Morning Routine | American Psycho

This reminds me of the Canadian president. I could imagine him doing this...lol

Moon / Cow

 I was burning one of my magick candles and next morning a cow had aborted her calf...

 

The Way

Ive always had a fantasy of just leaving everything behind and just suddenly just disappearing...

This song also reminds me of not caring about a certain high risk situation years ago. Of course another bloggers experience of leaving everything behind  did not end so well, so in reality probably it wouldnt be so romantic and mysterious I guess. Still I like this idea. There is something dark it.

Gigi d Agostino star

  

What an album. I love it and always will. If you leave this music playing in the background for days it really comes alive... Oh, and after 10 years am I finally in the position for someone to me what the Japanese writing says on the here ? Or is it just gibberish !

2.43  moves me. Sublime.

 The last two Orwell novels ive read I got ill half way through both....First was covid and now this...

Worst week of my life

 Ive not been well all week. Shaking, anxiety and drinking to sleep, bad headaches and overly sensitive ears. Finally got to see a doctor on Friday after several over the phone consultations offering 2 different antibiotics and a steroid nasal spray all of which did nothing or worse me fell iller. So ive been prescribed Diazapan for my nerves and its suggested that my ear and sinus pain and pressure is physiological after there is nothing to see wrong. If my body shakes due to stress i guess this could be so. Will post when i feel better. Got a sickening headache up one side. Got medication to do with balance to, but only after my request as i used this stuff a as teenager. Pray for me please...

Raise Positive Vibrations, Music to Absorb Positive Energy, Let Go Negat...

Feeling a bit better so I thought I'd post this music I listened to all night when I had covid and now im listening to again after another sinus infection. Luckily I have some different antibiotics to last time as they killed my appetite, and before I ordered my current ones I finished off the remaining 24h I couldnt stomach last time and they had the same effect, again. Maybe it wasnt covid that destroyed my appetite back in Dec ?

   What is the same this time is the panicking feelings im getting and the controllable shaking. Im combating this with wine, a little at night helps me relax. eases my stomach and sooths my head. I never normally drink though. Thats something new for me ! So is listening to this rolling stress relief music in bed after drink. There is something relaxing about this as the looped tune looses your sense of time.

  Now what is strange is that before this started again this music came up on my YouTube, almost like a premonition. A series of events have happened on the farm like clockwork again to. I notice these these patterns.

Ridiculous update  - I got stressed thinking I could have a drink on these new pills. Turns out a little is ok...lol  Its strange the things we find ourselves doing that we would never have dreamed doing of once.

Tour de Force

 Is Putin in his right mind ? Today my Dad made a very good observation when he said Putins face looked very " puffy " and blown up as though he is on steroids for some alignment. In fact ive seen people being treated for cancer look this way. This could explain his devil may care attitude. Is he creating a legacy at all costs ? 

  

Another old card ive found. I remember when this card was so relevant before and during the Iraq war. It was just so spot on. Of course they never did find any weapons of " mass destruction " ! lol