viewing of that old post ties in with that fact. Of course this " coincidence " is par for the course with me and is the bread and butter of my blog. If the blogger mentioned is still reading my blogs then maybe they could drop e -mail me or something as I would be interested as to how her life has turned out. Im fine really, just a little surprised by an old friend contacting me at the moment. Mmm, I think that's about it !

Do not pass go , do not collect £200

Call me mad (and you probably do) but I have often been amazed at how an e-mail address can malfunction at times which are far from random. Ive see this happen down to split second accuracy . Whether it been removing unwise fb posts just before someone happens to log on or complete Internet connection failure if I try to message a specific person. Of course there is the A***** word I can not use without a technical problem. If Im having online cut off I always presume im close to the bone of something. Is there any reasoning in this ? Should I change my path ? Surely these forces are not judgemental. They are growing forever more real and annoying by the day.

Having seen a page view of my old 1% post and considering its timing I shall go further and say that on line things seem to conduct physcic matters and draw things together that are beyond our knowing. The internet is a massive conductor of things we do not yet understand. I strongly believe that. Its a tool that can speed up advancements in our character that would otherwise socially take an age. That's fantastic. Hey, Im being positive !

Duran Duran hungry like the wolf with lyrics

        



Today I glanced in the mirror and caught sight of something new in my eyes. You know how it is ....lol

Blow Out Kit For The Underdog

Im at a low ebb. An eternal return has occurred reaping up all I had buried. Im exhausted mentally and feel anaesthetised . I must press on. I am not finished, but I must finish.

This will be interesting. How do I proceed when Ive exhausted every inch of force ? I feel savage progress is ahead in my characters defining conditions. I think Im ready for Glastonbury !

I ask the questions on here that religion answers

Religion however fails to ask these questions, as its so frantically preaching the answers

What use is one half without the other ?

RELIGION  MUST GROW UP AND EMBRACE MYSTICISM   !

Forwards and Backwards I go

There is a metaphorical  cliff ahead

Ive carefully clambered around its edge for years

Now Im told to jump off it 

Apparently this will be highly pleasurable 

I shall pace for weeks probably 

Eventually I shall jump...

I used to know what lay beneath on my landing

Today how can a man find the courage ? 

Maybe a holiday is called for first, if only to allow the vacant mindset I seek.

Once more into the fraye...

Face Book is an artificial state of group consciousness

Its an un-natural mental state.

No wonder it creates mental problems

We are not designed for a 24hour social group mindset.

And its still 2 weeks off my holiday...

Every day now for a week I have been subjected to an alarming series of daily revelations concerning things either personnel to myself or things happening to people I know. Each daily piece of information gives me a shock. The currents of life are changing massively. How Im caught up in all this ( and I am ) remains to be seen.
  Last year I was robbed of something and I couldn't find a logical reason for this, never a good end to anything. At the time I sensed foul play and something dark about it, say a little to orchestrated. Im good at spotting unnatural changes in flow, and Im also good at using them. Its my thing...

The Sum Of All Fears

Is it wise to holiday in the mystical capitol of our fair country, with Holts Radiator Seal Additive as my only solution between me and a leaking radiator ? With my history of water based flirtations I predict a disaster ahead no less ! LOL

I am not alone here...

This morning as I was woken up by religious program ( well loosely so )on Radio 4 . A man had written a book about his personal observations about life and the conclusions he had reached on it. He finished up saying he had returned his beliefs to the Anglican Church today after many deviations. Interestingly he mentioned he had come a full circle, and was back at the start again from where he set off a lifetime ago. He then said

 " IT WAS TIME TO FOLLOW THE PATH HE HAD ORIGINALLY ALWAYS  BEEN DESTINED TO FOLLOW "

Yes, he had come a full circle, but he had returned to the start ,but the start was not what it used to be. His journey ,however convoluted had led him back to his now altered starting point .Hence this diversion had not been in vain . This is similar to my view (well my personal interpretation ) of  how the number 23 moves us, or the very idea I think it represents.

This will drive me mad yet....

Weekly stats for U.S.A page views, yeah you've guest right...23  AGAIN THIS WEEK !!!

Catch my drift ?

A face book acquittance has just added 23 new photo's 23 minutes ago ?!

Sailing against the wind ? Is it really possible ?

