Have you ever reached a stage when you feel so utterly saturated by a mood that you start to feel your very soul and body are made up of a single glib emotion that's 100% refelected back at you by every god damn annoying mundane move you make everyday ? Its as if poison has changed my DNA. I feel such a deep anger that its permeated every pore of my body. Outside is a direct connection to this feeling; drizzle, mud, darkness, haze and false Christmas cheer. My mouth is dry, belly too full, eyes tired and forehead sore. I,m trapped in a dark glass, but occasionally my mood lifts briefly , Im free for a moment, then all descends and Im back here again in a prison, kind off. That's a strange idea, why don't I struggle to get out ? Because there is no out side anymore, its all gone. No one fact is to blame either, it just is.
This is seasonal disorder. Thank god it doesn't last too long at this level. I wouldnt last...
I feel exactly the same, but I think it actually is a sickness of the soul for me, a reaction to the disgusting society around me.
ReplyDeleteI think accumulation is to blame for this feeling.
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