Worn out

Im so tired tonight . What a week its been . As I predicted the fading day light hours and Autumn approaching has kick started the mystical season . I think my next chapter is at last beginning..... I also cant wait to get to work on the farm . Im lost without it and quickly disintegrate .

777

http://atschool.eduweb.co.uk/sbs777/prophecy/no777.html

Well its been quite a week.....

Tuesday: Visited the first  church founded by Saint Columba in Scotland .  Strange coincidences . Church door handle shakes twice as though some one is trying to enter . No no one there ...see two 777 number plates going over single track pass

Wednesday: Stumble across a well blessed by Saint Columba near Loch Ness

Friday: Visit Conishead Buddhist temple , Cumbria  . See two 777 plates as I drive by a week earlier . One 777 in car park day I visit....

Saturday: Jung revelations !   

I hate it when this happens....

Getting lost in a Buddhist garden and discovering a Buddha factory  as you do.... LOL !

A momentous day !

Well today has been a very special day as ive discovered yet another existence or sphere . Ive actually visited that Buddhist temple that I drove past last week near the coast . Immediately after passing the temple  last week two cars with the registration plate 777 went by ( its a thing I have ) . I considered it a sign .
 I found it very hard to enter as Buddhism is an alien concept to me . A bit like taking your hands off a cars steering wheel and expecting to get where your going too ! Well on entering after plucking up courage I found the most incredible silence in there . Not just physically but mentally too . Now lets not confuse this with inner peace and joy ! The silence was cold , clinical , pure , totally beyond comprehension . All human atmosphere was scrubbed clinically from the building . I felt free as one would floating in space outside of earth . All humanity and soul was annihilated from that temple leaving only pure space . Words are hard to find to describe how void it was in there of human feelings . A totally blank canvas . Very alarming actually . By comparison I told the attendant an empty church felt like a crowded house .
 How is this done ? Where has all the humanity gone as it cant be destroyed ? Is this temple a dam about to burst ? Is this safe ? This is not an experience I shall forget . There is no god in there at all . There is totally nothing in there at all . That's is whats so terrifying !

Untitled

I was thinking in a tired , rattled state of mind  last night about after what ive experienced of magic / life and mysticism whether ignorance is the highest and happiest state . I see another has once again beat me to it with a blog post . I have lost track how often this  happens , though it does give me a wry smile !
 Today I feel the pull of an old tide or situation  on me after a long wait . I shall not settle until I sort this situation out but do I have the will ?  This is the big question here

A window in the watch tower ?

What am I ? Who am I ?  My biggest " problem " is I eventually get all I desire . Eventually.... This leads to interesting experiences . Do other people see you more clearly than you see yourself ? I see greatness in others that no one else sees , but do others see greatness in me ? Do they know something about what I am  because I see what others are in a dream like way ..... Shits about to get heavy on this blog I think......

Why ?

I know two women who have bred till they have nearly destroyed their bodies such is the impulse to reproduce however bad an idea it was . Why do women do this ? On returning home I find my wife's best friend is now in this category expecting her third .....

Only accesable through a subjective experience ?

I wrote a piece about a bizarre day I had on holiday at a holy site of a church founded by Saint Columba 656AD . My lap top wiped it , my charger played up ect . Its now gone . This happens when I try to write about Holy things or images . Its not the first time  .
 Basically several severe coincidences happened that day leaving me dazed . A certain geographical  area is creating a symmetry with my life / loves  . Its a very Holy place in Scotland . Is this good or bad ? My ex-Methodist preacher uncle told me I was onto something so I guess that's something . I shall however write about some other spooky events soon closer to home . A bit tired and rattled tonight ....
 Im in no fit mind to write now , I need some sleep !!!

100% happy ?

Today economists measure economic growth in incredibly small increments . This means they can report or show the desired effects  they want to see much more easily . The fact is there is a very small difference between being content or not . Ive mentioned before its the 1% factor .
 Getting married , having a child ,having a secure job , living in the countryside with a reasonable standard of living should on paper make me 100% content . All the ingredients are there . These things are great but are not my whole being .

The golden blog: Moody , grimmy moon

The golden blog: Moody , grimmy moon: Im sat with my luxury view of the half moon passing in and out of the storm clouds , moody as fuck and grimmy . There is no saving grace o...



Ive dug out this old post from last year though a friend told me it was a bit bleak . My head  was suddenly filled with this thought .

