I have in general made a small improvement in my health. My bad headaches have really become sinus pain now. These pains are focused now on my passages. My ears can bare a certain level of sound also, but the noises which jar do vary day to day. I decided to take a trip into town and do a bit of shopping. It was nice to just walk in the sun and sit by the river just taking in the fact it is spring.
My cousin visited last night and I actually talked to him for about an hour without any problems, but today I feel worse with pressure in my passages and more sound jarring. Im disappointed about that, and really are considering that its a spin off from him visiting, or maybe im just a little more stressed after seeing him ? Its the easier option to think here. He said my aura has improved. That has to be a good thing.
The lambing buildings are now virtually empty with only a handful of sheep left to lamb. Time seems to have flown this spring. I think being ill and the constant work has left me little time to even think of the season. It will soon be May and a few leaves are coming out. I havent seen a swallow recently but they are somewhere abouts. Dry, cool and cloudy is the weather with a high pollen count i'd say. Again awful weather for sinuses as it has been all spring.
Very little mysterious has happened since I got ill, but yesterday was different. I blew a candle out after I woke up and it takes some time for the smoke to dissipate, but after I turned by back for a second the smoke was suddenly gone. While in the bath later that day deep in though I heard a strange noise that sounded like a slack guitar string being twanged. It wasnt a bathroom noise at all. Then after eating my breakfast this morning I turned my back on the table and heard my knife or fork rattle on my plate by itself. The same thing happened during the night with a cup on my bedside table. Well it means something and if it means change then thats fine by me after these last two months. Maybe its connected to my aura returning ? The items that move are things ive recently handled. Ive noticed that much.
Ive waited a couple of days before posting this as I couldnt quite believe it happened, but something disturbing has happened. For months ive slept facing with my head at the opposite end of the bed to my wife (well at least were not in separate rooms or beds lol ) Anyway a few days ago I started to feel a bit better and decided to sleep facing her for a change, for the next two nights. For those two mornings I woke to awful headaches worse than what ive previously had. They had a feeling of pressure and broken glass.
Thinking this must be coincidence I swapped end again back to how I originally sleep, and hey presto im back to how I was feeling before those two nights. This is an uncomfortable fact. Thankfully she is not having any more shots if they are offered to her.
I hate to admit it but I might have " long covid " or something thats a " thing " Tonight my wifes friend came home from work early as she " couldnt stand the noise " She has sinus pain and is forgetful. As for me I'm a little better and my ears can stand the tv noise now for a while at least. Which sounds jar me vary from day to day though and seem I seem to be my best about 9pm oddly. The pain is more focused on my sinuses now rather than a general headache. Im trying to get in touch with the specialist for some pain killers that dont have antihistamine ( wow I spelt that right ) Im also waiting for the hearing solutions to my problem that are supposed to help. Due to Easter an extra 2 days have been lost annoyingly in this process. A high pollen count isnt helping. Well its tree pollen and thats what really gives me a headache. I feel as though its irritating deep into my passages. My mood is much better now and feel much more myself to. Now my sister has laryngitis and mouth ulcers. So much illness...
So I went to a hearing specialist today who did an extensive test and concluded I had an intolerance to low frequency and seem confident something could be done about it. I was nearly in tears when I arrived as I had stopped for petrol in town and the noise from traffic in the rain was overwhelming. Its just so frightening in a dream like way. Ive really been hit hard with a month of everything being jarring and im mentally burnt out not having any time comfortable unless im asleep. The specialist removed some wax and hair from a hair cut that had got stuck in my ear and that has helped a little and Im hoping that is the source of my waking in a panic of a fizzing head. Its strange how that happens the first time I go to sleep at night or if I sleep in the day. At night I can recover by just rolling over, but my head takes a few hours to recover so I just dont sleep in the day anymore.
It could be stress related though as I have odd minutes when sound is ok. Strange. Im beyond stressed now. I cant visit anyone or them visit me as a conversation sets me in anxiety mode and then my ears start to jar. There is light at the end of the tunnel though with the diagnosed frequency problem. My doctor thinks it is all stress related. Its a chicken or the egg argument I guess. Ive never felt so scared or isolated as now in my life. This is a whole new level. My Citalopram pills have been increased to 20mg and its helping me more now. I dont know how ive lost so much in 4 weeks or why. I would rather be death than how I am now if this is long term.
It doesnt help that my mother has covid and my dad is starting to and im afraid wont be able to do all the work on the farm if he cant work for a short while. This covid is just a nasty bug now. Its just bad timing. Spring is in the air but ive never felt so out of sorts.
Oh, and the family my wife caught covid from has a daughter who is friends with my daughter ,who was on her way over for a sleep over when her mother announced the girl had just tested positive. Luckily it was on called off before my daughter arrived. My instincts were right again, but I though this time what harm can it do now ? It just goes to show. Trust your gut.
I have a fear of time. The evenings seem so long when you are constantly uncomfortable because of sound of lack of. At least im not bed ridden, but this has all knocked me for six. I would take the covid I had at Christmas over this any day. I almost find myself thinking if the vax could have avoided this then...but my sister suffered 6 months of vertigo after that, so... My hope is that one day this will just disappear. I now pray nightly for it. Thank goodness ive access to private health. Money talks and something happens.
On taking my migrane pill i woke up with a dried out head and felt even worse. I discovered they were antihistamine which disgree with me. So thats that. I can contain the headaches with ordinary pain killers now. Its sunday afternoon and im scared to sleep as i will wake up with a panic attack and my ears will be even worse. I cant stand much sound yet and the new antidepressants stronger dose has yet to kick in. If im in silence then my tinitus is screaching. I feel like im in hell and i cant take this routine much longer. If i take Deszepam again i will just be going around in a circle again. i have an appointment on thursday with an ear specialist so i hope some headway is made cos im about beat.
Im still not well. After visiting a private health clinic it was suggested my sinus pains were in fact a migraine. I have some medication arriving tomorrow and it should cure my over sensitive hearing which has driven me to anti-depressants for now anyway. I also have a hearing test and a cat scan for my head to look at my sinuses ect. All this has happened within a fortnight of making a phone call. Its all really fast and efficient when your paying, and boy do they charge ! But who cares when you really need it ? I am also receiving some magnesium vitamin b powder which I presume is a drink that helps with tinitus. Of course this is all in the middle of lambing time, but my daughter is helping as she is on holidays thank goodness. Ive been scared recently by all of this and sometimes even cant keep track of my improvements of which there have been some.
