The problem is the vaccine. Covid will not be allowed to disappear before the solution.

The end ?

 I actually felt relaxed today. Thats the first time this Christmas. Its been awful, but I think or hope my downward spiral has bottomed out today. Its been very useful posting about this December descent and when viewed as whole my posts show a slow build to a dark influence. My random post of the dam collapse I found on You tube predicted the awful water trouble ive had for instance. Im hoping this full moon brings this horrible circuit of negative energy to a close. 

Mean while on Face Book I came across a meme about how the sun stops still for I think it was the 3 days before Christmas but on Christmas day it starts to move again as it is " reborn " This overlaps with the worst of my luck and moods for December. Ive always felt a marked improvement in my outlook on Boxing Day. 

Moods can be worked on but luck cannot. I dont want to go through this again next year. Now to try and have some fun before this festive season in over !

Everything in my life is becoming unsustainable...

" The world doesnt revolve around you Dad ! "

 I made the mistake of taking a shopping trip into town on Boxing day today. Anything I wanted was out of stock or the store was closed. After a bad week I suddenly realized on the drive home how hard it has become to acquire what was once so easy. I keep being told in stores that they dont sell the items Im wanting much anymore. Time is gradually making me an irrelevance. Goods in general are not being marketed at me. Cars for example are now rapidly heading towards being electric. Im being by past and its going to get worse...

There is a storm blowing outside tonight and it wet and cold.

Merry Christmas, eh ?

 Dec 22nd -  Water bowl for cows stops working. Buy and fit new one

Dec 23rd- Water bowl at other side of building snaps off flooding building and the stop tap breaks at the same time !?

Dec- 24th Another water bowl gets air locked. Wifes newly repaired bumper has scrape on it. I go for a drive and ABS sensor wire wears through on driveshaft. Power steering packs up due to low oil level all of a sudden. Mother reverses into neighbors car. 1000 liter water container falls of tractor in yard.

This is what I have to put with and its quite normal for Christmas. Last night as the wind got up and the early dusk set In I could feel that force that vents its anger here every December. Its an emotion of bitter joy in the air. I can feel the festive vibe but everything thats happening here to me is isolating me from it with a vengeance. Easter is the same funnily. Everything goes haywire then to. It seems to be the religious holidays that are the problem and hence ive grown to hate them, really hate them.

Update Dec- 26th Another bowl has started leaking and a neighbors water pipe has burst. WTF 

Zoom carol service gate crashed !

 Well, well, well..If I didnt see this with my own eyes and have it confirmed by another then I would have not believed it. Somehow amongst the Christmas carol subtitles on a local Zoom service the name CATHERINE randomly appeared. As I live next door to the original site that gave inspiration to Wuthering Heights this is striking in the extreme. It gets better when I look at my Face Book memories though as I made a joke 3 years ago to the day about her character.

What could have caused this ? Lots of local people " gathered " but separate concentrating on a single goal ? Im getting palpations here. Oh, and last but not least a film crew have been scouting the property with the view to making a " Bronte " film. CAN YOU SEE IT YET ?

Live as if...

 " Behave like you already have the new strain of virus " 

Im saying no to that insanity.

Anger is the prelude to ACTION !!!

People have started saying " My days " instead of " My God "