Random Fact

Last weekend I discovered a Buddhist temple less than an hours drive away by the sea . Its strange what you can find near where you've lived all your life by simply taking a  " scenic " road .

Saint Thomas Aqinas

" THE SLENDEREST KNOWLEDGE THAT MAY BE OBTAINED OF THE HIGHEST THINGS IS MORE DESIRABLE THAN THE MOST CERTAIN KNOWLEDGE OBTAINED OF LESSER THINGS "       

Well if that's the case im OK then.... LOL

Tonight im thinking about the saints . I know nothing about them or their powers or why they became so important to religion . Ive been thinking about this subject a while now .

Full moon forcing a crisis ?

The first of many moons

Its a peaceful night and the moon is hazily appearing and disappearing amongst the clouds through the pine trees outside my window . Ive been reading Moon Magic and its amazing how much more you see re-reading a book two years on . Its a story of how a timeless woman who models her self on Morgan Le Fay .....Time to sleep as its a busy week  . Many moon light nights are ahead and this is the first of them . Can you feel the atomoshere tonight ? Its easy spend a few minutes alone in silence with that moon . Simple , so simple !

So what makes me tick ???

" Do any of us understand what we are doing ? If we did , would we ever do it ? "     A quote from a philosopher contained in a series of short storeys Im reading . This is a problem with mystical things when you start looking at how your living and what you believe .  Try  putting into plain words what you've done or seen in your experiences and you think WTF !!! .... it all begins to fall apart . Dion Fortune called these experiences " the fairy diamonds " . In the daylight the diamonds appear as old dried leaves but only in the moonlight did they become diamonds ....
 I guess also doing things for reasons we are not conscious of suggests a higher guiding force ? Nope not God but our inner selves or sub-conscious . I like the idea of my cuddly inner self but the idea of my sub-conscious scares me senseless ! .
 I know for example that I recreated a social situation that saw me hurt 15 years ago . This time I lived it and  won at any cost a victory  to a pleasant degree; for a substantial period of time , long enough to now walk away if I want too with my head held high  . Old demons took a bashing and it was about time , but oh what a price Ive paid ! I won but I used every tool available .
 Now here's where it gets interesting . Despite the unconventional  situation esoteric signs backed me up to the hilt , constantly beyond a doubt letting me know it was OK . I wont use the word " right " because there is no concept of morality in the said situation or the forces I saw manifesting.  Strange  signs and just beyond any sense coincidences kept and are still occuring now . No it was not a doddle . There were times I thought I was going to have to get some " help " but today Ive come through it , I think.....  Of course some ( FAMILY THAT IS ! )  will say I manufactured a complex coping mechanism .  The lines blur but I have a detailed diary of events and when viewed in a " big picture " scenario it all looks quite impressive .
 The situation is trivial compared to the inner working behind it . What that  the situation  was is not important for you to know but the end result is . Its right here on this blog . I cant deny that . I am the end product today .
 No doubt this article is the product of the coming full moon " forcing the crises " . I tend to get more creative or spontaneous at these times  . Looking at the moon last night brought back some good memories . It is a tool , but be beware it can can swamp you and the emotions and situations it furthers are intoxicating and living this way long term is not an option . Ive lived it . I know . Like an addict I gaze at her and are tempted to give it a " spin " but I'm not sure that's my scene today although its hard to tell yet . After my holiday I might be of a different out look .

Do we really feel the way we feel ?

Having recently gone threw much turmoil Im wondering if the things in life that cause us anxiety really are the things that are worrying us ! Or do we hang our anxiety's on certain subjects or social circumstances . There are times ive blamed my mind set on a situation but when that situation eases the negative emotions are still there . Was I using a situation on which to hang my anxiety for conveniences sake  ? Sometimes I can feel that  there's a distinct separation  . Its worrying really .
  This reminds me of something I recently read about " subconscious despair " . This is the most disturbing concept , opening a can of worms I doubt many want to consider....

P.S     I guess If  I must put all my eggs in one basket  I should first check they are real eggs.....LOL

Despite my best intensions

My water woes continue ... I recently found a hidden hole gobbling up our water supply . I mended it and now another yet to be found major leak is occurring . As fast as I solve water problems new leaks appear . Its as though water is continually trying to beat my best intentions to control it . Of course it is doing just that . An Uncle told me years ago that water " thinks " . Its like and probably effected by our subconscious so ive heard muted around . Nothing would surprise me at all .

" Well you would have it......."

