If you have read my other blog you will know that last week I had a close shave with death when a large Oak branch fell from a tree, narrowly missing me. Well, Im still here for now... This week has been no less strange as I came across two sheep who had both perished due to branches. One had got stuck under a branch, and a little away was another sheep, also dead that had got stuck on top of a branch. Mmm, see the pattern here. ?Im worried that these three events are connected. At the very least its a bit odd. Tonight I came across this musing by Aleister Crowley regarding FAITH and DOUBT....

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                                                            Chinese   Music

"  Explain this happening ! "
" It must have a natural cause  "
" It must have a supernatural cause "
Let these two asses be set to grind corn
May, might, must, should, probably, may be, we may safely assume, ought, it is hardly questionable, almost certainly poor hacks ! let them be turned out to grass.
Proof is only possible in mathematics, and mathematics are only a matter or arbitrary conventions.
And yet doubt is a good servant but a bad master; a perfect mistress, but a nagging wife....

The more necessary anything appears to my mind, the more certain it is that I assert a limitation.
I slept with Faith, and found a corpse in my arms on awakening. I drank and danced all night with doubt, and found her a virgin in the morning. 


" DOUBT INHIBITS ACTION, AS MUCH AS FAITH BINDS IT  !




Its funny how differently we treat Faith and Doubt. Many take faith to extremes. They live and die by it. But often the out come leads nowhere and the results never come, though the mental leaps that occur while on this path are VERY REAL . I guess the paradox here is that something " Unreal " can be useful to us. But a balance is needed, or is it ? I personally aren't too hung up on that point. I guess this brings us to DOUBT...
   Ive spent long periods of my life doubting and worrying, and this hasn't led to anything either. Fears were just concoctions in my head. Our fears are more often than not the causes of our unhappiness and doubt. A lot of time is wasted doubting instead of just moving forward. Again this seems like another pointless state of mind. Let the two loose on each other and " grind the corn ? "
I guess its a pull / push situation. Let one have a say over the other and something dramatic will move. But just where do we want to end up ?!?


Finally here is another view of faith as a poem I wrote a while ago. Again this was bizarrely about misfortunate sheep !

                                                     A LEAP OF FAITH  ?

It starts, a sheep grazing by a ledge, slips, falls in to the void, and is gone.
Another turns to bolt there after, not wishing to miss out on greener fields.
Another jumps as two have gone and cant be wrong.
Next some jump through an involuntary reflex
Others follow out of pure fear.
The penultimate jumpers demand to confirm the apparent gain.
The final sheep leap for fear of being left alone, not knowing that the first have perished.

David Haygarth 2015



Sheep have been known to follow one another over a cliff or precipice. This idea is used here to demonstrate how confusion can arise once any idea or perception of importance arises, also examined is the chain reaction of meandering thoughts that arise in those in close proximity  to such a happening. Of course the original happening that starts this chain reaction is often a mistake or mis-understanding, hence I mention No.14  Well that was fun, Ive really  enjoyed writing this...