Lian Ross, Modern Talking, Boney M, ABBA, C C Catch, Joy, Michael Jackso...

This is playing a lot in our kitchen at the moment....relaxing.

Dont shoot the messenger

Remember when young women looked like this ? They did once.

 What in the name of hell happened ?

Andrew Tate ‘I Don't Believe in Depression’

Yes, I was considering this subject today. Depression must be caused by life conditions, so why am I still in the same position now, because this has been made possible by pills ? I would say ive had more of an anxiety condition really, but yes, my mind has turned against me. I sometimes consider my mind and think " what on earth are you up to now ? " We are not our mind. Its just an organ, and only when you suffer a mental condition do you really see this. Its disturbing to me. This year has been a shock I never saw coming. My nervous system threw in the towel somewhat. Looking back I find that very sad. We should never reach that stage ?

I think once the mental problem causes physical pain, then only pills are the answer to at least find an even keel as quick as possible. Maybe my trouble had a physiological trigger as in an after effects of Covid ? Maybe it was just life after so many years ? 

Tate's last line rings of a Crowley observation that the thoughts of a man of ill health should be questioned even if they are beautiful or entertaining. If I had just experienced the anxiety without the hearing problem then it would have not been so traumatic, but both together was crippling. I guess each case is different and some peoples problems may just be as simple as Tate says, and the victim mindset may be holding someone back. I think thats his biggest beef here really.

How hard can it be ? Its only a cup of tea

 Today I drank a cup of tea in a cafe I use regular work wise. The tea is always too strong, and has been for years. Today I decided to ask for more milk in my brew which I felt a little apprehensive about as everyone else just drinks it as it is.

Of course more milk makes the tea cold so I then asked if I could add some hot water to my mug and explained why. " Well you did ask for more milk " the lady said. I smiled and commented that was the case. She then gave me a look of stone and said " Well you cant have it both ways " in a manner that could not be mistaken for jest. I admit that last line was stolen from Wuthering Heights....lol

Even a cup of tea is no longer simple. People accept the tea, and even if they wanted more milk they would never ask. Its the British way. Smile and never complain or enquire about how you can get a better service. I expect, or seem to get the idea that Americans expect something called " service " and to a much higher degree than the average British person. No wonder they seem demanding when they visit or are portrayed that way.

People can be very polite and give a good service, but rock the boat a little and some seem to drop off a precipice ( wow I spelt that right ) into a stoney cold sulk.

Back to basics ?

 Im really enjoying doing up the bike ive been given for free. Its something to do on dark winter nights in my shed. It really is satisfying. I then find out I'm not the only one in my family working on old stuff that might normally be considered a waste of time.

One cousin has bought a 70's camper van. Its very primitive with no power steering and a carb fed 2 liter engine from the ark I expect. He is enjoying fitting various thing to it and making improvements. His brother has also bought an out of character purchase, an old turbo Audi. Again he has enjoyed tinkering with it after work. He normally buys flash expensive vehicles though. His wife is also acting out of character as she is sanding and painting a second hand table that she bought for £20 as opposed to £800 new as she normally would do. Now that did amuse me. Almost as much as me on a bike did to her !

Its been a terrible year for them as well, and I think its very therapeutic to tinker with something that you normally would have just laughed at once. Getting out of a rut and relieving stress seems to involve these kinds of activity in our family now. Its a common denominator with those of my age. And maybe thats the key, age. A kind of good mid-life crisis ?

Maybe I'm paranoid ?

 Thats 4 parcels that I'm having trouble returning to Amazon. Ive received 4 return scan codes which the post office say there is " something wrong with ". Now 4 printable labels have been emailed, but they wont print off. This has occurred over 2 different accounts. I think they are making it harder to make returns suddenly ? This would tie in with the economic down turn for sure. It was so easy to complete the returns process once. Now its getting beyond worth trying for small items, and that I think is what they are wanting.

This is whats wrong with the UK !

A structural member supporting the cattle grid rails had displaced, causing failure of some rails and instability of the others. It was apparent that the grid was unsafe for vehicles and we had to immediately close the cattle grid. Recognising the disruption that a full road closure would cause to the local community, we have put traffic management in place to divert traffic through the bypass gate adjacent to the grid. We are working on site today to improve the bypass for this traffic and to provide additional signs. Hopefully this will provide a suitable safe alternative to a full road closure, but we will need to monitor the situation and we may have to reappraise if it becomes apparent that traffic cannot safely negotiate the route through the bypass gate.

The nature of the historic proprietary cattle grid, and of the damage to it, mean that a repair solution and timescale is not immediately identifiable. Once the immediate situation has been managed, we will turn our attention to what needs to happen next, and will update you further.

Highways Assets and Strategy | Highways and Transport

Martin Hurley BEng(Hons) CEng MICE

Senior Bridge Engineer

Here is a post from our local community page. How hard can it be to fix a cattle grid ?  A local person could do it in a day. Great Britain indeed...ffs.

Andrew Tate Reacts to Lil Nas X Calling Him Out 😮.

So thats where the erosion comes from....

My mind is glowing...

 Every night I dream, but now the dreams are more subtle, and I cant remember them at all next morning, but occasionally through out the day I experience things that give me little bursts of emotions that those dreams contained. I feel my mind is healing like a subconscious jigsaw puzzle. What ive dreamed at night is obviously linked to my life. Something is going on deep in the mind. I wonder biologically how mental healing occurs ?