Last summer I nearly drove myself into the ground trying to achieve a simple goal. At every turn I was thwarted. I then totally gave up and actively destroyed any avenues leading to any possible future success, and I did a proper job of that. Only then did events open up the path I had nearly killed myself trying so hard previously to achieve.
   This is a form of " magick ", so say some. It has my attention, though  the jury is out on whether this is just simply events changing direction back to what should have been, or simply has this goal run out of time to not exist in. ? Can an event have to happen because its time not to happen has over run ? Some say the longer you wait the more likely it is to happen !

There is more than one snake at the gate...

Its a big gate !!!

One really feels the desire to kick ass at the moment

This is as opposed to kicking someone else's ass...?

Comprehend ?

Further adventures in the world of 23

Calling in on my fb page I see I abandoned it on the 23rd of FEB . Well the 24th to be truthful, but its near enough.... 

Had enough of BT bills for phone and internet. Todays offending part of the bill , the amount I found myself finding unacceptable was £23...  

Of course part of the 23 meaning is coming a full circle and needing to continue along a path, but without the mistakes this time. It does not say " throw the baby out with the bath water " as such. I guess such subjects displaying 23 need urgent attention and slight adjustment, not abandonment.

Yesterdays Google picture was of a Philosopher/ Mathematician . She was the 23rd child in a family. In what context I dont know, but thats what Wickipeadia found important.

If I Came....23

I don't know what Jung would have made of this, but I had the most vivid dream last night. I found myself running very , very fast towards the sea over a grassy estuary. I slowed down as quickly as I could and suddenly found myself on a windy, blustery sea shore in a gale with sunlight catching the dappled, stormy wave swept surface of a stormy exuberant sea. I braced myself into the wind as a huge wave built up out at sea . I realised I could not out run it so I remained still and it crashed around my feet, even though I was standing clear of the beach, I could not out run it. This dream was all to real and like others ive had Im not sure how much of this was a dream...   


The number 23 occurs daily in my blog stats. I have researched in detail the Tarot meaning of this. It is not negative.




  

Its what people dont tell you thats most worth noting

The number of U.K soldiers having treatment for mental disorders after serving in Afghanistan was today I quote  " Over 660 "   We seem to be missing that last single digit. It is probably a 6 its safe to assume !

Drip ,drip , drip....

Today has been a day of synchronicity beyond any sense, even by my standards. This is quite normal for me and in the past I could tell you stories you would not believe. What can I tell you about such matters ? Well I believe Jung was right when he said these coincidences are the result of our physce affecting matter. That I know is true. For some of us what we hold dear, or desire in life will be reflected back at us in either the media or through real life connections, as has happened today. At the time this is very impressive and certainly will grab your attention !
  Whats it all mean, and is it of any use, however impressive the coincidence is ? Does it mean events are about to yield to your agenda ? In my experience they seem to occur AFTER an event in real life. They are certainly not a guarantee that things are heading your way, but that will only be proved in the long term, so who knows. At the same time I have seen synchronicity lead to a real movement in life, sometimes in a geographical sense as things orbit closer to your home, sometimes too close. Its a cop out, but I guess things can go both ways. So it means NOTHING then ? Well there MUST be some meaning when matter moves into line with your mental out look. A Physcologist would call it one thing, a mystic by another more flamboyant name I shall not print here.
  Any way to wrap up what I really want to say is, today has been an extraordinary day !

There is a full moon coming . Remember those ??? 

A brave new world for me....

Im tired and in one of those moods when I swear there is something always just out of site in the air around me. I catch suggestions of movement. Maybe Im just tired. Today has felt like no other equivalent day of past years. Spring has always had a certain feeling, this has changed somehow today. Everything familiar feels different . I am now even more aware that Im lacking something than I was, something even those similar to me in real life can even manage ? I am so deeply different Its irreconcilable . Yes that's old ground ive been over, but tonight I feel it all too much. Something will give soon. I know how this goes....

Oh Yes, a laugh a minute on here !

Sometimes esoteric forces have a sense of humour in their working as an old address I once frequented was 23 Anchorite Fields. 23 means " get out " and an Anchorite was a medieval religious student who devoted their life to God by being permanently walled up in a room , but able to give guidance to visitors through a hatch. Yes, that was humour !

Tonight as I was researching in depth my 23 synchronicity I came across a Google targeted add telling me a certain country was wanting me to consider emigration no less. Of course it was a pun again and not a literal interpretation of " get out " , but it was duly noted and made me laugh...

