Anger

My mood is awful at the moment. Im exhausted and have been denied my week away from this valley due to the lockdown. Days away will have to suffice, but im still in that about to explode mood. First explosion occurred when low water pressure ( the usual problem ) denied me a bath. As soon as my rant finished the water coming from the tap turned to filth ( private supply ) At first i thought coincidence...  

The second explosive rant occurred when i saw a neighbour having a builder dredge and level his pond. Again and immediatly ( where has blogger spell checker gone, in such a mood i dont care just like when i started blogging, eh ? )  a huge blast of wind came spilling 2 large buckets of animal feed. Ive never ever seen a full one blow over in my life so far. 

 Thirdly and finally today a cup flew off the kitchen work surface when again i exploded about a situation coming to a head. 

Seems my anger is manifesting physically. Bit scary ?  Well i once brought a reasonable sized tree down across a road when my thoughts day dreamed. Beware the power of the mind. Its a loaded gun. Or loose cannon ? Whatever, choose your own analogy...

This is un-natural

A quick thought...90 % of traffic has gone from our roads around here, so why am i still having " close shaves " with cars and random debris suspiciously left on the road. Recently ive come across an abandoned wooden packing crate left on a blind hill end, a miniture pony in the middle of the road and last week a block of wood with a 6 " nail sticking out of it !!!  I also meet people at the worst narrow places on single track roads, and all of this despite 90% of traffic evapourated due to Covid. Seems as though risk has remained the same on the roads or has increased many fold provide this appearance relative to today's traffic levels. Maybe fate steps up a gear when life cuts you a break ? Either way this is un- natural, for me.

Maybe this is just relative to me. I would love to know...

Water trouble ?

 

There is more than an element of truth to these lyrics living where i do. The death of a child by drowning in a tarn thats the source of our water supply many years ago, and the constant water trouble today leads me to draw no other conclusion. 

Ive worked every day since last August, and its looking highly likely my week away in May will not happen this year. What i will become of me. Im usually on the edge by then anyway. God help me...