I read a book a while ago that suggested that extremely benevolent , spiritual trial blazing , philanthropist ( is that the right word ?) type people often have a small very dark part of their life well hidden . A dark alter ego you might say . They often have , how can I put this ? They often abuse others . Catholic priests , Jimmy Saville to name two examples . Apparently in history this is not unusual .
Why would Godly charitable people do this ? Many evil or damaged people do not stoop this low so why do a minority of the righteous ? How many people guilty of this abomination do we idolise ? Is it an unavoidable price paid of being a " saint ? " If so why ? I ask this question in a moraly detacted sense otherwise I wouldn't dare ask it !
Saturday, 10 August 2013
Thursday, 8 August 2013
Boscastle . Ground zero ?
Tonight I find myself looking back four years to an event which kick started my whole mystical journey . I was on holiday in Cornwall and decided to visit Boscastle .The village had been on the news because of a sudden torrent of water tearing through it the previous summer so I thought id check out how the repairs were going , it being now the following spring . Im sure if you google the word Boscastle youll find film of the dramatic event ...
. I was particularly stressed about a personal situation that lay ahead for me that I could not avoid when I was to return back home . At the same time I felt exhilarated that this situation was occurring ! Good times could be ahead I imagined but also I knew so was extreme fear , almost paralysing me . A heady mixture then . I cannot stress how scared I was for my future then . I was in a state of mental terror to be honest.
Anyway while I was fishing from the cliff tops I got a terrible feeling I was unwelcome there . An uncomfortable feeling like I was desecrating the area and that someone wanted me to leave . I have never felt so uncomfortable in any place before . The bass sound of the sea at low tide was booming in a sea cave below me and that was also making me feel strange . I can still recall that atmosphere even now. I left and returned down the cliff path . Feeling I was being followed I turned round to see a young woman walking about 15 meters behind me . Her long brown hair fell over her face just like in the film " The Grudge " . Stupid as that sounds its was exactly like that . Her head was looking at the ground Her whole face was hidden . This alarmed me so I paused to gaze , she kept walking but she never seemed to get any nearer and the odd thing was as she walked her feet moved conventionally but her head remained at a steady level as giving a very strong impression she was gliding not walking behind me . My wife also confirmed later this woman was watching me intensely while I fished earlier from a higher position up on some rocks . At the bottom of the path we waited on a bridge ready to catch her coming round the corner unawares so as to get a good look at her . Well her hair was still falling completely over her face and she seemed uneasy when she had to walk directly at us so she turned reluctantly it seemed into a youth hostel doorway and disappeared .
She didn't move or look real. She seemed very uncomfortable or maybe intensely shy as though she couldn't wait to get away .Her body language suggested she was in a daze or feeling lost
Another strange thing was how easy it was to walk up the footpaths around the coast . I felt almost weightless as though I was being helped . Maybe this has something to do with the layers of quartz that lie in seams in the ground . The rocks around Boscastle and Tintagel are also magnetic . The combination I believe made this event happen or influenced it . Quartz being a crystal of course .
I came across a poem on the net by a Boscastle resident about a woman on the path . Maybe she is known to appear to others ?
On returning home I told a friend and he suggested I read Dion Fortunes The Sea Priestess which blew my mind really . This is not the only strange event to happen and the second one I have on a photograph and it still haunts me now, Last year a lone woman wearing a white shoal and long pink dress is watched me across the other side of the harbour as the sun was setting . She has her arms folded , She is short and quite stout . I didn't notice her on my photo for several months . How I missed this I don't know . How I didn't see her when taking the photo I don't know . She is also focused intently watching me too .
You know to really capture how this all felt accurately I could spend all day editing and rewriting to distill the true emotions I felt . These words don't do it justice . This is only one small story . This is a problem when explaining mystical experiences . It just felt this way at the time .....
http://youtu.be/SxweiRNlHbo Film of the flood !!!
. I was particularly stressed about a personal situation that lay ahead for me that I could not avoid when I was to return back home . At the same time I felt exhilarated that this situation was occurring ! Good times could be ahead I imagined but also I knew so was extreme fear , almost paralysing me . A heady mixture then . I cannot stress how scared I was for my future then . I was in a state of mental terror to be honest.
Anyway while I was fishing from the cliff tops I got a terrible feeling I was unwelcome there . An uncomfortable feeling like I was desecrating the area and that someone wanted me to leave . I have never felt so uncomfortable in any place before . The bass sound of the sea at low tide was booming in a sea cave below me and that was also making me feel strange . I can still recall that atmosphere even now. I left and returned down the cliff path . Feeling I was being followed I turned round to see a young woman walking about 15 meters behind me . Her long brown hair fell over her face just like in the film " The Grudge " . Stupid as that sounds its was exactly like that . Her head was looking at the ground Her whole face was hidden . This alarmed me so I paused to gaze , she kept walking but she never seemed to get any nearer and the odd thing was as she walked her feet moved conventionally but her head remained at a steady level as giving a very strong impression she was gliding not walking behind me . My wife also confirmed later this woman was watching me intensely while I fished earlier from a higher position up on some rocks . At the bottom of the path we waited on a bridge ready to catch her coming round the corner unawares so as to get a good look at her . Well her hair was still falling completely over her face and she seemed uneasy when she had to walk directly at us so she turned reluctantly it seemed into a youth hostel doorway and disappeared .
