Didnt think I would ever experience this again !

 Today I put a cup of tea on a saucer and a few seconds later it moved by itself giving a brief rattle. Last time anything like this happened was in my awful year of '22. Back then it was cutlery that would rattle after I had put them down. Could this be poltergeist type activity thats occurring because im in a pre carious situation. I wonder. Maybe my energy field is altered again or aura. The fact that its an object ive immediately just handled makes the experience personal, too personal.

And now the weird part...

 There is a shocking synchronicity to my recent trouble, and its taken me a couple of weeks to see it. As I was sat in that hospital ward i saw a neighbor of my parents who had a serious stroke. I remember  my parents saying that as his wife traveled to see him her cars injectors on her engine broke. It then tumbled to me that the same thing had happened on the farm to a tractor of ours before I was admitted. What are the odds of that ? 

Car injectors are mini sprayers that can get blocked. What is a stroke if not a blockage ?

Another tribulation

 Now nearly a fortnight has passed I feel ready to talk about what happened to me. It all started with a numb tingling in my left arm and my lips. Worrying, but not anything major I thought. So I visited my doctor 2 days later who examined me and took my blood pressure ect. He thought it was unlikely to be a stroke, but sent me to hospital as a precaution. This all began at 9am and after tests all day it got to 5pm. My last scan was a MRI but up to now nothing had been found to my relief and I was really ready to to put it all down to a false alarm when I was suddenly visited by a very serious looking doctor telling me I must spend the night under observations 2 very small strokes had been detected.

It really felt like a bad dream. I was all happy to go home. Anyway after an unsettling night on a stroke ward with some very ill people who could walk or talk properly, I was discharged with some blood thinning pills and statins. I have a heart scan coming up for rare problems and also a scan on my neck arteries.

Im feeling great on the pills so something must have been restricting me. I find that I have kept my head through out this crisis. Ive learnt how to having spent that awful time when my ears and nerves were wrong so Im not really a stranger to " every things gone to shit " situations. Ive learnt how to deal with stress and what to do such as on activities that help me switch off. I mean life has to go on and as I have my health still and the medication seems to be working im not totally morbid, but obviously this situation is far from good. 

I just cant believe that its happened and the doctors were surprised too. So im eating healthier and cutting right back on junk food which is a weakness of mine. My cholesterol readings werent over high really though, but  carrying less weight will take the strain off my body. My blood pressure is fine too.

Its a warm dry spring here, but once again I have a problem on my mind as I did with my last tribulation in spring. If I hadnt got to the doctors before Easter it might have been another story altogether. So onwards I go feeling my way along this new one and hoping for the best, again. 

I couldnt have coped with this news a few years ago.

Christmas Badgers : festive animated music video : MrWeebl

Again this adaptation capture the spirit of Christmas. The " Christ " that replaces the " snake " in the previous version is a crude shock, but isnt the birth of Jesus a shocking event ? This makes a nice balanced view of Christmas by force. Have I gone mad ? 

Badgers : animated music video : MrWeebl

This reminds me of where I live. Trapped life in a valley where no one, including me looks further than local when the chips are down. Every now and again a " snake " appears, but it soon passes and we all are back to " badger " as far as the eye can see.

Getting to know you...

 Well its Sunday night and im all melancholy and mixed up. First of all I was shocked at the way Trump and Vance spoke to Zelenski ( i dont care how its spelt ) I thought it was below the belt especially live. Im surprised he dealt with it so calmly. Im not surprised however that he did not cave in to an open ended deal that gave his country no long term security. They tried to bully and humiliate him in public. It reminded me of Covid all over again. I was shocked to see many of my YouTubers are also putting in the boot as well. I find myself agreeing with Starmer now ! Nooooooo.....lol  Feeling disillusioned that people can be, and support such silly ideas and short term spectacle. And who was the idiot who asked if he owned a suit ? Even YouTubers I often love are now taking the rip about this. No im not happy at all and im not entirely sure why this has got to me so much ?

Secondly on visiting our old neighbor at her new house on Saturday she told a story of an incident that happened during filming next door of that movie Emily. In it there is a seance scene, This was originally planned to be filmed in the main hallway by the large stairs, but even after film crew used 4 different cameras the film turn out blank. They rang her during filming to ask what the problem might be. She replied it was probably the ghosts that dwell there. So they filmed the scene in another room in the house and all was fine again. Seriously weird. 

This has prompted me to watch the film on Netflix and im 2/3rds through it and shall watch the rest tomorrow night.

Earlier in the week my daughter bought a dress on line that turned out to be very similar to that of a Victorian servants which amused me, but not her and she has sent it back.  The wind is moaning outside. Such is life here !

Excess deaths in young adults

I stumbled across this channel that I was watching last spring. It disappeared from my feed as some do without reason. These figures are horrendous and what I find very interesting is that deaths through transport have also increased alongside various diseases.

I had a hunch that peoples driving had got worse, and the accidents even locally, ever more horrific. We had another 4 people killed in a single motorway accident again the other week.  Peoples perception and judgement are now under question in my mind .Deaths from alcohol are up. anything bad is up by about 3 fold. 

What a mess.

 Who will rob the cruel creator of his sport ?

Telling the truth, but not locally !

 Im in a very strange mood tonight. Ive been discussing my views on local houses and their faults online that are so common here. Doing this on a local community forum was a mistake. If you say one bad thing about this area then local people assume automatically that you hate the area. They are so dumb and narrow minded that its unbelievable. They cant appreciate what a spectrum of views is. 

It all started when someone posted about moving to this area to retire. They asked what it was like as they wanted to buy a house here. And here the trouble starts as the house is a whole financial outlook and a life style purchase, so to call these houses into question is like calling their judgement into question. They are so naive. 

Its a house of cards that everyone buys into. Builders repair them undertaking huge projects. Banks love to lend money over a lifetime to buy them ect. Culturally an English mans home is his castle ( unless its subsiding ) lol. Challenge these things at your peril. The truth will gain you no friends.

People who move here project a rose tinted view of the whole valley. Well you,ve only been here a few years and at the first sign of trouble you will lie and sell your money pit to some poor unsuspecting person. Its dog eat dog.

A local builder who posted that I had no respect for the area tried to sell his house to my parents. Turned out his kitchen was not up to modern regulations. He backed out first though. So he knows where " all the bodies are buried " so to speak. It takes one to know one. Its a taboo subject all this skulduggery and deception.