Tonight ive made some very interesting discoveries . Erm , well . I have started re- reading Dion Fortunes  Moon Magic novel  at the moment . And the rest as they say is history.....
  You can run from lifes plan but you cant hide .  Its part of my incredible journey . These people enter my sphere but can never dwell in it . Like ghosts they come and go . I cant hold onto them for long . This upsets my life balance . Its hard work being constantly amazed !
 This is the second " appearance " in my life of this type and believe me when I say I told myself next time it happened I would run ! Those who really know me are now laughing !!! 
 Should I just stick to the everyday life I have like everyone else and get some peace ?  Ive felt something coming a while but have never been sure what . Ive learnt to be pro-active in these situations because its the right thing to do . What are my new tasks and goals to be ? Im as lost as I was at the start.....
  The days are shortening and Autumn is on its way . A full moon is coming and Ive got that feeling of detactment from the everyday . This is a return of my true side again . Well one of my sides . These endeavours are always clothed in risk but as time moves on you loose the fear . 
 " Do what thou whilst shall be the whole of the law ! "  Well ive  lived that moto for 5 years so im seasoned !

Waiting again .

After been alive for a certain length  of time the drip , drip of days becomes a feeling I cant find the words to describe . Trivial , unremarkable maybe ? Im in rock pool waiting for the tide at the moment .

Pagan / Pilgrims ( this post could grow at any time ! )

I got into a bit of a ranting mood last night while watching a rather interesting tv program called Pagans and Pilgrims . To cut a long story short Pagan sites were built on by the church starting in the year 400 AD . The church benefited from the kudos and spiritual history of these sites and erased the Pagan knowledge in the process . Importantly they didn't destroy these sights , they just merged with them .  Most of the  old knowledge was lost . Of course the churches  main religious festivals eclipsed the same dates as the Pagan celebrations or feasts   . Christmas and Easter for example . Its pathetic and petty and extremely clever or parasite like . Fact .
 This was a long time ago and religions have always tried to delete each other in competition so I guess its nothing new......but im still angry !
 I wonder how life was for those ancient Britons . Did they follow the moon cycles in making their plans ? Probably . Would they have mystical experiences near places like Tintagel or Boscastle . I think so . Now imagine that life style as mainstream . With that amount of belief and purposely being in tune with the sun , moon ,sea ect  life must have been fairly heady judging by the fraction ive experienced . Of course only a small percentage of " power " is apparently left at the western power point of Tintagel  according to writers in the know .
  I wrote a post after visiting the excellent  Durham cathedral and how it used occult/ mystical items in its lay out . I shall dig it out and re-post it . So who was the greatest victor in this Christian / Mystical faceoff im not sure . I know for example the Anglican church is bringing back shrines to saints that were destroyed in Henry the 8th reformation . For Christianity to survive modern times it must turn back the clock to more earthy times . People care about the environment today .They dont care so much for morals or been told how to live .

Yes I can do humour !

I arrived home tonight to hear the village church bell ringers practising as they do every Wednesday night . They are very good but tonight they are ringing a touch too fast making their melody positively manic ! Funny if a little unsettling.....

A taboo subject ?

One of the most disturbing things ive experienced in life is watching the complete mental disintegration of several people im  very close to everyday . Ive seen things no one should have to witness . Ive seen a person reduced to a shrieking , howling , jibbering wreck rolling on the ground . It brings tears to my eyes now thinking about it . This has changed my outlook on life . Underneath my outside demeanour I wear a wry smile as we are all equal . We can all fall to destruction . It can happen to " the best of 'em " . Problems seem less serious compared to this suffering in the same way that once youve witnessed death other problems seem far away , well for a while anyway...
 But the worst of it is that medication enabled those I love to function again BUT underneath that medicated thin veneer that horror still lurks , and I never forget this .It haunts me. This suffering is shut away or locked up somewhere . But where ? And for how long ? Also how reall are those on these pills ? They exhibit very subtly different characteristics which is unsettling . Of course after a while you stop noticing the changes which is also not a happy fact . Sorry to be depressing but ive needed to get this out for a while now. Its a tabbo subject alright.....Im no expert but I have seen the sharp end of this problem in others close to me.

Why ?

I dont understand why but esoteric events and things manifesting seem to begin in August .  Maybe its the moon which usually becomes more often visible now . Maybe its the changing light or cumuilation of a summer of the suns energy . A changing season ? Maybe my mind set changes as Autumn approaches in the distance ! God im talking up autumn already , well September will soon be here... Add a full moon and  being near the sea and a female stranger will manifest something . Ive seen it too many times .

