A revelation ?

Ive recently started reading Aliester Crowleys short fables called The Golden Twigs . In one story a magician who is famous for manifesting rain for the people passes his secret method on to his apprentice . Its simple . When people approach him asking him to make  rain  and he  sees the signs in nature that rain is near  he agrees to do " magic " that conjours rain . If no rain is coming he throws an artistic wobbly and scares the asker who runs away in awe and fear . So he only performs when he knows he can " deliver " as such .
   Do we pray when we subconsciously know that the events we crave are actually coming anyway . What about positive thinking ? Does this work the same ?  How about " magic " ? Did we know before trying to influence the out come of a situation that we it was always going our way . Do we kid our selves on with a perceived sense of control ?  If we know were getting what we want in the future is this magic in its self  ? Is magic or praying just a sign of magic already manifested and completed ? Is pray an after event , not a event previous . This is a bit like the  Preterism idea  strangely . This thought has just popped in my head now . Its funny how reading anothers ideas can unlock your own mind . I like this . This doesn't happen everyday....

An abomination

Im shattered ,. Ive had a good day but also entirely  unsettling  . Today is saw  a very tall man who had had a sex change  . He  was about 70  . He had un kept hair and a very rugged face  and a horrible look of glee on his / her face that haunts me still tonight . He was an abomination of God and nature , of sexuality and the human condition . He was a fucking monstrosity , an abomination  . He was walking hand in hand with a short bald man !!!!  He looked like a witch , he really did look malevolent . I drove by . Im an adult and he scared me like a child . I didn't know such things walked this earth as that .  Im not a narrow minded person or bigoted but something about him isn't right . The devil even ? Unsettled .
  He represented a blasphemous bastardisation of nature . He looked evil that's whats eating me . I could sense this . Im not happy tonight.... I wasn't going to say this but he made me think of the witch in the film Suspiria  ., very much so . This also alarms me much .
   Why has only just come to me after a bit of sleep . He was an anti- archetype !!! The exact opposite of womanhood . The exact opposite of beauty . The exact opposite of natural . He was a walking rebellion of nature . He was also totally free of all categories or boxes ....

The end result ???

If the result of a magical force produces something organic and real in your sphere could you miss seeing this ? If its a thing of this world it may be taken for granted . I feel the results of magic  ( magic being defined as something that otherwise would not have happened ) are very much of this world for me . My daughters very unlikely conception being just one . A product of Isis if ever there was one. And as for other fringe benefits ...... ?

Synchronicitys / fearful symmetry

Synchronicity are everywhere you just need to tune into them . I guess the ones that matter to you will jump to the fore . I have noticed for a few days one on my TV and now I see  its continuing to its conclusion  in online news sources  as well .
  Ive seen a lot of this sort of thing . The stories I could tell but I can give no reason why they occur other than the finder needs to address the issue raised . If you are lucky enough to know what the issue is clearly then you are blessed

One must first carefully consider all the implications of an action.... Jerry Cornelious

I almost  forgot this rather amusing incident that occured on my holiday . On stumbling upon a well blessed by  St Columba I decided to touch a little water on a slight skin condition I have had a long while . Well if the water was blessed what is the harm in doing that ? Afterwards I started to read the plaque of information alongside . I got quite a shock when it began by saying  " This water once had a reputation for causing ulcers and blisters when touched ! "  For a moment my heart really sank until I read on " but after being  blessed by St Columba now is rumoured to have curious medicinal powers .... "   Phew !   You can imagine my relief.....

Peace

One day when I reach a higher level of consciousness , when I discover what I find hard to believe , maybe I will be able to resist the weak option of mentally tearing  to pieces that which seems out of this human world .   Tonight I feel a great peace after a turbulent day .

Damned statistics

Now here is a lesson ive learnt today . There are lies , damned lies and statistics . Never have I had a better example of this than today  . My blog Drifting Sideways is showing all page views as from the UK  on the world map . In other words its showing all views as  if they are coming from the UK  .Well that gave me a surprise this morning !!! LOL    Never trust technology.....
    A year ago my Golden blog would not show UK page views  .  Not too happy with blogger .com at the moment .....
  On a brighter note ive finally got back to reading a book again ; The Simon Iff Stories  . And im enjoying this immensely again .

Me thinks its time for bed.....

Why am I so uneasy tonight ? Every now and again I cant hold on to any feeling . A woman with wisdom beyond her years once told me in response to that statement that " You cant cross the same river twice " , Basically things never stand still as water flows so do events . I feel evaluating  my emotions is  like trying to hold water in a sieve .
 The very act of one day following another is an unnatural concept .

Everybodys missing what they are missing........