Head Over Heels - Donnie Darko Scene

Nothing escapes the camera....

Iron Maiden - Afraid to Shoot Strangers (HD)

Have you got what it will take ?  Have I got what its going to take  ? !

Precautions are nothing more than a vain attempt to divert or delay the inevitable...

Something odd

Something very odd happened yesterday morning. In fact it was so odd that I don't know if it reduces my creditability if I write down what happened, even on this blog. All I can say is that things happened the way im about to write them. Am I going mad ? Maybe...
   Living locally to me is a woman in her 40's. She walks her Labrador regularly up our single lane road. From behind she looks younger, from the front much older. I don't know why I mention this but it seems important. She walks her dog with the air of a small girl who is carrying out an errand for her parents. All life seems to have washed out of her essence and aura, but still there is the hint of a younger woman in her as she trudges along. She has no partner or children either. I don't know if this fact is important when looking at what happened next.
  I have never known her make eye contact with me as I drive past. She always looks down. In fact I find her quite un-nerving. I feel my instincts are warning me that she is not what she seems. I pondered just why I found her so unsettling. Eventually it came to me. The way she walked reminded me of a woman who followed me along a cliff path at Boscastle, the one who seemed to float as she walked and hung her hair down " Grudge " style over her face. Yes, this local woman has that same otherworldly look about her. Her height and build are similar to, and her body language.
   Well yesterday as I drove past she looked up and to one side and gave me a cunning smile. What was worse, and I know this sounds mad, but her face had the exact dimensions and expression of a archetypal witch. Her chin, her cheek bones and her broad smile were all those of a witch. I don't know how else to say this. I have always sensed something odd about her.
  Now this happened on a short stretch of road where I wrote a few months ago that my parents had seen a neighbour oddly dressed in pink suddenly vanish into thin air. Also on this piece of road I saw a woman driving my now deceased neighbours car. He had no explanation for it. Of course the road runs past the haunted manor house . I believe that this is pivotal in what is going on here. Im sure somehow that alternative realities are seeping through here. Maybe I just saw this womans true essence ? Maybe im mad ? But I know what I saw. I have another story to tell that tests my reputation as well about a local man whom I was told some odd details about...

Donnie Darko Easter

 

 

Ive found that life is quite like this films promotional image. Many people all make up one big picture...

Tom Jones - Delilah (video)

I have a secret fantasy. In another life I would love to be a cabaret type singer like Tom Jones or Frank Sinatra. Seriously. To stand on stage delivering a powerful performance of solid old style songs, and to have the feeling of being someone substantial, and famous quite seduces me. So somewhere inside of me hides this alter ego... The thought of sauntering across a stage appeals to me. I guess the easy style of these songs feeds the desire in me to be more at ease with myself and others. Of course  these types of singer give the appearance of being a tad too laid back, and I think that also appeals to me as I am certainly not that way in real life. I don't know why ive posted this. It is a silly idea, but I still like it. Who knows in another life...

Marc Almond & Gene Pitney - Something`s Gotten Hold Of My Heart

This song has always entranced me. It is me. It is this blog.

Did somebody call an expert ?

Experts. Are they really all they are cracked up to be ? Last night I was watching a well known T.V presenter swimming in the U.K sea with sharks.  It all looked a bit nerve wrecking and the sound track of the TV program played up to this... but the fact that these sharks were feeding on a dead whale set my alarm bells ringing. The presenter assured us that the whale was a lot tastier than a rubbery suited diver, so all would be well. Well rather them than me I thought.
   Well what could possibly go wrong next ? Any guesses ? The resident shark expert was quite happy to allow the diving to continue. Of course it wasn't long before the sharks were bumping into the divers to see what whether they were suitable food. All of a sudden the mood changed and one diver was slightly bitten and the panic set in. Well. well, I didn't see that coming....
  Now im no shark expert of course, but if I could predict this event was heading south then why didn't the expert see this ? I am starting to develop a lack of faith in anyone proclaiming to be an expert in any field. I think its important to eye up and make a final decision ourselves in any situation. Trust only you.
 I have come across various other anecdotes about experts who have failed in their particular field especially when their skills are called upon in their personal lives.
   I know of a builder who built a garage wall for himself that fell down next day, a swimmer who swam for our county who hardly dare swim across a small strip of water to an island. She froze for ages as everyone else ( family ) just swam across casually. I watched on from the lake shore totally baffled and wondering whether said girl could even swim ! Doesn't add up at all does it ?
   A particularly interesting story occurred locally to me. The TV survival expert Bear Griff  went down a cave that is well known for flooding. On the day of filming the rain was torrential. What could possibly go wrong ? The cave rescue people had to come out to save him as " water levels suddenly caused concern " Unbelievably no one not even Griff was wearing any helmets ! Where was the expert attitude ? We all have off days but some of the above examples show a very worrying lack of basic common sense. And here lies the problem.