Who can frame thy fearful symmetery ?

Its coming up too two years since my last big family holiday . Family as in family and partners and offspring .That week was one of the worst ive experienced in my life . Mentally it was hell . I started to loose hair when I washed , grey hairs started appearing and I started to get thoughts of self harming . I have never felt like that before or at all since .
 The problem was basically too much alcohol ( I don't drink myself )  , hidden family secrets and baggage was outed daily . We all have our baggage and people had theirs  outed daily in a macabre comedy style truth and reconciliation style public  confessional  !  Everyone was joking about it but crying inside . Day four saw me run for my life back home as I saw my turn quickly approaching .
 By the time we reach adulthood most of us carry stuff we can never reveal . This holiday was a perfect storm . It felt pre-ordained . It felt orchestrated . An ambush no less . Looking back I suspect an occult attack no less or some evil force at work . I only mention it know as a similar family holiday had been arranged again but with less " variables " this time . I was looking forward to it but a bizarre coincidence has happened again to someone in my family today , an injury has occurred exactly as it did to this persons partner on the  bad holiday two years ago , nearly to the day . Another dark incident has also become them . Again this feels like an attack today ,hence the memories of the original are on my mind tonight .
 I am still going though on my own and am unsure who else will join me as everyone is so busy nowadays . No doubt I'll not be on my own but ive always fantasised about a solitary holiday wondering whether it would be uplifting or lonely . Sometimes just after my daughter was born I imagined walking the coast path of Cornwall on my own and camping on the cliffs .
 Well its bucketing it down tonight and it has come in dark early . I told you a things were gonna get stranger.....
 

" The universe is just a collection of ideas really.... "    Simon Iff / Aliester Crowley

A disturbing question

I read a book a while ago that suggested that extremely benevolent , spiritual trial blazing , philanthropist ( is that the right word ?) type people often have a small very dark part of their life well hidden . A dark alter ego you might say . They often have , how can I put this ? They often abuse others . Catholic priests , Jimmy Saville to name two examples . Apparently in history this is not unusual .
 Why would Godly charitable people do this ? Many evil or damaged people do not stoop this low so why do a minority of the righteous ? How many people guilty of this abomination do we idolise ? Is it an unavoidable price paid of being a " saint ? "  If so why ? I ask this question in a moraly detacted sense otherwise I wouldn't dare ask it !

Boscastle . Ground zero ?

Tonight I find myself looking back  four years to an event which kick started my whole mystical journey . I was on holiday in Cornwall and decided to visit Boscastle .The village had been on the news because of a sudden torrent of water tearing through it the previous  summer so I thought id check out how the repairs were going , it being now the following spring . Im sure if you google the word Boscastle youll find film of the dramatic event ...
. I was particularly stressed about a personal situation that lay ahead for me that I could not avoid when I was to return back home . At the same time I felt exhilarated  that this situation was occurring ! Good times could be ahead I imagined  but also I knew so was extreme fear , almost paralysing me . A heady mixture then . I cannot stress how scared I was for my future then . I was in a state of mental terror to be honest.
 Anyway while I was fishing from the cliff tops I got a terrible feeling I was unwelcome there . An uncomfortable feeling like I was desecrating the area and that someone wanted me to leave . I have never felt so uncomfortable in any place before . The bass sound of the sea at low tide was booming in a sea cave below me and that was also making me feel strange  . I can still recall that atmosphere  even now.  I left and returned down the cliff path . Feeling I was being  followed I turned round to see a young woman walking about 15 meters behind me . Her long brown hair fell over her face just like in the  film " The Grudge " . Stupid as that sounds its was exactly like that . Her head was looking at the ground  Her whole face was hidden . This alarmed me so I paused to gaze  , she kept walking  but she  never seemed to get any nearer   and the odd thing was as she walked her feet moved conventionally but her head remained at a steady level as giving a very strong impression she was gliding not walking behind me . My wife also confirmed later this woman was watching me intensely while I fished earlier from a higher position up on some rocks  . At the bottom of the path we waited on a bridge ready to catch her coming round the corner unawares so as to get a good look at her . Well her hair was still falling completely over her face and  she seemed uneasy when she had to walk directly at us so she  turned reluctantly it seemed into a youth hostel doorway and disappeared .
 She didn't move or look real. She seemed very uncomfortable or maybe intensely shy as though she couldn't wait to get away .Her body language suggested she was in a daze or feeling lost
 Another strange thing was how easy it was to walk up the footpaths  around the coast . I felt almost weightless as though I was being helped . Maybe this has something to do with the layers of quartz that lie in seams in the ground . The rocks around Boscastle and Tintagel are also magnetic . The combination I believe made this event happen or influenced it . Quartz being a crystal of course . 
 I came across a poem on the net by a Boscastle resident about a woman on the path . Maybe she is known to appear to others ?
 On returning home I told a friend and he suggested I read Dion Fortunes The Sea Priestess which blew my mind really . This is not the only strange event to happen and the second one I have on a photograph and it still haunts me now, Last year a lone woman wearing a white shoal and long pink dress is watched me across the other side of the harbour as the sun was setting . She has her arms folded , She is short and quite stout . I didn't notice her on my photo for several months . How I missed this I don't know . How I didn't see her when taking the photo I don't know . She is also focused intently watching me too .
 You know to really capture how this all felt accurately I could spend all day editing and rewriting  to distill the true emotions I felt . These words don't do it justice . This is only one small story . This is a problem when explaining mystical experiences . It just felt this way at the time .....