23- Onwards and upwards, not backwards.
      Backwards no longer exists
      The equivalent of a brick wall
      Impossible/Impassable
      I wait for further guidance
      Time does not measure
      This is the ONLY way out for us
      Over the edge...
     

My 700 th post

Ive been doing a lot of soul searching today as an empty feeling is creeping back again. This cant continue. I cant spend the rest of part of my life in a void. I then realised Ive been very lucky to have met some amazing people who have moved me both on and off line. Ive seen unseen things, sometimes accidentally. Ive experienced Boscastle and its mystery's , Ive followed the Moon cycles with great results, but none of these things give me lasting satisfaction in an everyday sense. Thats because they are not everyday things. I need to view life in two separate slices and find satisfaction in the everyday by its mundane responsibilities.
   I feel like the character Tallow in The Golden Barge by Micheal Moorcock. Tallow finds many interesting things in the world and charismatic people on his journey, but none fill his soul for long and on he moves. No one supplys enough reason to live his life their way for long, this ends up seeing him following his hearts desires through many years and various lands, and his final thought is that any happiness must come from the everyday mundane side of life, or was that the end of Brave New World as well ? Anyway I feel as though ive reached the sea as Tallow did. The sea of course was the end of the river that Tallow travelled . I wonder what happens now ?

And before anyone pipes up about God, I view this subject as yet another distraction from the everyday. I have had enough distractions thank-you .

Peppa Pig goes existential ...

"  Oh, no the wind has dropped ! "

" What are we going to do ? " 

" We must wait for the wind to start again "

" And how long will that take ? "

" It could be weeks..... "

An Unpleasant Feeling

Ive always found May a lonesome month. Don't get me wrong, Im pleased to see Summer coming and a change of routine in my work, but there is a cold North wind that blows through the fresh green trees and over the green fields that echoes an emptiness that's soul destroying. Its kind of great truth. Its an in between seasons moment. Its terrifying , even as the sun shines. Its a looking glass which gives a brief clear view of what lies beneath life; a cycle of limited life no less. The seasons will continue on after Im long gone, maybe that's what scares me about the approaching Summer/end of Spring.

Is this Pan ?

16th Century China

Last night I had the strangest dream. In the dream my daughter, who is two, started to tell me facts that were quite alarming, but when I awoke I had forgotten them all. Well all but the part of a sentence which oddly said " A 16th century Chinese.... "   I panicked  at that point in the dream and unfortunately woke up, next I hear the creaks and cracking noises in my attic that are so common at various periods of time. I do however have my theory's about this bizarre piece of a sentence , and believe it is of great relevance. Time will tell  : )

Somethings In The Air

I feel a great rush of positive energy ( yes, really ! / no I haven't been to Glastonbury yet  ) at the moment. Maybe its the beginning of May thats responsible due to the changing brighter light and the land coming back to life. Last night I noticed the clouds were getting that bubbly Summer look to them, and the blue sky was nice and pale blue. I sense all the energy of Summer that's to come, those moon light nights and hazy days. Physically I also know my body and mind need a rest and my holiday to Glastonbury is only at the end of this month...
   I even got round to taking a new profile picture, which I did in a manic fashion last night. It seemed an urgent task, don't know why, maybe Spring has gone to my head ! lol  As always my profile picture looks a bit scary, they always do... Very few men on blogger show their face and I think if you post views like mine its a cop out if you cant put your face to them . The irony is can I adjust my blog layout to include a profile pic ? Er... Im struggling !

The " season " has begun again, shall we get started ?!

Caution ?

Left a comment on a new rather interesting blog I found, and the prove your not a robot code I was to use was none other than the word   " CAUTION " !!!  This morning I see why.  Are there really that many coincidences ? Either way somethings a miss here , but it would be impossible to orchestrate , so that only leaves the fact, that most bloggers are game players !!! I have been warned about this before . . Not sure where this leaves my view on blogging anymore. Not good.

Update:  Of course Ive seen enough over these last few months to know that not all people portraying things personal to me are aware of the gravity of what they are doing. I get this kind of thing all the time now and I must decide on an out look to deal with extreme " coincidences " . These extreme coincidences are apparently common in my line of interests , after all Ive experienced this many times before, but its getting to a stage now when I need a philosophy to deal with them...