But is this really why ?

 95 % of what i drink now is bottled water. Ive developed a taste for it and the subtle taste now excites me in a satisfying way that the cordial Ribena used to. Why do I drink this anymore ? I ask my self this question, and its only that I remember drinking it while not well recently. I associate it with those dark times and part of me questioned whether it was to blame in my darkest hours. Im scared to start buying it again as I feel like a different person now a days to then. Now im getting tempted just thinking about it, but its high sugar content maybe was a bad thing. I dont know.