http://youtu.be/SxweiRNlHbo     Film of the flood !!!

A little lost sometimes / THE ALMIGHTY

http://youtu.be/d5W2PX23xzE     A song that brings back too many memories......

Nails in the coffin ?

Something very odd is happening . Something is at work attacking my connections on fb . Firstly there is the friend i cant get to return my messages . Secondly there is the friend I blocked on the scene again trying to get in touch again  . Thirdly a family member has closed her fb account without warning which will make organising seeing them awkward .
 Ive seen the tide turn both ways in life and this looks a bit bleak . On an up side their are growing friendships online and in the " real world " which is nice . It feels as though someone has it in for me . Ive felt this before . Or maybe its just fate . Strange times and ive a feeling there gonna get stranger ..or maybe its low tide before events turn  .
 

Sunrise Whernside Fell

Black light

Feeling tired tonight after a days shearing sheep . Caught myself putting arsey comments on facebook due to a " daughter of Pan " . Intentionally or not .
 Its a strange night here . Bright and sunny with some cloud cover but the light is like that of a " black light " falling on the dark green ground . The trees are smothered in black as shadows fill their leaves . The sun is getting lower now and the mornings  are cold and the dews heavy . Its a gothic type look to the dale alright tonight and i bet no one else has even noticed......

There's a storm coming......

Whoops Apocolypse ?

Just come off facebook ( do as i say , not as i do ) trying again to contact that friend.  The really annoying thing is that seeing this person face to face is great . But they rarely even read my messages or sometimes they do but don't reply then i  have  fantastic time face to face again .  .
  . I shall be putting some sky or rather cloud photos on here soon . Last time i did this it meant new horizons and mindsets and i think it does again . It means new ideas as the element of air always does . Many things have been dropping , crashing over when im around them and several balloons just randomly exploding recently a social event . Ive seen this pattern before . There are big changes ahead i hope .
 Im seeing a lot of symmetry of events at the moment . Things running parallel to my life . If im right you will know about it . If im wrong , well... no im not wrong . I know a connection when i see one . Risky statement but lets see...... A few days a go i posted on fb i was considering the way of Tao as ive been through hell trying to shape life recentlty ( but got good results up until know )  as i am tired of " trying "   . Just one of many examples i could state to vindicate the above statement . Sounds scary ? Well ive been through this type of thing before and know what im on about . Good things will come ..... Im out on a limb again !!!
 I write so much on here that im scared people will not believe or is easier for people not to believe . I rely on the open minded .

The golden blog: Dont fight it if you dont know what it is ?

The golden blog: Dont fight it if you dont know what it is ?: http://youtu.be/wdJ1waFziC0       The Panics

Re - Orb photograph

I see only at this late hour a comment by a watcher was removed by the blog administrator regarding my orb photograph of all things ? My mind boggles !!!!! Obviously someone was moved somewhat to be a touch overboard ? Im genuinely interested what was said cos i never got to see it ? Funnily enough ive just posted on my other blog about people of faith and aggression a few minutes ago . Purely coincidental . Im getting a lot of coincidences like that at the moment , too many .I seem to be making some kind of perception shortly before things happen or someone else says or writes them . Sometimes its on TV even .  A kind of physcism . Its amazed me several times this week in the blog world . Being a sensitive i suppose this is part of my development . Well i need something at the moment .

