The Almighty - Little Lost Sometimes

No explanation needed....

Where have they all gone ?

 Blogger has gone crazy and wont let me copy and paste something I wrote 2 years ago about woke groups never stopping complaining. Certain letters from the group names were missing making  them abbreviations ! Anyway ive given up, but my point is that here in the UK all pressure groups have gone very quiet. I wonder why ?

Ah, here it is !

Now what are the odds of that ?!

 

The Almighty - Over The Edge

 

On a merry go round

 So things havent quite gone to plan health wise for me. On finishing my first prescription of Diazepam last week my head aches and hearing had improved, but not quite back to normal. After 3 days I felt worse again and have acquired a second course. Is my hearing being affected by purely stress then ? It would appear so as the pills improved it somewhat, but Im not totally convinced so have booked a private health inspection at an ear/ nose /throat specialist in a weeks time. These last 2 weeks have been miserable for me. Anxiety waking at night panicking and bad tinitis  through out. I still have low level sinus pain and the medication making me very tired. In only 2 weeks I cant remember what it feels like to feel normal. Tonight I can once again watch tv with the sound on low and once again im jumpy at sudden noises of which there are many in this house. Everyday I wake up to this routine of anxiety and discomfort in my head. Im 2 days into my second week of pills and the doctor thinks by the end of it my hearing will be healed 100%. I find that hard to believe. Every noise jars my ears in this house though the pills seem to ease this a little.

The only truth ive found to be true

Heres the meaning of Life ; IF ITS NOT FUCKED IT SOON WILL BE !!!

1Nicky Sherring

There is no reality any more...

Today ive felt the best ive done for a fortnight. For one thing I woke up without ear problems or a headache, for a while at least. Ive discovered anti- allergy pills kill the sinus pain, but they do dry my passages out so Im only taking a quarter  of a pill at a time to try and reap the benefits without the pit falls.

I had my blood test today and all that only showed up a slight vitamin D shortage. When talking to a nurse I mentioned how no one knew anything anymore about medical aliments , and I was surprised when she agreed with me. Strange days with problems that no one is sure what the cause is, or even if its real thing, or is it all just in the mind ?! From what then nurse said and her reaction I think what ive had is most likely a virus... or maybe an allergy reaction. 

The day got weirder when my cousins daughter who is 12 caught covid and her hands and feet started to turn " green and grey " ( I remember my late cousin liked a band called The Levelers who produced an album called The Land of Green and Grey ) What the fuck is going on here ? Nothing is sane anymore. People know less and less in these modern days. Its all bullshit.

3am shocker !

So I awoke at 3am to this. My last magick candle has burnt out in an accelerated form. Ive seen this happen before. The flame roars and grows to about 8 to 10 inches high which is the result of a super wick effect. The wax is melted by this heat so fast it cannot be burnt quick enough. I think the shape looks like a winged angelic creature. On the right the channels of wax have defied gravity flowing one way and then the next. This is why it is dangerous to leave candles burning all night. They can go crazy.

 

So true

 

Morning Routine | American Psycho

This reminds me of the Canadian president. I could imagine him doing this...lol

Moon / Cow

 I was burning one of my magick candles and next morning a cow had aborted her calf...

 

The Way

Ive always had a fantasy of just leaving everything behind and just suddenly just disappearing...

This song also reminds me of not caring about a certain high risk situation years ago. Of course another bloggers experience of leaving everything behind  did not end so well, so in reality probably it wouldnt be so romantic and mysterious I guess. Still I like this idea. There is something dark it.

Gigi d Agostino star

  

What an album. I love it and always will. If you leave this music playing in the background for days it really comes alive... Oh, and after 10 years am I finally in the position for someone to me what the Japanese writing says on the here ? Or is it just gibberish !

2.43  moves me. Sublime.

 The last two Orwell novels ive read I got ill half way through both....First was covid and now this...

Worst week of my life

 Ive not been well all week. Shaking, anxiety and drinking to sleep, bad headaches and overly sensitive ears. Finally got to see a doctor on Friday after several over the phone consultations offering 2 different antibiotics and a steroid nasal spray all of which did nothing or worse me fell iller. So ive been prescribed Diazapan for my nerves and its suggested that my ear and sinus pain and pressure is physiological after there is nothing to see wrong. If my body shakes due to stress i guess this could be so. Will post when i feel better. Got a sickening headache up one side. Got medication to do with balance to, but only after my request as i used this stuff a as teenager. Pray for me please...

Raise Positive Vibrations, Music to Absorb Positive Energy, Let Go Negat...

Feeling a bit better so I thought I'd post this music I listened to all night when I had covid and now im listening to again after another sinus infection. Luckily I have some different antibiotics to last time as they killed my appetite, and before I ordered my current ones I finished off the remaining 24h I couldnt stomach last time and they had the same effect, again. Maybe it wasnt covid that destroyed my appetite back in Dec ?

   What is the same this time is the panicking feelings im getting and the controllable shaking. Im combating this with wine, a little at night helps me relax. eases my stomach and sooths my head. I never normally drink though. Thats something new for me ! So is listening to this rolling stress relief music in bed after drink. There is something relaxing about this as the looped tune looses your sense of time.

  Now what is strange is that before this started again this music came up on my YouTube, almost like a premonition. A series of events have happened on the farm like clockwork again to. I notice these these patterns.

Ridiculous update  - I got stressed thinking I could have a drink on these new pills. Turns out a little is ok...lol  Its strange the things we find ourselves doing that we would never have dreamed doing of once.

Tour de Force

 Is Putin in his right mind ? Today my Dad made a very good observation when he said Putins face looked very " puffy " and blown up as though he is on steroids for some alignment. In fact ive seen people being treated for cancer look this way. This could explain his devil may care attitude. Is he creating a legacy at all costs ? 

  

Another old card ive found. I remember when this card was so relevant before and during the Iraq war. It was just so spot on. Of course they never did find any weapons of " mass destruction " ! lol