So I went to a hearing specialist today who did an extensive test and concluded I had an intolerance to low frequency and seem confident something could be done about it. I was nearly in tears when I arrived as I had stopped for petrol in town and the noise from traffic in the rain was overwhelming. Its just so frightening in a dream like way. Ive really been hit hard with a month of everything being jarring and im mentally burnt out not having any time comfortable unless im asleep. The specialist removed some wax and hair from a hair cut that had got stuck in my ear and that has helped a little and Im hoping that is the source of my waking in a panic of a fizzing head. Its strange how that happens the first time I go to sleep at night or if I sleep in the day. At night I can recover by just rolling over, but my head takes a few hours to recover so I just dont sleep in the day anymore.
It could be stress related though as I have odd minutes when sound is ok. Strange. Im beyond stressed now. I cant visit anyone or them visit me as a conversation sets me in anxiety mode and then my ears start to jar. There is light at the end of the tunnel though with the diagnosed frequency problem. My doctor thinks it is all stress related. Its a chicken or the egg argument I guess. Ive never felt so scared or isolated as now in my life. This is a whole new level. My Citalopram pills have been increased to 20mg and its helping me more now. I dont know how ive lost so much in 4 weeks or why. I would rather be death than how I am now if this is long term.
It doesnt help that my mother has covid and my dad is starting to and im afraid wont be able to do all the work on the farm if he cant work for a short while. This covid is just a nasty bug now. Its just bad timing. Spring is in the air but ive never felt so out of sorts.
Oh, and the family my wife caught covid from has a daughter who is friends with my daughter ,who was on her way over for a sleep over when her mother announced the girl had just tested positive. Luckily it was on called off before my daughter arrived. My instincts were right again, but I though this time what harm can it do now ? It just goes to show. Trust your gut.
I have a fear of time. The evenings seem so long when you are constantly uncomfortable because of sound of lack of. At least im not bed ridden, but this has all knocked me for six. I would take the covid I had at Christmas over this any day. I almost find myself thinking if the vax could have avoided this then...but my sister suffered 6 months of vertigo after that, so... My hope is that one day this will just disappear. I now pray nightly for it. Thank goodness ive access to private health. Money talks and something happens.
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ReplyDeleteIf you have the vaxx after having the virus, it could get really, really bad. I am sorry for your experience. If it helps make you feel better, I suffered for three months and thought I was surely dying every single day. It will go away eventually. I would also avoid the vaxx btw because there are peer-review studies where they are finding that there is something in common with the virus and possibly the spike protein that is akin to the venom of snakes. Nope, that isn't a joke. I listened to a doctor speak about this yesterday, which convinces me that the whole debacle and plandemic is one big evil satanic thing. I will pray for you.
ReplyDeleteThanks. I must admit the two times ive traveled to a health center ive been worse the next day. Im practically in " lockdown ". Oh, the irony...lol
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