Suzie Higgie - 12 Gates To The City

Uneasy

I need something new , i need something big . Nope i need what i still aint got . Shit ! Or is that what ive lost . Easy to confuse the two ....

Throwing in the towel ?

It doesnt take much to please me .As long as i get that fraction of life im OK . Work , my daughter , my house , wife ect are all great but  if I cant find that missing 1% of life I soon get into quite a serious messy mindset . Sometimes I take everything too seriously , even neurotically maybe for a man BUT what you see is what you get , Maybe this is a fault but i am an open book . Im always looking for the 1% people . Ive found a few in these last years . I may have lost one recently  over these last few months due to life ( there again that could change quickly ) so the numbers are in the lower single digits today ! LOL
 If you move me I will go through hell and high water for you recklessly . I have done this for the right person .My friends are all married with children . , hence i hunger for the interactions i used to have back in the day ! My mindset is still the same and maybe not moved on to " familysville"  quite yet . It may never completely so yes in need the 1% , those others ridicule cos they dont fit in any box . Maybe im child like but thats means you get the real me with no pretensions , game playing or innuendo .
 A little humour is always good so my quotes are to be hoped to be amusing and the rest is straight up ! Simples .

PAN ?

I have a friend who reads this blog occasionally  and i can sense he's thinking PAN after reading that last post ! Possibly .....LOL

Back to reality ?

After a long mental struggle comes a new mood . A dull feeling of stodgeyness  . Every new move is an effort because you are not following an old path which predicted your moves for you . A dog that doesnt realise its been let off its chain is a good analogy .
 A crisis swamps your being and puts you in automatic mode . You only have the one thing to think about . Its all that matters . A singular mindset is powerful and can bend lifes events for a while . Call it " positive thinking " but no one can live in this mind  set very long . Nothing is absolute....
 Im no physcologist  but i wonder if we substitute one fear for another . One crises rocks us thus taking our mind off the real one we dare not confront ?


" Nevermind " said Major Nye " we'll soon have you back in Blighty , Jerry . Back to normality . "
" Christ  ! " said Jerry  " thats the LAST thing I need ! "       THE LIFE AND TIMES OF JERRY CORNELIOUS

Drifting sideways: Where have i heard this before ?

Drifting sideways: Where have i heard this before ?: "  We are all offered a selection of traditional roles, " he murmered. " The real problem lies in finding a different play. I...

Simple Simon

" I want to tell Inspector Black my secret new method of disclosing mysteries . It is a new idea . I go to people who happen to know and I ask them !!!  "     The Simon Iff Stories / Aleister Crowley

" Never fear anything , especially yourself...  "

So who reads a blog ?

Who reads a blog ? When I first started blogging I had a particular idea of who I would like to think was reading  it and I felt quite successful when I found out some of my friends and family were watchers or regular readers . What I put on enabled me to let them know what I was thinking or up to . This is still so but as life changes so do your writing motives . I started with Drifting Sideways because thats exactly how my life was going . Mad , mad days . My first elemental experiences blew me away . I watched the moon a lot . I was what Dion Fortune might have called " a suggestible , emotional , lunar type "   In fact I still am but you cant live at that level for ever . Unless youve lived this lifestyle its pointless me trying to explain further . Thats when I started The Golden blog named after the Michael Moorcocks first book The Golden Barge , a book I founded summed up what drove my life and gave me something to rate my struggles against . This blog contains some very rare instances of a person in contact with the elemental water or moon forces and Isis mixed in no doubt . Today that sounds mad but back then it was very real . Something was in touch with me and has been sporadically since . 

  Today im in between elements . Water is no longer all appealing and new moves forward are coming . Im a bit baffled as I was a t the beginning ! Recently my attentions are more on foreign readers having a few new watchers abroad and views in Russia and Europe sometimes . I have recently due to a little interaction realised theses stats are real people. Sounds silly but yeah ! Ive never been abroad even so this is quite exciting . You rarely know what people think of your posts ( mine anyway ) and the thought  of sharing my deepest thoughts with strangers is extremely liberating . The down side is you tend to suddenly think more about what you write when you like your watchers . I hope I dont start sugar coating stuff cos a blog should be raw .

 

P.S    Put a quote on hear earlier by Micheal Moorcocks    Jerry Cornelious storys by mistake . It should have gone on Drifting . It was  a repost of an old quote I found trawling back . I find it very funny . It was a joke in general and not a dig at any blogger . It means a LOT  to me to stress that !!!