She didn't move or look real. She seemed very uncomfortable or maybe intensely shy as though she couldn't wait to get away .Her body language suggested she was in a daze or feeling lost
Another strange thing was how easy it was to walk up the footpaths around the coast . I felt almost weightless as though I was being helped . Maybe this has something to do with the layers of quartz that lie in seams in the ground . The rocks around Boscastle and Tintagel are also magnetic . The combination I believe made this event happen or influenced it . Quartz being a crystal of course .
I came across a poem on the net by a Boscastle resident about a woman on the path . Maybe she is known to appear to others ?
On returning home I told a friend and he suggested I read Dion Fortunes The Sea Priestess which blew my mind really . This is not the only strange event to happen and the second one I have on a photograph and it still haunts me now, Last year a lone woman wearing a white shoal and long pink dress is watched me across the other side of the harbour as the sun was setting . She has her arms folded , She is short and quite stout . I didn't notice her on my photo for several months . How I missed this I don't know . How I didn't see her when taking the photo I don't know . She is also focused intently watching me too .
You know to really capture how this all felt accurately I could spend all day editing and rewriting to distill the true emotions I felt . These words don't do it justice . This is only one small story . This is a problem when explaining mystical experiences . It just felt this way at the time .....
http://youtu.be/SxweiRNlHbo Film of the flood !!!A little lost sometimes / THE ALMIGHTY
http://youtu.be/d5W2PX23xzE A song that brings back too many memories......
Wednesday, 7 August 2013
Nails in the coffin ?
Something very odd is happening . Something is at work attacking my connections on fb . Firstly there is the friend i cant get to return my messages . Secondly there is the friend I blocked on the scene again trying to get in touch again . Thirdly a family member has closed her fb account without warning which will make organising seeing them awkward .
Ive seen the tide turn both ways in life and this looks a bit bleak . On an up side their are growing friendships online and in the " real world " which is nice . It feels as though someone has it in for me . Ive felt this before . Or maybe its just fate . Strange times and ive a feeling there gonna get stranger ..or maybe its low tide before events turn .
Ive seen the tide turn both ways in life and this looks a bit bleak . On an up side their are growing friendships online and in the " real world " which is nice . It feels as though someone has it in for me . Ive felt this before . Or maybe its just fate . Strange times and ive a feeling there gonna get stranger ..or maybe its low tide before events turn .
Black light
Feeling tired tonight after a days shearing sheep . Caught myself putting arsey comments on facebook due to a " daughter of Pan " . Intentionally or not .
Its a strange night here . Bright and sunny with some cloud cover but the light is like that of a " black light " falling on the dark green ground . The trees are smothered in black as shadows fill their leaves . The sun is getting lower now and the mornings are cold and the dews heavy . Its a gothic type look to the dale alright tonight and i bet no one else has even noticed......
Its a strange night here . Bright and sunny with some cloud cover but the light is like that of a " black light " falling on the dark green ground . The trees are smothered in black as shadows fill their leaves . The sun is getting lower now and the mornings are cold and the dews heavy . Its a gothic type look to the dale alright tonight and i bet no one else has even noticed......
Monday, 5 August 2013
Sunday, 4 August 2013
Whoops Apocolypse ?
Just come off facebook ( do as i say , not as i do ) trying again to contact that friend. The really annoying thing is that seeing this person face to face is great . But they rarely even read my messages or sometimes they do but don't reply then i have fantastic time face to face again . .
. I shall be putting some sky or rather cloud photos on here soon . Last time i did this it meant new horizons and mindsets and i think it does again . It means new ideas as the element of air always does . Many things have been dropping , crashing over when im around them and several balloons just randomly exploding recently a social event . Ive seen this pattern before . There are big changes ahead i hope .
Im seeing a lot of symmetry of events at the moment . Things running parallel to my life . If im right you will know about it . If im wrong , well... no im not wrong . I know a connection when i see one . Risky statement but lets see...... A few days a go i posted on fb i was considering the way of Tao as ive been through hell trying to shape life recentlty ( but got good results up until know ) as i am tired of " trying " . Just one of many examples i could state to vindicate the above statement . Sounds scary ? Well ive been through this type of thing before and know what im on about . Good things will come ..... Im out on a limb again !!!
I write so much on here that im scared people will not believe or is easier for people not to believe . I rely on the open minded .
. I shall be putting some sky or rather cloud photos on here soon . Last time i did this it meant new horizons and mindsets and i think it does again . It means new ideas as the element of air always does . Many things have been dropping , crashing over when im around them and several balloons just randomly exploding recently a social event . Ive seen this pattern before . There are big changes ahead i hope .
Im seeing a lot of symmetry of events at the moment . Things running parallel to my life . If im right you will know about it . If im wrong , well... no im not wrong . I know a connection when i see one . Risky statement but lets see...... A few days a go i posted on fb i was considering the way of Tao as ive been through hell trying to shape life recentlty ( but got good results up until know ) as i am tired of " trying " . Just one of many examples i could state to vindicate the above statement . Sounds scary ? Well ive been through this type of thing before and know what im on about . Good things will come ..... Im out on a limb again !!!
I write so much on here that im scared people will not believe or is easier for people not to believe . I rely on the open minded .
Saturday, 3 August 2013
The golden blog: Dont fight it if you dont know what it is ?
The golden blog: Dont fight it if you dont know what it is ?: http://youtu.be/wdJ1waFziC0 The Panics
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