We really need to give ourselves a pat on the back for getting through these past few years. Despite all the madness we are still here and have survived. We have by now been through many tribulations and are still standing with no serious aliments, yet.
I know there is a place where all fades away and nothing matters. Its a black place right in sight, inside of us and I never want to be caught there again. I was aware of it. I remember looking at the hills and feeling a terrible dread like life was a nightmare. I looked in a deep clear river and thought, yes I could understand now people who commit suicide if they felt like this long term.
And now Im somewhere else this year and all because of medication. I always despised the idea of being in that position when I earlier looked at others who had traveled that road. Fuck it. Life has been hard and also life has given me so much.
That picture reminds me of Game of Thrones.
ReplyDeleteI also can relate to the suicide thing when pushed too far, but I've never seriously considered doing that.
That seat is unbreakable.
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