One of the most disturbing things ive experienced in life is watching the complete mental disintegration of several people im very close to everyday . Ive seen things no one should have to witness . Ive seen a person reduced to a shrieking , howling , jibbering wreck rolling on the ground . It brings tears to my eyes now thinking about it . This has changed my outlook on life . Underneath my outside demeanour I wear a wry smile as we are all equal . We can all fall to destruction . It can happen to " the best of 'em " . Problems seem less serious compared to this suffering in the same way that once youve witnessed death other problems seem far away , well for a while anyway...
But the worst of it is that medication enabled those I love to function again BUT underneath that medicated thin veneer that horror still lurks , and I never forget this .It haunts me. This suffering is shut away or locked up somewhere . But where ? And for how long ? Also how reall are those on these pills ? They exhibit very subtly different characteristics which is unsettling . Of course after a while you stop noticing the changes which is also not a happy fact . Sorry to be depressing but ive needed to get this out for a while now. Its a tabbo subject alright.....Im no expert but I have seen the sharp end of this problem in others close to me.
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