Best of both worlds ?

Im beginning to believe that at rare times sleep takes us to places that threaten our return to awaking...  Vivid " dreams " of pitch battles against unseen things feel all too real. I win only by the skin of my teeth in these dreams. Maybe one day I wont make it back. I strongly feel this.

Seduction

 

 

This Summer I am planning to return to a mystical area in Cornwall. Tintagel is a strange little rather tacky town by the sea, made famous by its close location to the supposed sight of King Arthurs castle. A short walk away from the castle ruins is a huge drop into the sea. From a distance it is clear that this cliff is huge, so when I decided to go to the edge to look down into the sea below I was more than a little nervous. I fear heights and deep water. What I found when I looked over the edge shocked me. Firstly the distance down to the sea only looked about a 1/5 th of the height it actually was. This was dangerously deceptive in a way that I couldn't fathom. I spent some time looking down just to check I wasn't imagining this. Next came the most shocking part that really rattled me. I got the over whelming feeling of euphoria and the desire to jump into the dark water below. It was a giddy sensation that suggested I would somehow be rewarded if I jumped. It was illogical as I am scared of heights and water. It almost felt as though I was being seduced. I can still see that dark shimmering water in my minds eye now. A friend told me that there are areas like this that seduce people to jump. Maybe some " suicides " are due to this. There are entities near water and ive felt and photographed them. You cannot see them, but they are nearby.

Simplistic Bullshit

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No man judges better than himself.  How can you tell a man his views are not true or well founded. People base hate on their experience. If your scared of hate then I guess you post this kind of simplistic B.S  This is fb at it most moralizing and unthinking. I would re-label this diagram as below...


EXPERIENCE ----------------------- JUDGEMENT

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LIFE

Seasonal Alignmnent

Last year at my previous house in the village I always enjoyed watching the sun set having a clear view West. I soon noticed that the sun would set exactly in the V of a tree each evening during the first week of June. This always amused me as I took it as a sign that my holiday was due as this week has always been my time to get away. You could call this a kind of cosmic clock and it never ceased to make me quite giddy watching this surreal alignment.
  Last year was the same, but when I came home a week later on the 7th the sun continued to set in the V for the whole of June. As Ive said earlier this normally only happened for a week. It felt as though time had stopped and as the sun just set in that same place until July started. Could time be being manipulated ? Or was this just a regular anomaly that occurs every few years. I would love to know.
  What is interesting is that the earth sits 23 degrees on a slope on its axis ( what else eh ? ) I also know that there is a variation of several degrees on its rotation that acts as a wobble effect. Was this responsible for the sun hanging around longer in it setting position that normal last year ? Unfortunately I don't live there anymore so I cant check this out this year, well not unless I walk up the back path and the last time I did that after moving I burst into tears driving home. Too many memories there of esoteric rebirth, love , madness and death to be honest, on and magick. Anyway im straying from the point and my eyes are filling up so lets move on....

 

Above is the photograph I took as a reminder of how the view looked for one week each year, apart from last year when time appeared to " stop " !  Ive noticed that this photograph was taken on the 7 th of June and already you can see the suns setting position has moved slightly off centre of the V in the trunk. Why did it then stick there until July ?

The Birds and Bees can keep it !

I have recently had a quite expensive repair to my car. It cost me nothing as it was under warranty. All good then ? No it is not all good as it came back with new problems. Now ive decided to forsake the offer of another free repair and pay for it myself to be done by someone I know and TRUST !

How often in this world do people clamour for anything that's FREE ?

If the outcome is useless or even disastrous then why would I want more of it ?

Because its free ?   REALLY ??? 

FREE has a cost. Avoid it.

The Definitive Moment

The interesting thing about flooring a true performance car is that during the manic acceleration the human mind can only concentrate on one thing for that moment - SURVIVAL ! Every other thought is blocked out, if only for a few seconds. I like this. Ive missed this. Is this not the very definition of satisfaction ? And danger ?

