The new decade is about to turn. The last time this happened i was totally torn apart and what emerged was this blog and its world. Tonight i feel just as i did ten years ago... the sky is grey and a wind of energy is blowing in the tree tops.  I feel empty of all my past experiences and feel i am back at the start again, annihilated. Whats coming ?

BBC North West's news reader Annabel Tiffin ?

An uncanny resemblance ?   A more obscure item for sale on Face Book Market place...lol

A sad post unfortunately

Anyone who has followed this blog will know that this tree used to be outside my old house in the village. Well this week i learned it had been felled !  As you can see at a certain point in Spring the sun would  set in the V of the trunk ...and that always aligned with my narrow band of time available for a holiday. All that remains now is a bleak stump.

 I heard today that legal proceedings have ensued here, and someone is going to pay, despite sycamore trees being officially classed as a " weed " and therefore deemed as disposable. Nothing lasts forever. As i get older more and more things i thought were future proof and a certainty have vanished.

Actually many things from that period of my life have changed hands. Houses have been vacated by family, business's i visited over that time have closed for example. Many of the places i associate with those 5 years are no more. An erasing action seems to be wiping out all sorts of places i used to visit back then. Im finding this quite strange. A sort of tying up of loose ends ?

December

My shadow has recently changed. It was quite alarming at first to see this " apparition " of myself following me so doggedly around this house. My shoulders have rounded, my posture has leaned forward, and my hands hang more ape like. Yep, im really selling myself here... The above photo was taken of me last Bonfire Night a year ago, and it shows this new silhouette even here. My own Father even commented the other day that he cannot recognise me at a distance anymore, such is the degree of the change in my outline. Maybe losing a stone and a half has played a part, in little anyway i presume, but the change is far bigger than just that. I would like to take a photo of my shadow to illustrate the point further, but how could i do that ???

It disturbs me more than it should...

Ive found the idea of a fine woman corrupted by love turns my stomach and disturbs me profoundly to the core. why is this so ? The big question im asking myself tonight ! It has been this way in the background of my mind for some time. the shortening days have magnified this outlook. Capitol letters missing here. I remember when the passion for what i posted made correct punctuation seem pointless. Welcome home again...

Todays observation !!!

I feel we are living in an new age. The light has changed. Something odd is happening to me also, nights of strange dreams that feel like building blocks. Maybe this is the final stretch of life or the second half ? Second half, yes, thats a better sounding explanation ! Final...hell thats a thought .Good night.

One for the animal obsessed / dog obsessed society weve become...oh, and the vegans ect !   lol  Its true that the arrogance of modern society deems all nature to be cuddly and in need of help. In reality you are at its cold mercy.

The Fun House

My daughter now sleeps in the same bedroom as i used to. At her age i was being lied to by my parents about the place i live in. Weird thing was that this place is a smorgasbord of " haunting happening " and is locally well known for being so...lol. Of course as children we over heard the rumours...