NOOOOOOOO !!!!!!

MY GOAL IS TO SAY THE WORD NO TOOO MORE PEOPLE !!!! AN UNDERUSED WORD . A WORD WERE ALL SCARED TO USE , A TABOO EVEN....

Only at this late hour

Welcome to my blog . A very rare chance to follow a mans asoteric awaking . Feel free to trawl back . OK its all very abstract but its reflection of the esoteric . Yep you are lucky ... if you give a sh1t !!!! Life is raw and real . Lets see where it goes , i have with spades and its been a rough ride but i would do it all again.

Uuuuurgh....

Well the baby is screaming . Ive had a long noisy day with a bad headache at the auction mart . The half moon is somewhere . The stars are out . Listening to music at 2 am . Tired and remembering this time last year ....

WHY ????

Isis is manifesting in women . By water . Now . Full moon approaches , should be interesting....

Oh yes !

Christians dont grow old and die they just become very good , reluctant or maybe even unaware occultists ha ha ha !!!!! Same methods ... same out comes ...or even the same tools ... peace of mind achieved or percieved... OOOeeerrr !!!

Methodist Ministers.....

Heres a change of flavour for Golden.... Today my parents were helping furnish " The Sedbergh Manse for a new Methodist Minister moving in . I asked if the congregations had finally made the often long drawn out decision of choosing a new Minister from usually several applicants . Imagine my suprise when they told me they were struggling to find a single person to fill the role but had found a man willing to do one year only !!! When i asked why they said no one wanted to move North to the post and Ministers wives wanted to know about local job opportunities , local services and schools and how far apart the parish chappels were . In other words the new breed today are career religious Ministers . No passion and full of earthly stipulations . Fat , lazy , greedy , selfish and no spiritual guidance only worldly out looks . Wasnt like this 20 years ago . No wonder Churches are in so much trouble today if this is the attitude of the Ministers . What a disgrace , but not entirely a suprise.... And no wonder some join the Church , but where is the humility?????

Life in a nutshell

Those who talk dont know . Those who know dont talk.....

Total honesty

Ha fucking ha ! All explodes in a green , dirty low key grainy do able , livable grown up stupid powerful ,casual haze AND I LOVE IT !!!!!!!!! I really do . I feel all Pan like and free ..... Waheeey !!!!

All this thinking could turn ugly !!!

Some one once said if you understand a situation it is as it is . If you dont understand a situation its still as it is !!! So understanding why something is doesnt change the fact it still is . Thats ok as long as you can decide how something is or sits with you . Now thats the hard part !!!

Bye , bye facebook !!!

Facebook was killing me slowly . How could this be ? I miss the idealistic idea of it and how it was when i needed it . Those early heady days of fun and closeness and itimacy were mind blowing and filled a purpose but know we have all moved on ....

One to watch out for.....

I must admit i have had some odd moments by the sea around a full moon . I have seen some very strange people behaving erratically , nay even mysteriously ! ( always women ) and Scotland was the scene this year . Even a very level headed friend spotted how odd  the scene  was watching was  i was watching .  I smiled a knowing smile...  Each time this happens  i have sensed something is wrong or just not right about  some sights ive seen   . How can i explain how it feels ? Well Ive summed it up . When i was in Cornwall at Port Issac the BBC was filming DOC MARTIN on a raised veranda outside a pub . It was a crowd scene . As i watched from a distance it just didn't look real . Too perfect and the crowd didn't move naturally as it was all actors trying to act " natural " This aroused my suspicions and instincts and tested my perception . You can tell when a happening doesn't ring true or just ain't from or caused by natural events because its subtlety wrong or even ridiculously personal , maybe embarrassingly so . So keep an eye out for  " actor's " playing their part . A thrilling experience and quite rare ... Thank goodness as all sanity may be lost   Am i joking ?  Those who know will know as they say.......

The bitter sea...

Its been a while since i updated this page as there is so much i cant put on here . Well the news is full of water tragedy's involving parents and young children and the sea .
1) A English child killed by freak wave on a beach in Spain last week
2) Three children and their father drowned as their boat over turned on a sea  loch at Gairloch
3)At Bude in Cornwall a mother and child died in a strong tidal current
 
All terrible tragedy's in volving the sea all within a week of each other . Very sad but also very odd....