Didnt think I would ever experience this again !

 Today I put a cup of tea on a saucer and a few seconds later it moved by itself giving a brief rattle. Last time anything like this happened was in my awful year of '22. Back then it was cutlery that would rattle after I had put them down. Could this be poltergeist type activity thats occurring because im in a pre carious situation. I wonder. Maybe my energy field is altered again or aura. The fact that its an object ive immediately just handled makes the experience personal, too personal.

And now the weird part...

 There is a shocking synchronicity to my recent trouble, and its taken me a couple of weeks to see it. As I was sat in that hospital ward i saw a neighbor of my parents who had a serious stroke. I remember  my parents saying that as his wife traveled to see him her cars injectors on her engine broke. It then tumbled to me that the same thing had happened on the farm to a tractor of ours before I was admitted. What are the odds of that ? 

Car injectors are mini sprayers that can get blocked. What is a stroke if not a blockage ?

Another tribulation

 Now nearly a fortnight has passed I feel ready to talk about what happened to me. It all started with a numb tingling in my left arm and my lips. Worrying, but not anything major I thought. So I visited my doctor 2 days later who examined me and took my blood pressure ect. He thought it was unlikely to be a stroke, but sent me to hospital as a precaution. This all began at 9am and after tests all day it got to 5pm. My last scan was a MRI but up to now nothing had been found to my relief and I was really ready to to put it all down to a false alarm when I was suddenly visited by a very serious looking doctor telling me I must spend the night under observations 2 very small strokes had been detected.

It really felt like a bad dream. I was all happy to go home. Anyway after an unsettling night on a stroke ward with some very ill people who could walk or talk properly, I was discharged with some blood thinning pills and statins. I have a heart scan coming up for rare problems and also a scan on my neck arteries.

Im feeling great on the pills so something must have been restricting me. I find that I have kept my head through out this crisis. Ive learnt how to having spent that awful time when my ears and nerves were wrong so Im not really a stranger to " every things gone to shit " situations. Ive learnt how to deal with stress and what to do such as on activities that help me switch off. I mean life has to go on and as I have my health still and the medication seems to be working im not totally morbid, but obviously this situation is far from good. 

I just cant believe that its happened and the doctors were surprised too. So im eating healthier and cutting right back on junk food which is a weakness of mine. My cholesterol readings werent over high really though, but  carrying less weight will take the strain off my body. My blood pressure is fine too.

Its a warm dry spring here, but once again I have a problem on my mind as I did with my last tribulation in spring. If I hadnt got to the doctors before Easter it might have been another story altogether. So onwards I go feeling my way along this new one and hoping for the best, again. 

I couldnt have coped with this news a few years ago.