Gigi D'Agostino - Silence "vision2" ( Underconstruction 1 )

Ive only just recently been able to listen to this track / album again. This takes me back to my peak experience days. It was Winter as it is now. I remember driving down our country lane and being aware of every snow flake as it fell. That spell of  cold weather that occurred over Christmas had its very own  separate atmosphere. It felt  as though it was almost holy, but in a pagan way.The frosts were particularly hard at night, and the moon was a Wintery cold white colour. One day there was even the rumble of an earth quake that occurred locally. All in all this was too much to deal with. I was overpowered by life in a bitter sweet way. The hollow silvery sound of this track captures perfectly how it felt inside.



There are also two very strange things about this mix. At the very beginning there is the sound of a crackling fire on a sea shore. At that time that fire crackling sound started to appear in adverts and various mediums in my sphere. It was very surreal. The second strange thing is the way the male singers voice merges into a male voice at the end of the first vocals. This is very well done and has a gender blending tone to it. This excites me. No idea why because its very odd.

Millennium S02E43 Somehow, Satan Got Behind Me

My God, that's life alright !!   I am a big fan of the 3 series of Millennium. Only one episode was a comedy though.  Although tongue in cheek this one captures many quite serious truths about how our lives have become mundane and unsatisfying.

Sunset Shimmer's Wrath/Defeat

Im the first to admit that this transformation sequence is quite hard core. Is this an action scene taken from a Manga adult animation then ? Why, no...this happens to be the latest My Little Pony offering. Mmmm... Things turn even stranger when an alternative dimension  is shown to be accessible only during a full moon, and through a mirror. This is referred to as a" portal " . On each side of the portal each character has its own version. The " angels " fight the " demons " , and magic is used in battle. Sometimes childrens TV programs contain more than first meets the eye. I must admit that I like this animation. It has a charm about it. Its an odd mix for a childrens film though, surely ? Of course most people wont ever realise the nod and wink towards occult ideas contained in the plot.

Skid Row - In A Darkened Room (Official Video)

Im not really sure how Skid Row managed to not make it big time...Oh, hold on I remember now...They were signed by Bon Jovi into a notorious recording contract that was known for being one of the most exploitive and degrading in the music industry. I learnt that from a documentary ! Some of the bands tracks actually are emotional in a way ive not found in other metal bands albums. Wasted Time is a good example. I wouldn't listen to it unless I was in a cast iron frame of mind, such is its power. Songs so good they hurt, but still I cant resist.

Why Little Matters ?

If its HOT you'll want COOL
If you want COOL you'll get HOT
If its GOOD it turns BAD
If its BAD it turns GOOD
If your HAPPY you'll turn SAD
If your SAD then you'll find HAPPY
If your BORED you'll find PURPOSE
If you have PURPOSE you'll get BORED
If your SECULAR you'll find GOD
If you've found GOD you'll turn SECULAR...

This is the joke of life. The joke of the General at the Expense of the Particular

Eventually life just becomes about waking up every morning. It becomes not about money, love or reproduction. Just waking up day after day after day... then worrying about not waking up one day. What other way would we live if we had the chance ? Ive no idea. I feel like ive woken up half way along a train journey to a destination I never wanted to set off for. Then there is tomorrow and a thousand days after that to come. Seasons will change ect. Maybe I could go back to the start again when I didn't realise this plodding on would be so mechanical. Summer will come and mask everything delivering all its distractions. Only Winter reveals the truth...

St Patricks Church

On Sunday I visited St Patricks Church in Heysham and the Priory ruins behind it. I had heard a while ago there were some graves there that were carved out of  rock. Only after looking around the Priory ruins did I finally find them. They were in such an unlikely place, on a slab of rock at the very edge of a small cliff that looked out to sea. The view from this rock was epic. I can see now why they were located there . You could almost imagine flying out to sea and away across the open landscape somehow. I think this was why this site was chosen for use as a premium burial site. Carving the graves from the rock must have been much work so im guessing the people laid to rest in them must have been important. The rock slab felt like a launch pad, and only a temporary resting place. Its just the feeling I got when I visited though. It seemed as though it was a departing point for souls. I could imagine the spirits of the deceased shooting of across the bay. It was not a restful stable site. It implied movement and the start of a journey. Well that was what I strongly felt that day.
   I have noticed that Priorys whether ruined or intact still carry the most amazing atmospheres of peace and tranquillity. It doesn't seem to matter how long they have been ruins, or how much is left, the feeling of total peace is still living there. I guess all the rituals practised in them have led to a lasting aura ? Anyway I returned home feeling quite refreshed. I felt still quite tired, but some part of me was replenished. I guess that was mission accomplished.
 Another thing I have noticed is how I get disorientated when I am getting near these places. I forgot which turn off to take and ended up driving through the village back streets. I also experience a very black mood before hand too. It almost seems like these two annoying events always have to happen before I find the peace Im looking for.

 

Priory ruins

 

 

 

Rock graves. Pre 8th Century ? No one is sure...

 

St Patricks

Reaching the Sea

Cant Sleep

I cant sleep. This moon has me feeling like a stretched out elastic band. It is so bright tonight that I can see the walls and hedges in the fields outside. A strange light covers everything. Ive been so tired today that I tried to sleep this afternoon, but failed. I ended up writing a raunchy recollection of a christening I attended last year ! It is on my Moon blog. Oooer.... ! Im blaming the moons feminine forces for that ramble. Just roll with it...