What am I ? What are you ? I once came across a paragraph that summed up and solved the mystery of why and what I am. I was reading a book by Aliester Crowley or was it Dion Fortune ? In this book there was a paragraph that described a type make up of person who has unseen abilities, and the factors that were so essential in so many cases.
What hit me most was an observation about these peoples physiological make up and certain medical conditions that may see a distortion of the balances of essential chemicals in the body which is said to cause them being out of kilter with the majority. They can never be part of the majority whose automatic regulation sets them apart. Its this distortion that triggers it all. The one such disorder matched mine exactly. I was astounded. Upset regulation of the body affects the mind and its the mind that creates the magic.
Another factor which set these people apart or often aided them in magic was the fact they were routinely found living generally isolated lives in the countryside. These people were not interrupted during their long train of thought. Their minds drifted far when thinking of some things. They had space to muse or brood uninterrupted. They spent an un-natural amount of time thinking about single subjects that they deemed important to them ,where as other more focused people may deem them to be whimsical. Unless you can unhinge from the routine your never going to see anything supernatural at all.
So much contained in a single paragraph that matched myself. So Im an oddity and always will be. My make up is not automatic, its jumped the rails. When one puts so much energy into any obsession then events will move. Its a problem as everyday life has to function too.
In the end the its just holding back the dam of life for a while and i'd be lying if I said it was a cure for all ills, but none of that matters when it is what you are. It matters not.
I've accepted by now that I'll always be a hermit of sorts. People like us really are rare. Now that most people are getting jabbed it also gives me more incentive to avoid others because I react to them physically.
ReplyDeletePeople are separating out through this process its true. Its easy to lump all the people who have had the jab together and say they are all the same, and thats because they are ! If nothing these last 2 years are a test of character or an indicator. As soon as I hear of someone who has resisted they get my automatic admiration.
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