Judas is mentioned  23 times in the Bible

Fold - Gary Numan

Seriously enjoying this album. So fresh and from 06

Stand aside

One of the most disturbing things that ive come to realise is that there are specific times when a well organised force can descend upon a person or area and begin to slowly dissolve it. No action can stop it. No logic is of any use, or even reason. It is just something trying to END. Some say these forces have a name. I care not as I see their work all around me everyday. Most are too asleep to see them or to run down to acknowledge them. This doesn't matter though as the outcomes will still be the same - IMPROVEMENT , even though it will hurt.

The sap is rising again

 

 

Some kind of energy is slowly rising through me as does sap in a tree at this time of year. The weather is grey and cold and a North wind is gusting. The land looks dead and brown but im returning to me. The change over between the Winter and Summer me has once again begun. I have felt like shit since Christmas. Ive been itchy, head aches and stomach troubles have plagued me. A tiredness that made me think of death has smothered me. It is now easing and a brightness is returning to my mind. This is a seasonal thing thank god.

Beware the ides of March !!!

All figurines available separately....

Thinking outside the box

 We as humans are taught to act logically, and think logically. Well that's all very well and good if we could guarantee the outcome of each situation based on an action, but we cant. Logical actions are nothing more than an act of blind faith. Act logically and all will be well. Well events don't just fall into place like many preach. I suggest we hold fire on any logical actions we have planned, especially if we have a lot riding on the outcome. Things rarely go to plan, so what good is logic if it cant deliver 100% of the time ? It is a complete let down and even dangerously delusional. Yes we need to slow down and not make so many snap decisions based on logic. We need to think about the variables, the things that others dismiss as being the very things we are trying to avoid and the things that an action will logically solve. Too often these miracle logical acts do not deliver a cure all to our problems. The world does not present solutions to problems mechanically and logically. Often an imperfection can lead to  spin off and a new realisation of something we would never have learnt of. Mistakes reveal paths we would never have found and solutions we would never have ever considered. They are the new pathfinders. The days of blind faith are over for me.
  

Tales of the unexpected theme

I am currently enjoying watching the 70's British chiller series Tales of the Unexpected. The theme music still haunts me as it reminds me of my childhood which was very much overshadowed by living next door to a haunted manor house and living on a haunted farm. I am now once again living there as time has brought me back to roost again. This melody really captures how those dark childhood days felt.

  Anyway today one of the spin offs of watching this series is seeing how the episodes  were often filmed in winter and on very grey still afternoons. I take a very strange pleasure in watching the capturing of that days weather on film so long ago. A day that has long gone, but even its capture on film makes me feel melancholy. I felt that way in childhood about the weather and I get that feeling again now when watching this program. Its hard to explain.

  The opening title sequence was a series of various images that included tarot cards. For some very strange reason and totally by chance this clip just repeats the cards and nothing else. I don't know why. The cards are very relevant to me at this time and ive noticed them for a while as part of the titles. I know little of the cards meanings and ive never had them dealt but I do know the meanings of these cards as they came up in an online search to do with the number 23. Basically I see the end of a part of my life, the need to slow down and take stock and the search for a substantial person of organization to guide me or mould me. So that's a change of direction then. This is the only way forward as where I was at was killing me. Magick can give you help in the direction you want to attain, but whats the point if it damages you ? To grow to handle a situation must surely be done FIRST ? Well guess what ? Im now getting closer to that stage.

The past 7 years of my life have consisted of throwing rocks into a mental quagmire. Eventually these " rocks " begin to form some kind of  hard base which rises up out of the mess. I can now even feel this small island when im going through lifes situations which once would have devoured me. My passions once took control of me, but today I have some resistance and im much more measured. Just because some of the past " rocks " are no longer on view doesn't mean they are redundant. They are below the surface enabling the firmer ground of now to exist.

The Number 23 Trailer [ JIM CARREY ] HQ

Please stop me if I go this far..lol

Today I saw 2 car number plates     CON 23   and  GLT 23 

Rob Zombie - Ride (Lyrics)

Projection /  Retraction.....

Tonight I feel nothing. A void. A total void. This means something is ahead...

I have no idea what this means, but it sounds fascinating

I believe that the state of the bed you sleep in is an accurate reflection of your current mental health.

WATER -   Stronger than one, stronger than ten, stronger than a HUNDRED men !