The real fields.... ? ( nope , I aint saying that word ! )

Tonight I watched a rather striking music video that was brought to my attention . Cue watery caves and moonlight reflections . Yes , that brought back many memories of a time not so long ago . There is a cave in Cornwall at Tintagel called Merlin's Cave that fills up at high tide from both ends . Its a strange place as at one end it is light and has a nice sand bank at the entrance  , and at the other end is a dark sterile gully that is open to the rough sea . Halfway between these two points is a dark black cavity that gets no sun light . The sound of the sea at the gully end in the dark part of the cave leads to a dangerous atmosphere and its not possible I found to stop there long .
    I love that cave . Once as I came out of it the church bells of the nearby St Micheal's started chiming and as I looked out to sea I saw a Tornado heading toward the shore about a mile away . It was sucking up the sea water into the sky .
    My heart is in Tintagel , well it was a strange time then . I believe you don't have to physically  visit this cave to make use of it . I guess its called  Merlin's  cave for a reason . Never write off the cheesy or the kitch because beneath there maybe treasure or a hidden power house . This figures as the nearby St Micheal's and supposed lay lines add kudos to this idea or view I have .
   I normally explore places like this after the sun has gone down and after most of the tourists have gone after a hot day and dusk closes in , also I like to be on my own though I dream of a like minded person to accompany me who is open to the mystical sights . Two heads might come up with more . Of course lifes social side and conventional practicality's will never see this happen ( actually to dismiss this little dream entirely feels like blasphemy somehow , why is that I wonder , strange ) One day this will happen I believe , but It will be in my twilight years as an old man . I know that sounds odd but I just feel it .

An unintentional messenger

Tonight someone I know well volunteered a piece of information to me in the middle of a conversation . This information was delivered in a totally random manner and had nothing to do with what I was discussing with them . It was as if they were a channel to deliver this message to me . Its still making me smile just how silly it was and the way it was clumsily fed to me . I don't even know if the person was aware of what they had said .
   This used to happen to me quite a lot . People would come out with random statements that aided me in a sticky area of my social life . At first I thought I was imagining it , but after a few years I have come to believe that there maybe third party's in our conversations and that some peoples actions are solely to get a piece of info to you without even realising they are doing it . Anyway this situation tonight just reminded me of all the times it has happened to me in the past . The info is worthless to me today but the method of its delivery excited me . It reminds me of " magick " and how it works . Its beautiful , truly life affirming and it seems to continue long after you want it too , rightly or wrongly . Or maybe its just that gravity I talked about a few posts ago ? Who knows . Perhaps this was the last dregs of a past situation ?

Just as you write it all off...

Suddenly things aren't so mundane . There has been reflected back at me through several sources a synchronicity this weekend . Its been personal  and through several people and modes . The moon is strong and low and hazy tonight . Feminine forces are on a  force majour  !  This will continue for a short season . That's all I can say for now . It feels like Spring , but for a short season....

Another one bites the dust !

Today my Sister admitted to me that she no longer read my blogs as they had gone   " mad  ! "  

Brave New World ?

" Happiness is never exciting , unlike a great struggle or crises .... "

Yes Im feeling quite mundane tonight . My everyday world feels quite mundane . I cant find a mood to suit the future . This isn't happiness though as I don't think Ive ever really been happy . Ive felt contented but I know from watching others that I have never been unconditionally happy . Ive felt OK or miserable . I think this mundane feeling I'm having is as close to " happiness " ( does it really exist ? ) Ive ever come .
   This mode of living is do able . Its more balanced but my mind keeps wandering back to the past , but that past is further in the past than I realise . 24hours feels a long , long time at the moment . I judge my life harshly . Days become weeks . Ive said it before but I do feel anaesthetised at the moment . Maybe this is balance ?
   I recently found a really good analogy of how I felt living a peak experience compared to now . It is actually two mixes of a song by Sash . One is the ordinary release and the other is a mix with a darker slower beat and much more deliberate in its pace , more intimate too in its atmosphere . I would post the two side by side as its an excellent example that would explain the difference in my feelings today more than a thousand words ever could . The only problem is the second mix is an obscure one and I cant find it anywhere but I shall keep on trying as its a good example .  

 Literally just now on a radio 4 quiz I have on in the background there was an answer to a question and Brave New World  was mentioned !!!   ? Its been that sort of day ... I have checked out the question on google and Im not mistaken and I did not mis-hear this either . This title came up in relation to the answer : Crome Yellow .

SURELY  THIS IS A PROFOUND MOMENT ???

Its a weekend of synchronicitys again ,  beyond a joke . They just keep,em coming....

Gigi D'Agostino - Deeper ( Underconstruction 3 )

When you least expect it !

Tonight as I was excitedly talking to someone about my future holiday to Glastonbury I briefly saw a brilliant white light for a second on the floor . About this time 2 years ago , shortly before the birth of my daughter I saw bright sparks of electric blue in the air . They were singular and brief . Sometimes they were very near , sometimes in a field as I drove past . Again today as then it is very stormy wild weather and there is a harsh bright atmosphere . I feel a magic in the air as of then . Sparks and lights are rare occurrences for me , but I think they herald huge advancements . As always to look directly at them sees then vanish . They are a sign of magick , but this isnt my doing . It is however very positive . Thats quite certain !

That which I cannot name

A post today related to the image of heavenly beings ( I cannot print the name that these beings are called  , I shall call these beings A  ) reminded me of several times when I have used images of  them on line . I used a comedy image of an A on face book for a profile picture . Immediately my chat function shut down . I was quite shocked as on deleting this image of an A my chat function returned immediately . This event was repeated again a few weeks later leading me to conclude it was forbidden for me to use their image or name. No one else seems to have this problem or restriction . The second time was followed by laptop repair...
   I briefly looked into a certain kind of magic online related to these beings , and a sign of contact was often electrical problems or malfunctions . Of course water problems are a sign I believe of subconscious changes or forces ( possibly feminine ) so I guess beings affecting electric items isnt so different . Of course Im not going to dabble in something I cannot even print the name of without trouble . Im not that stupid .
   Most people will think this post is a joke but believe me it has me rattled . I have a serious respect for that which ive mentioned .
   I also have a family member who when they visit nearly always cause electrical supply disruptions . Its uncanny and a running joke in our family . If they are in the house then then electrical problems are nearly always present .